guess i was too sensitive, with regards to the previous post... nth was said about feeling of displeasure towards me... sounds like self denial? like again and again... but, it doesn't matter if i'm happy :) ... the stone is still there but at least i'm looking at the side that makes me happy now :)

i know everything is piling up, and it'll come crashing down on me someday, someday... and i hope to tidy up the stuff before that happens... waiting for the appropriate time, appropriate mood... I dun want to start on the wrong piece and the stack eventually crash down before i can put anything into place... yet i'm afraid that all these waiting is piling the stuff up...

i cant do this alone... i need help... i wonder if the same sentiments is shared?

and time is so little... i wanna be happy in the little time i have... yet... somehow, things are beginning to end unhappily... and i'll spent the whole of the time alone thinking about it, getting emo over it, convincing myself that i'm just too sensitive, become happy over just a sms and thus convince myself successfully.... and remains happy till the next time something happens again...

the previous post was supposed to be much longer... too much i wanted to say... but i was too tired after the 2 gatherings that followed the incident... and i'm glad for some company like this :) ... though they have no idea that my insides was tearing like shredding papers, i laughed and forgot about everything while i was with them... for the moment...

HAHA... this is always what happens when i start expecting too much... haha... i should really stop hoping for what i'll nv get, so i'll be happier when it comes... stop saying what i want or expect, so i'll nv feel upset when i know someone is always gonna hear, but not listen... and stop putting in so much, so i wun feel unappreciated everytime something backfires...

perhaps, i'm just not that important...

and no... that was not an emotional statement... i'm certainly important, i know... to certain extent... and yes, i know i'm not always important... and the problem lies with me being someone who cannot express myself correctly... my concern for others, and my fears... and i'm not someone interesting, always too serious... but i do like myself for who i am... at least i know, there is so much things i can do, cause i'm mature enough... so much achievements i can expect... and so much happier just exploring life despite all the stumbles and falls...

he asked if everything is ok and i said yes, abit hesitantly... i hope next time, i dun have to hesitate... and he dun have to do anything again

anw~

wingkin is back! frm hongkong haha... had a nice time chilling up and updating each other (mainly zk's love life xD) at the coffee club (Holland V)... haha wanted to eat chicken rice but the stall was closed. thus, we had zhi char instead~ crabs!!! lol... nice~

and ya~ lots of things are going on, now that i'm out of my chicken pox

toyRus stocktake~ interesting!!! wasn't as lucky as my lingling, but at least i did not have to count batteries (that was emo)

recees~ good place we found! and had an impromptu recee on sun nite~ damn dark! lucky zq drove, we ended at one plus =s sad thing is, he had to drive all the way to the other end of sg den back to central again... nice of him to send me home :) though lik, he shld? lol but! at least i see the stuff coming out :D

went to pick saga seeds with steph too! got like 500+ of it... lots of them at st andrews cathedral!~ haha interesting exp, we were lik, why are we doing all these? HAHA

celebration brought fwd to wed since he had duty on sat... damn cork up... but, at least it wasn't sth we always do together :)

went on air on 933FM live too~ on thurs, for our publicity~ thr was nth much, but it was kind of interesting... at least i didn't say anything wrong xD shopped on fri with joanne~ haha i didn't see anything i like but she found some nice stuff... had dinner with dear after meeting up with zq to discuss about the ideas... enjoyed the atmosphere of the dinner that day :D

Happy - Leona Lewis

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can’t have everything
Don’t you take chances
You might feel the pain
Don’t you love in vain
’cause love won’t set you free

I can’t stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

So what if it hurts me?
So what it I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge,
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
'cause I just trying to be happy
I just wanna be happy, yeah

Holding on tightly
Just can’t let go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear
But all these days
They feel like they’re they’re same
Just different faces
Different place
Get me out of here

I can’t stand by the side
Ooh, no
And watch this life pass me by
Pass me by

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge?
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I’m just trying to be happy

Oh, happy
Oh

So many terms that I can't see
Like I'm a stranger on this road
But don't say victim
Don’t say anything

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge?
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I just wanna be happy
Happy
I just wanna be
Oh
I just wanna be
Happy. 4:07 AM
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ying ming aka cabbage/veggie/veg/cai/cat
18
8th Oct 1990
libra
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