as usual, studied with khiam and yf, met zhenghui laixing shiyun justin wenwei, had dinner with yf, continue mug

den i suddenly thought abt making promises... broken, and not... and since people only remember the bad things that you do to them, elsewise, they'll only remember how many promises you broke, and not how many you fulfil, unless those you've fulfil are enough to make them realise that you're puttin in an effort to fulfil promises you made with them.

and the sad case is, people only know when they had fulfil their promises, but hardly realise that they've broken a promise. i tink the same applies to me, but i dun realise. that's because sometimes, ppl just say something which meant a lot of someone, but they've forgotten what they've said, or gave little thought about it. they know they've said it, but somehow didn't realised that they were not fulfillin it, or maybe they did realise, but only subconciously.

and it hurts. especially when the person is important to u, especially when after many repetitions, things remain the same. especially when, the word "understanding" weigh heavily to the limit on one side, and it just topples and fall, as a chair with a pair of broken legs

i've hurt some people before, and likewise, i've been hurt by others. perhaps things like these just goes around. perhaps we're not mature enough mentally yet.

and maybe that's why children are naive, before they are cheated, lied to by others as they grow up to become an adult. when you are no longer naive, you have see the darker side of the world, and you lose faith in others. perhaps, it will only be then that you will give up believing in promises.

dramas are adult versions of fairytales. lead you to believe you will be able to find someone who is true to you, that you can achieve success in the end if you work hard. i mean, how can a person be as kind and as perfect as protrayed in those drama series? it is reality for few. smaller than minority. fiction for most. larger than majority.

stop getting cheated. i also enjoy watching these dramas and reading these kind of stories, but, honestly, it is exactly because they are not reality, that's why they are nice to watch or read.

To End Off: You Break A Promise, You Have To Fulfil Another Two To Make Up For It. You Break Three, You Fulfil Another Eighteen. Break Ten, Fulfil Another Two Hundreds. These Numbers Does Not Matter. They Just Show That This Is Not A One-To-One Issue, For Breaking Is Far More Easier Than Mending.

Cheers =D 12:41 AM
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Ok, after mugging today, it proved that i'm too ambitious... BUT STILL, I'LL TRY

I NEED TO BE MORE FOCUS

haha was browsing through friendsters and blogs just a min ago... lookin at the photos we took in the past... then i tink of all happy things that happened, and the stupid stuff we did...

saw some photos which we took, den i suddenly recalled about my "merry-go-round" incident... HAHA wah lao... who noes all the boys so violent? HAHA... damn it lar and heng clarence was just behind mi... if not i guess i'll become some retard who'll nv be able to take o lvls, let alone study in a jc... den it leads me to think about how i've fallen down the stairs once and got a bun on my head when i was in pri sch... come to think of it, my partner that tym was weiqiang... and who knows mindy, wanyee and i will become very good friends in P5 and 6?

den thr's justin, whom khaim and i saw today in the lib... and who suddenly talked about P5 bringin P1 students abt the sch... omg he still can rmb his kid... khaim and i totally forgot... all i can rmb was bits of how we gathered in the temp parade ground for some briefin, den me bringin them to the temp sch canteen... haha and i rmbed how we used to play the scissors paper stone thing which i win most of the time since i can split and everyone at that tym does not have very long legs... HAHA our class's window was smashed by sanjun's and xianhan's class, 6H 2001, which was in the morning session... how i often competed with justin for his chinese in P3... how ceyu and some 5G 2001 guy whose name i cnt rmb poped their head into our class and get our guys to go out and play... how we girls used to go to the park aftersch and chit chat... and tons and tons of stuff

still rmb all the scandals or rumors in class? HAHA like how samuel wanted to pose as "erkang" when yeeteng was "ziwei" =x... wah... those stupid times

HAHA and den... winning first prize for class deco EVERY SINGLE TIME, even with low cost and last min work, but filled with creativity and bribery(the music, the movie, the good food)

didn't we counted the number of "ok"s she said when she was still a trainee teacher? gather at the corridor durin recess to watch them play soccer and shout their respective girl's names, real or rumoured, whenever they got the ball? them borrowin our window's pane, totally self service, when they broke theirs? gettin scolded many times together? delieverin water to them when they got locked out of class? andrew buyin beehoon for all of us? our endless bbqs and steamboat and annual chalet...

the conflicts we used to have, all the conflicts we solved, and all the conflicts we never... HAHA actually, i also dunno why i suddenly miss all this, and how to explain y i'm ok with everything, but it's lik, we dun even see each other often ler, how to stay angry forever at each other when u dun even get to meet up often? HAHA...

OKOK... emo... miss 3E'05 sia... alot... and damn i noe the BHB virus will start spreadin here... and also 6I, though most of us are not close animore... (strangely, i'm now actually closer to khiam and yy) HAHA...

suddenly remember doesn't mean i've forgotten... it just mean i've not been thinkin abt it, and that it's safely tucked away in some part of my brain, where i can just go back to take a look... 11:28 PM
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another day of muggin, with drew... went subway with yensze beforethat

something good: MISS CHEW SAYS THAT SHE THINKS THAT I'VE IMPROVED ALOT!!!

haha... but she only marked my section A, which i left 8/40 blank... section B not yet, and i left 12/40 blank =s... and the MCQ which i finished, but rush thru without much thinkin...

lets hope i wun be careless, and get reasonable grades this time =D

Study Plans:
Week 2: Finish revising and strengthening concept for the whole physic syllabus and , Reread Great Expectations (2 chpts per day)
Week 3: Finish at least MCQ questions(phy) from year 1996 to 2004 papers, Start on Maths Revision Exercise Book
Week 4: Finish Maths Revision Exercise Book for the first time, Strengthen concepts on Inorganic Chem, Start using Mr Wee's method of studying
Week 5: Finish Reading the whole of Great Expectations, Revise Othello and Poetry
Week 6: Look thru J2 content notes
Week 7: Finish up all the revision, do papers

Meanwhile: Finish Chemistry Revision Package before the teachers go through, and finish a set of 101 every single week

WEEK 8 & 9: PRELIMS

Week 10: take two day's break, and continue, come up with new study plan

ok, i noe this seems a bit too ambitious, but i've got to try, right? HAHA

JIAYOU

ANYWAY, i need help... no ideas ler =s

a lot of things was floating through my head... aimlessly...

ANYWAY, was late this morning... somehow, the 198 arrived very late, and helga was late for the first time... and i was shocked when i realised that i'm late even though i'm on the same bus with helga =s

saw korkor on the bus home today... and suddenly realised that he've grown so much older... it's been long time since i look at him up close, and i realised that his face is lined with wrinkles, and he look so frail, small and tired... my impression of him has always been the fierce brother who have a bad temper and a huge diet despite being very thin... my impression of him being big and intimidating was totally destroyed when i saw him just now... 12 years older than me, he's already 30, a father of 2 kids, age 2 and 3... we didn't speak much... never really that close, though i grew up under the same roof as him... time realli change a person, and as i grow up, they're growin older... and what did he tot of when he saw me, the little brat who used to run around his hse screamin at the top of the voice? the realisation that i've grown up, that he was once like me yet growing older now, and that his kids will grow up to be like me one day? 11:52 PM
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waitin for my hair to dry now, so might as well get an entry done b4 it accumulates

last tue... work out with grace and my sis in the mornin... HAHA saw zk dy and zf thr as well... WENT OUT WITH YUNNAN GUYS! HAHA... abt 3 months since the last gatherin, and ya, had a nice time... too bad angela and junjie culdn't join us... but the rest turned up! pt, carine, jh, emer, ch... AND ME!!! WHO WAS LATE FOR 1/2 HOURS! =x... sry guys =x... HAHA had sakae... ate my way thru, but dun have wat i was lookin forward too!!! is sum deep-fried salmon fish... LOL anyway, we didn't last till 6... went off at abt 5 when pt did for her tuition... and cnt decide wat to do next-_-... HAHA carine jh n i wanted to watch sex and the city, and we decided somerset wuld be a good place... however, we reached and the next slot was lik, 9.40? so we watch incredible hulk instead... HAHA not bad... AND THEM!!! already 1/2 yrs since tt ticket incident! STILL MENTIONING LAR!!! LOL... wah lao! HAHA... tink will miss them ba, and at least another 4 mths b4 we'll meet up =s...

wed is mug... with cs andrew cs's friend khiam... thurs ivy khiam cs drew...

fri... MATHS COMMON TEST... WOOT! i had time to finish! but i didn't cos i dunno how to do... and the last fifteen mins... i damn emo, COS END UP I CNT DO THE SIMPLE TOPICS!!! RnC + inequalities!!! ARGH!!!! DAMN SAD... didn't even tot of usin GC to get the ans mark for inequalities... HAHA but the rest i can do lar... i tink i onli left lik 8 marks blank out of 60... hopefully + all my careless mistakes i can still get 42 =x... seems a bit impossible la, but math's the onli sub i'm very confident in now... went straight to lib aftertt, mugged, with cs drew cs's friend

sat mugged, with drew, and sun with yaoyao... drew left his notes at home-_- saw laixing and zhenhui also... THX FOR THE BUBBLETEA!!! LOL...

mon... sch reopen - CHEM MID YR PAPER... ok, i left 20 marks out of 100 blank... hopefully wun be too careless and still pass... HEY BUT I'M GETTING FASTER AND FASTER IN DOIN MY PAPERS!!! =D! but maybe more careless also =x... hope not, though... had dinner with yf, den home

tue... PHY LECT TEST.... start at 2, i started revising at 11am THAT DAY... ok, damn... went home straight aftertt and SLEPT... DAMN TIRED... aniway, i got back lit... 41/75... way way way better den i expected... i tot i will fail till very very badly... ave, ppl wrote 9 pages, 3 for each essay... i wrote 5 and a half... 3 and half for poetry, 1/2 for great ex, 1 and 1/2 for othello... obviously i didn't finish my great ex and othello... AND NOT TO MENTION I CANCEL A LOT... think all the cancellin at up to AT LEAST 1/2 page =s... But ok, got 15/25 for both great ex and poetry, AND SURPRISINGLY, 11/25 for my half page of great ex... HAHA... must work hard

ytd and today... muggin life resumes =D... drew joined mi after his papers these 2 days... wanted to get chinkang to study with mi on ytd, too bad he nv bring his stuff HAHA... 8 7725 2165 59 935 697 233

tink i shld start on phy n lit ler... quite ok with chem and math le, but not with the rest, and PRELIMS IS IN 6 WEEKS... i shld try very very hard for prelims, to get a good guage of my standard, and then continue to improve for A lvls... WOOT

i'm changin... i mean, in the 1st place, I'M MUGGIN??? and not goin out to ton sumwhr, or play pool, BUT MUGGIN??? during jun holidays sumore... I'M MUGGIN??? omg lar... AND YES, CS, U'VE NOT BEEN DREAMIN or anitin... I'M MUGGIN... practically EVERYDAY... =s... siao liao lar... HAHA... muggin is good... give my brain some work so that it dun have time to do anitin else... but, it seems lik i'm losin my sense of touch... i cnt feel animore... a lot of feelins tt were once significant to mi, now, seems very very foreign... lol thr was a day i heard pump it... den i suddenly had the feelin of wantin to do mass dance... and, i feel weird that i feel that way... those feelins are still inside mi, but it very very foreign to mi...

and problems seems nv endin... actually, not lik i'm realli badly affected as i normally will be, but they're still call problems, so i figure they're bad, and that bad things are happening around me...

FOCUS 11:48 PM
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woo back... to mug... and shit my progress's realli realli slow after slackin for 3 whole days ARGH!!! I'M WAY BEHIND TIME... looks lik i wun be able to meet my target, let alone start on phy... AND I'M PANICKIN!!! shit... tink i wun be able to do well for common test as well...

ok, good thing tt i'm panickin now, aniway... THIS IS RARE... HISTORICAL MOMENT... i actually didn't spend my june holidays playin... nvm

but still, I NEED TO CATCH UP WITH MY ENDLESS WORK

today, mugged with vanee cs n his friend... vanee was sayin, today is the last time she'll see mi for a long period of time... i told her ya we wun see each other in july =x=x=x HAHA... vanee dun become more emo den mi lar

thx mayching for helpin mi get the carlsberg! and no, it weren't for mi, it was for my guardian's husband!

and ARGH! this guy is gettin harder and harder to teach! he cnt concentrate! i can ask him a science question, and he answer me by asking me if i've watched this particular anime before! den start tellin mi everything before i drag him back! =s

AND! i seriously dun mind if u squat on the seats of the toilet, and that despite havin done this for so many years your aiming choose not to improve itself, BUT CAN YOU PLEASE AT LEAST WIPE THE SEATS CLEAN AND PRETEND THAT NO ONE WITH EXTREMELY BAD AIMING HAS SQUATTED ON THE SEATS BEFORE??? and i dunno why, but i often become the next patron of those cubicles you these people used ESP WHEN I'M THE IN LIBRARY I STUDY IN EVERY SINGLE DAY!!!

ok end of rants

nice song, very meaningful, yaoyao intro de HAHA... but the mv a bit abstract =s

戴爱玲- 对的人

{那时候的我 一直在想
到底依赖和恋爱有有什么不同
如果过去一切的一切都是我的错觉
那过去 也未免太真实了吧}

你问在我心中
是否还苦恼
那次受伤
否决了爱的好

谢谢你的关照
我一切都好
一个人
不算困扰

爱虽然很美妙
却不能为了寂寞
又陷了泥沼

爱要耐心等待
仔细寻找
感觉很重要
宁可空白了手
等候一次
真心的拥抱
我相信在这个世界上
一定会遇到
对的人出现 在眼角

那次流过的泪
让我学习到
如何祝福
如何转身不要

在眼泪体会到
与自己拥抱
爱不是一种需要
是一种对照

爱虽然很美妙
却不能为了寂寞
又陷了泥沼

爱要耐心等待
仔细寻找
感觉很重要
宁可空白了手
等候一次
真心的拥抱
我相信在这个世界上
一定会遇到
对的人出现

能愿意为了一份爱
付出去多少
然后得到多少并不计较

当我想清楚的时候
我就算已经准备好
放手去爱 海阔天高

爱要耐心等待
仔细寻找
感觉很重要
宁可空白了手
等候一次
真心的拥抱
我相信这世界上
一定会遇到
对的人出现

爱要耐心等待
仔细寻找
感觉很重要
宁可空白了手
等候一次
真心的拥抱
我相信在这个世界上
一定会遇到
对的人出现 在眼角

{在一个人最彷徨的时候 给她安慰
那对寂寞的人来说
是一件多么重要的事情啊} 11:00 PM
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ok back... mon to wed nth special... mon with cs n vanee, tue alone, wed with grace (vivien came over for a while)...

went to gym with grace on mon... managed to put my sis's butt outta the hse and go with us... seemed more useful LOL... wed went back sch and saw sheena... i talked, a lot haha =x...

THURS WAS FUN... ok i didn't mug, stayed at my guardian hse and slacked(bingbing kept thinkin tt the beads on my necklace were sweets! so cute lar!), den went to meet up with the rest for claud's b'day, studied onli a little... woo i was on time n i know tt i'm definitely the earliest =x... so i continued to read my notes till ting wei(who was supposed to be ltr den the rest) came at abt 20 mins ltr and i realised onli the 2 of us reached =s... ok so called the rest(claud ivy mich ky les dickee)... who was mj-ing/waitin at dickee's hse =s... tw acc-ed mi to get my eye drops and we headed thr while we waited for them... got to clark quay, met up with ceyu vanee edwin... OMG lar i forgot which was the resturant we went to le=x... onli noe tt it's where hot babes serve the food in tightfittin t-shirts and shorts HAHA... ANYWAY, THE FOOD WAS GOOD =D lol had a nice dinner with some cough syrup(as described by dickee, supposed to be some alcoholic drink) and walked back slowly... nice place to hang out at nite, passin by pubs... one of them had several interesting and extraordinary jokes, like "what does a husband do after havin ***? he drive home" and also those wit pics... all of us practically stood thr and read the jokes =x... haha so damn wrong lar, all of us girls was also laughin =x... came to the bungy ride thing and pause thr for quite long as well... and bear's slipper spolit... suay! haha den walk all the way back, went to charles n keith(they were supposed to be closed le) but the ppl inside was kind to let us in haha... and yes, the new pair was nice =D... home... seems very much again tt we weren't realli celebratin her b'day, bt just wantin to go out together... but just the mood nt correct lar

fri woke late, wanted to study but came down with a sneezin spree =s... so i got very tired, and decided to go IT fair with vane tiong and jh instead(met them coincidentally!)... when we reached, we saw cs and his frien COINCIDENTALLY... woot... had some food at popeye, den headed for the fair... saw wk and zh thr sia... damn damn lots of ppl... saw ps also, who was workin thr... aftertt went to marina sq, walk abt till cs n i n his frien decided to go home 1st... more tirin den muggin =s

today met vien to buy the food and prep for steamboat... vien obviously nv pei mama go buy n prep food de lor LOL... and thruout she keep sayin tt i'm the hsewife-_- ok eeseng yf n ys turned up... food was nice, but too much =s... got very tired at the end of the day LOL...

AND SHIT, THAT MEANS I NV MUG FOR 3 WHOLE DAYS

tml, HAVE TO GO BACK TO books NOTES

aniway, my muggin mind keeps mi alert still after muggin, tt i dun slp on the bus LOL... so i'll be stonin, and as i do, think... wat else bt things lik wat m i muggin for and all tt? haha...

i realised i dun have my own zilian pics! ARGH! lol i miss sec sch days... and the company! i tink it's the onli company whr i can speak my mind most freely, behave most childishly and be as BHB as i can be... now, the onli other few ppl i can behave liddat to in tis manner is few... emerson, junhao, chienhan, vivien, yensze, jinhui, bingkun, fangming, yunfan, hui shin... esp emerson jinhui bingkun fangming yunfan... most other ppl nv realli seen this side of my b4... and not tt i'm hidin it, bt just dun feel comfortable showin tt side of mi... mich was sayin on thurs, a few yrs ago we'ld have gone out in t-shirt and short skirts... now we're all wearin clothes which are more mature... a few yrs down the road, we'll be in office wear? HAHA... den maybe ten yrs down, we'll be bringing our children out HAHA... time realli changes a person... and i'm seriously glad tt despite all these changes and disagreements, all of us are still comfortable hangin out with each other, and we still have this comfort wit each other which dun realli change... I LOVE MY BYTCHES. AND I MISS 3E'05.

anyway, as i was in lib on tue and went for a little walk, i found a book(just the day after i told vanee i wun be readin storybooks)... "heaven" by susi rajah... well, it's nth romantic and heavenly and spiritual and gentle as the title suggest... and the name of the author sounds lik a malay, but frm her language she seems totally american... except tt her books seems to touch a some sensitive issues abt religion... haha i got attracted by the book on its very first page, but the author's bold language and humourous sarcasm... but also, thr're thought-provoking parts which made me tink of things frm another angle... thr's tis para, "The idea that you can live in harmony with a person is frightenly optimistic. Most relationships are mistakes. Succesful relationships happen when the two people concerned refuse to admit they have made a mistake. Yet this doesn't prevent most women from actively searching for thair next mistake." haha i'm nt gonna write a gp essay on it... but just to state my stand, i agree to a certain extent. 60-40, 60 agree, 40 disagree HAHA 12:32 AM
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lol so back from muggin life... nothing much, had lect on thurs and fri, den is mug, except sat, when i spent searchin for notes i made LOL...

fri went to watch kungfu panda!!! HAHA with fm yt and wl... so cute lar!!! damn funny... end up i had a bag full of stuff, inculdin a kungfu panda soft toy LOL... den aftertt, as usual, mugged, at nite went gym with cck and grace HAHA... a little colour to muggin life

mm... ytd mornin as well... actually, i dunno how it realli is now... and, well... i tot it's holidays HAHA... i once vowed tt if tt ever happen again, i will have my way... but tt's if lar... doubt tt its possible... and, so wat if i have my way? LOL 11:56 PM
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ok, so last thurs to sat i have a camp... and i enjoyed my tym thr...

HAHA camp day one... went at 8 to tie water bombs... LOL initially they onli had one pail of water la! and thr was lik, 8 or 9 of us? LOL... den usual stuff, briefing and all... kena arrowed to be grp leader-_-... sian-_-... HAHA grp one... not bad my grp de ppl quite friendly! tengchuan, sheena, meixiu, xinli, zihui(joined day2), jaya, kannan, addy and mun kit... visited mr haliffi! HAHA kinda miss doin log... ok back to camp... icebreakers... time was too long for some... but for the rest think they had fun HAHA... i danced pump it with jinhui! LOL... apparently i still rmb the steps lar!!! ok generally not bad... quite fun... lunched, den prep for games... lighting alert! + rain! sian... and to prevent accidents, we moved everything indoors... anyway, captain's bomb was fun!!! HAHA the 2nd grp was fierce la!!! HAHA... den blah blah, went thru the other games as well... DEN WE SLACKED... aaron jamie and zihui taught us how to play bridge... HAHA not bad aaron's quite a scheming teacher LOL... wah fun lar! den watched the movie, pursuit of happiness...nice show, despite it being a biography... rite? LOL... i didn't fall aslp lar! goes to show how nice the show was... den is taidee all the way till we slp, b4 i woke at 3 for sentry duty with jamie and shuqing, whom replaced grace and dixon... 697 49976533433 59 4309133 54133... till 4, den is sleep...

camp day two... woke at abt 9=x... breakfasted, slacked till 12.30... rounds of taidee and bridge! HAHA and taught them cluedo! HAHA finally found people who enjoys this game... JAMIE!!! HAHA... aftertt is just briefin, and settin up and tryin out the games... WOOT settin up jinhui's station was fun lar! LOL we just kept throwin and kickin and throwin all the balls until all of us are happy wit the station's arrangement LOL... poor bingkun(mr. married-to-eclub) =x... have to go and pick all the stuff up... cleared up, dinner, ENITE! HAHA... performance was nice... THX JUNIORS... share the same sentiments with cynthia... quite sad tt onli lik, 5 frm BU4 turned up... HAHA but ANNA WAS GOOD!!! BU6!!! LOL... some sort lik my yr's BU5 HAHA... MDM LOW, MR YUEN AND ANOTHER TEACHER SANG!!! NICE!!! 68 61 73 18 51... games... dig into disgustin leftover food(was on the phone debatin with my sis as i was doin it =x), licked polo out of flour+salt+pepper, made to eat disgustin food(which i didn't.. ps ar), crawl thru haunted tunnel(ps to tt girl whose hair was pulled by me =x) HAHA... THX JUNIORS, FOR ALL UR EFFORTS, AND SRY FOR BEING -VE AND NOISY SUMTYMS... STILL, WE HAD FUN =D end, saw grace out, went back for cluedo and bridge =x, waited for sentry duty which was at two... supposed to do with engtong and aaron(who replaced grace), but decided to let them slp... was to sent the two inseparable love birds to bed b4 my duty ends(aka mrs bum and mr married-to-eclub) as __ was stayin for the nite tt day =s... went to brush my teeth all tt, den mr married-to-eclub came to inform mi tt engtong and aaron was waitin for mi outside LN!!! heck... k nvm... threatened to be killed nia ma... brought them for one round and got them to slp... and dogs start barkin =s... aaron and i went to check out, apparently is the guard's dogs...? k nvm, wait till 3, den brought the nxt grp for the nxt round... slp... 697 234897296 38365 8692 54133 163 8 143 39865 563 2173 2995?

woke, played captain's ball... somehow not in the mood to play tt day... so just looked at bingkun yuhui and sharon pass the ball ard... breakfast time, shone abt the lovebirds, and took photos with our bears!!! HAHA... kinda miss being their light bulb HAHA... break camp, grp 1 won the publicity proj for day 2!!! HAHA not lik i got contribute la... but happy for them =D... AND THE RAIN WAS DAMN BIG LAR... waited and waited, but it JUST DUN WAN TO STOP... so ya, in the end went home, but luckily quite dry...

ya... so tt was camp... kinda miss the camp... both sheena and i agreed tt it's damn slack for us, after lik all those other camps we've been thru... haha bt as usual thr was things which draws mi back to it... sheena's determination, tengchuan's sense of responsibility, and the team spirit, takin meticulous care for one another, recognisin each other's strengths, understanding towards each other and nv leavin anione out... very, very touched when i see all these, the maturity of the team members... impressed, impressed... HAHA... and i miss bridge and cluedo also!!! 163 94 397423 8 7822 20363865 5873 2856 687.. aniway, i'm votin for tengchuan, anna or sheena to be the next president of eclub... may i? i realli admire them, after seeing how they work... liling is also not bad...

so after the camp, the next few days is just muggin... sun with mich, mon with mich+claud, tue and today alone... LOL not bad i see progress... and yes, grace and i finally got out to work out today... AND OUR VMT IS DONE... got back my maths test... MISSED BY HALF A MARK!!! ARGH!!! cos of a STUPID CARELESS MISTAKE!!! IF NOT IS FULL MARKS LER!!! ARGH!!! WASTED LAR!!! tink nv in my life i will ever see such a easy test again and i was actually so careless!!! ARGH!!! ok aniway tt means i dun have to attend US =D....

I tink i may fall in love with mugging life... can get my mind off some stuff for moments lol...

Jolin Tsai - 你怎么连话都说不清楚

想别的
可是在你眼中察觉什么一闪而过
怎么像是寂寞
于是我会更沉默

你说的
全世界差点都弄懂了那是什么
而我尴尬笑着走开
只能够装作不懂
怎能拆穿你的不同

这地球这么小这么挤这么瘦
太阳刻意晒得那么凶
为什么你出现在他出现以后

你怎么连话都说不清楚
那温柔的tone我听得清楚
我站在他的身边
你站在我的面前
怎么这样心里会难过

你怎么连话都说不清楚
那温柔的痛我记得清楚
他站在我的面前
你经过我的身边
突然之间心里又难过
为什么 12:31 AM
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Ok, back frm camp... gonna continue with my commentary...

May
14th: sth happened... realli make mi realised a lot... went to watch the council investiture with angela... and a lot of emotions came floodin back... not just to see, as a leader, the council whom we've worked with steppin down, which seems to symbolise our steppin down as well, but also, the kind of attachment i still felt with my board... it's been ages, i know, since my last investiture... 2 yrs? and it's lik, our last one, which i was placed in charge to organise, had so much cork ups... but still, we felt it... i'm so not use to havin to take a step back, of seeing other ppl do all these that i'm so used to doin... and the regrets of being unable to bring up the next batch of prefects, to the our seniors' standard... however, all this time had made the feeling strangely distant... now, even when i feel mass dance songs, i wun realli feel the urge to just jump up and dance animore... yet, lookin seein the investiture, the walk in, sittin with our blazer on stage with the blazing spotlights, presentation of certificate of appreciation, and the passing of baton... not exactly the same, but strangely familiar... and i'm sure, although its only been 1 year, the council must have lots of emotions as well, having gone through so much together... it's this emptiness, of havin to let go of everything, and move on to the next part of ur life... and suddenly, when u look back, u wonder if u've realli been doin all those things which u've done all that while, or was tt just a dream... and when u looked at what u've learnt, what u've been through, what u've done, what u've become, u wonder what made u, or pushed u to want to accomplished all these, how valuable are these, and if u culd have accomplished even more...

i dunno if anione felt the same way... that our prefects camp when we were in sec 1 is one of the best camps, no matter how torturous it had been... we realli learnt, workin together... the board, no matter how much resentments we had against rabian, was in the period of time when everyone was most commited, most united and most efficient... it was nv the same after mrs saz and mr chong left the board... it was that time, when moral courage, decision-making, initiative, perserverance, putting in best efforts, independance and several other values was imparted to us... and it was when mr shang took the group of us for outdoor expetitions and 4E1 for organising sec 1 orientation camps when we learnt organisational abilities... i believed, my batch is one of the more fortunate ones...

anyway, after the investiture, went to watch them play bball... our class against oily class... damn lar oily nt thr again... if not sure nicer to watch... was lookin forward to tt match lor... =s... den had dinner with angela weeleong chenchen and ducheng... LOL the few of us crapped after ducheng left...

15th: WORE OG TEE TOGETHER!!! haha... i keep tinkin tt the tee sucks... den they keep on sayin tt they find it ok... den i see them wearin, and it's lik, wah, tt feeling rocks... and i tink tt's all that matters... and that stupid aaron... 1st thing he saw mi in the mornin, and he was lik, hen nan kan =s...hung ard, end up still passed the money to pamela, check if thr's games com meetin, went lib to study

16th: sports meet... ran ard to cheer with grace LOL... esp for tug of war, since most of our classmates was down for it... 974 3632 735... 8 3965 56868 85 212 7725 73... 8 8692 697 6143 4395 85 599... 266 3165 23 7725 53 696325 2856 3136 95634? 23 143 25899 39647233? lunched wit the class at kopitiam, den found vivien and guys at west mall... headed towards woodlands for sakae! haha but very full, so didn't eat much, but enough for the money's worth

17th: rushed PI and send to mr wee =x com siot... stayed at home...

18th: studied with the usual grp

19th: vesak day... went to ys hse and play! met vivien early in the mornin to buy stuff for sandwich... met up with jh and yf and went to her hse... mugged, and i did manage to get more stuff into my little brain... ate lunch, and we started sandwich-ing! made quite a lot HAHA... 3 big plates of it... watch wishing stairs, den played badminton... HAHA badminton was fun lar! esp playin with vivien ys and yf... dinner, home

20th: games com meetin aftersch... "had" dry run LOL... came up with the words for pictionary and task allocation... tt aaron was sick lar =s... done, went lib to study

21st: career fair... benefitted mi more den i tot HAHA... SMU seems to be very good... more suitable for mi LOL... bt dun seem to offer the kind of course i wan... and i have to say, THE SPEAKER WAS DAMN GOOD LAR! haha! if onli i can speak lik her haha... got quite a bit of info tt i wanna... walked ard the exhibtion with grace and cck... apparently cck and zy wanna be teachers also! HAHA! grace n yf wanna be pilot! LOL... aftertt, had dinner with yf n zy, den go study again =s

22nd: VECTORS TEST... DAMN EASY =x... LOL! one of the rare times i finish my paper b4 time is up and still got time to check! woot! and most imptly, I'M QUITE CONFIDENT I CAN GET FULL MARKS!!! unless got careless mistakes, which i'm VERY VERY PRONE TO MAKE haha! GOT CLASS TEE! HAHA not bad lar! maths make up aftersch... MORE DEN HALF THE CLASS PON =s LOL... stayed on and chatted with mr wee HAHA... went to vivien hse to finish up my PQ... wah i realli cough out a lot of BHB words la... den for entrepreneurship, i realli dunno wat to write nia... the rest all exceed 150 words onli entre i nv... in the end go and copy and paste others de =s... then stayed on and chat with her LOL...

23rd: WORE CLASS TEE TOGETHER!!! lol... GP COMMON TEST... ok tink i wun fare too badly, shld be can pass, but tink wun get good grades... aftertt ate with class, den with vivien and guys... stayed on and chatted with jh and vivien aftertt...

24th: continued with liao zai... went out, wanted to study... end up dunno wat happened=s... damn sian

25th: class outin LOL.. RUIYU'S BDAY! went to ECP, got mi angela helga ry wl zk cc zf thura... damn funny lar! wl zk cc and zf took couple bikes =s... LOL la! HAHA! still made a video out of it sumore HAHA... anyway, i weren't the slowest! rare lar! went tiong bahru plaza for dinner, den home... reached boonlay, realised my phone nt with mi-_- cab down to tt plaza for it... realli realli thx a lot of the ppl who help mi kept it HAHA...

26th: mugged... alone at jp... pp called to say she cnt make it for vmt... so nxt day LOL... both of us called him... and come tinkin of it, might be a good thing afterall

27th: went to sch with ys and vien... totally no mood for it... drained, and disappointed... felt very cold... went vien hse with ys LOL... slept and forgot abt the vmt thing and was 1/2 hr late... ps! but in the end still didn't do HAHA... need to wait for others...

28th: studied with ys vien and nazreen... LOL la... had dinner at imm bk, and the unexpected happened =s... nvm...

finally done... shall update bt the camp nxt tym 1:20 PM
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