wah kao... felt damn pek chek just now lor... supposed to meet ivy and guys after work... den customers keep coming in... end up not only didn't managed to get a glismpe of them, my mum was... suan le... heng those customers got buy, just nice hit sales target... and that managed to salvage the total sales for the month by quite a bit ba...

and i was looking forward to it... been damn high abt it since friday when ivy sms me to confirm abt it...

and i cannot blame kerine and girls, cos all of them have valid and important reasons... they all also didn't expect me to have to stay till so late... and i cannot even blame the customers cos they had no idea who i was supposed to meet and that it's been long since the last meet up...

but nvm lar, i'm sure that wun be the end of the meet up... and also glad that at least today's sales shld've let kerine relax for a bit... after one whole month of bad sales, today was quite a saviour... shld at least be able to cover the rent, our pay, and the cost price ba??? that's if tml's sales will be good as well, which i'm quite sure will be the case

anyway feelin much better now... mich took my "how well do you know me?" quiz and she scored 80%! i see ler i also stun, but immediately got instant highness sia!~ and immediately felt better =D

but i still wish that after this week, all my saturdays will be available T.T... i dun have much time left to play and meet up ler T.T...

no cork up tml, please T.T 1:46 AM
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LOL CURRENTLY DAMN HIGH, LOOKIN FORWARD TO BBQ TML (though i'll only join them at abt 10.30 T.T)

ytd went to meet vanee at amk! initially wanted to meet at yck 1st, but i tot she haven release and went to check out the circle line in bishan mrt... the link between green and red line still under construction-_-... HAHA makan pepper lunch den aftertt jh and darryl came to join us... at 1st i scare will odd lor, nv talk to him b4 nia, + vanee also nt close with him initially de... HAHA but aftertt ok leh, mainly cos of the interestin content in a phone he found and its interesting owner WAHAHA =x go amk always meet this kinda weird but entertainin ppl de-_-...

pool... played with darryl 1st-_- heng is he got talk de, + that day i high enough to talk, if not really is damn weird =S... maybe cos usually when the rest of them are thr they'll the ones talkin... and i tyco win him the 1st round =x den aftertt change table and players, den tagteam... play till 4+, den junqiang came jus as we leavin, a bit unexpectedly cos we tot he cnt make it... so nvm, continue a while (darryl n jq), in the end by the tym we wanna leave abt 5+ ler... initially wanted to go ky hse, but didn't cos by the tym reach 7+ liao... end up wait for kiatyee go makan dinner, and pooled till abt 6.40-_- makaned, went ntuc, den go home...

anyway was damn high that day, cos didn't have to go to work... i tink startin vanee a bit overwhelmed by my "high"ness

and i hope i didn't have to work tml T.T if only my schedule remains the same lor! T.T

anyway had a good time catchin up with grace ytd too! we actually chat over the phone for lik 2.5hrs... yea, let's meet up soon =D 1:41 AM
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finally back~

TML'S BREAK!!!

last wed adjusted timin for tuition! met up with vanee... makan-ed at nyp! went lib too cos vanee wanna find info, den we met cs yw yy cc for zhi char to celebrate my bro's bday lol... =S they damn late can? haha at 1st scared will awkward, but end up ok nia!

Pics:

LOL we see the guy we got seh-.- esp vanee lol, turn her head see the boy de face dere~ i was sibei amused by it =x


the cake vanee and i jing tiao xi xuan for cs


lol rare, 2 of us takin pic tgt

aftertt boys go BBall, me and vanee met ky for 2nd round... LOL only she ate lar... chat chat chat till very song =D, met hongfa(to chat also =x) after they went home

sat had tuitions =S den met jh at amk for dinner... at 1st damn sian cos tio ps LOL... but after knowin the reason den ok ler... + got 3 entertainin ppl we met in mac, so end up aftertt the whole day i very high LOL... lol lazy to elaborate abt them, 2 aunties and one boy... just know that dun use ur bag to chop seats in amk mac HAHA =x

den met up with the rest (vanee ky package brothers) and bought the movie ticks... bought the 9.20 one since many was damn late and my class stuff was cancelled... head off to pool... was sibei off form that day and played only 2 rounds... lost to jh and won kiatyee WAHAHA =x but aftertt very sian to play cos each game very long and aimin damn buey zhun so stopped... watched night at the museum after that... nice! but 1st movie better... sat beside chingwee lor, kao at 1st i scared damn odd lor, cos that day 1st day saw him + he come late so nv talk him b4 tt-_- heng he quite chatty, so after a while ok ler... den got this lady in the 1st row, laugh till damn loudly-_- worse den me leh, can u imagine? =S rushed home aftertt, heng got last train

this morn got up damn early to meet my new kid's teacher... wah, my new student (private jc) is gonna be a hard one-_-

and i heard a lot of things happened in sch... haven talked to him after tt day and didn't know how he got thru it... but yt says he seems fine, so see how, drop him a msg tml ba... wanna catch up with grace too and find out how she's doin

BTW! 1st case of swine flu in sg! 22-year-old girl frm smu! situation under control, but ppl pls be alert!

AND! i hope that sales will go up! if not kerine will really explode!

ANW! gotten the acceptance letter frm nus last fri... and that was when i decided i shld go ntu... cos i realised though i'm accepted into the sch of sci ler, my major is not cfm... i'll have to bid for it only after i got in... BUT, cos i'm one of the tio interview de, i'm lik, the last 5% in the whole cohort... literally the last to choose... though i know maths shld one of the most not popular course there, but why take the risk? i'm definitely studyin maths in ntu and if i dun get into maths i'll sure regret... SO! ntu ba! plus only ntu got direct honours for maths and peiting is goin thr too! so at least got someone i know...

and den ky paste me this news abt the follow-up of the stabbin incident just mins after i've accepted the offer... not lik it's gonna change my decision lar, but it's lik, we totally nv talk abt tt b4 and i also haven told her i've accepted the offer... so qiao =S anw it looked lik things weren't as easy as it seems...

and my schedule's becomin unsteady again =S

changed my mind and told her my stand... hope she'll be ok

and her too... weigh and think through 1st ba...

nites 1:53 AM
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THERE GOES MY BREAK T.T

ok, my shop's renov may have to put on hold cos of the stupid jp management's decision.... and i tink kerine very stress now also... damn sian, cos i tink she need wait till AUG now... and i was tinkin after renov shld have more cus nia, after the renov the shop will become damn nice lor... and tt also means i wun get to rest T.T... HAIZ... and maybe wun have time go find my bytches in lib T.T... BUT, nth is cfm~ so see how ba~

and i may have to be workin on wed too frm nxt week on... see how kerine arrange the schedule ba T.T... 6 days week T.T... no lar, she'll get the new girl to start work i tink~

haiz i'm beginning to hate uncertainties like this... make it hard for me to plan my stuff, esp tuition.. almost had to change my schedule tml too

last sat after my tuition, went to meet joycelyn, vincent, my sis, my guardian and her husband at swensons~ got a treat by joycelyn after helpin her to look after koko for that weekend she was away~ aftertt went ky hse with vanee n jh for MAHJONG! damn long nv touch the tiles ler can? and damn long nv go her hse leh!!! whr we used to camp almost every other day!!! and damn long nv see them!!! WOO! and i only got tt chance cos i woke at 7.00 to go tutoring lor =s... mon after work, at 10 ten plus-_-, met up with hongfa and gang to celebrate hongfa's birthday which falls on tue... kao abt 12.30 den reach home, told them had to get home by 12-_- danny lar, suggested to go lakeside-_- and being biked by danny is really not a good experience =s... but really got to thank hongfa for the bike rides, if not wun join them that nite too nia, damn tired, heng my mum didn't notice how late i was cos she was aslp =s

tml got to wake up early too... lik 8? even earlier den my usual work day-_-

went abt reading blogs and realised... ppl are growing up, becomin mature, but, after being terribly hurt... by ppl and things they trusted, loved, and believed in...

如果我变成回忆 by Tank is a very nice and meaningful song, ppl who are thinking of sucide shld really listen to this song =x... not only does it tells ppl to treasure their lives for the sake of their loved ones, it also urge ppl who had suffered the pain of losing their loved ones to move on... and to treasure everyone around you, because you nv know when everything is gonna end... btw Tank have this hereditary heart disease or sth, which had cost the lives of some of his loved ones too, and he just underwent an operation cos of it not long ago... listen to the song here... Enjoy =D

如果我变成回忆 - Tank

累了 照惯例努力清醒着
也照惯例想你了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在梦中 不听话的 就停止了

听着 呼吸像浪潮摆动着
越美丽越让我忐忑
我还能珍惜什么
如果我连自己的脉搏 都难掌握

如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体 拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己 如此狠心
如果我变成回忆 终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发
蹒跚牵着你 看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以 让他陪你
我不怪你

快乐 什么时候会结束呢
哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着
可知你是我生命中的 最舍不得

如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体 拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己 如此狠心
如果我变成回忆 终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发
蹒跚牵着你 看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以 让他陪你

如果我变成回忆 最怕我太不争气
顽固的赖在空气 霸占你心里 每一寸空隙
要让依然爱我的你痛苦承受失去
这样不公平 请你尽力
把我忘记 2:07 AM
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I WANT MY SOCIAL LIFE

recently is just work... and when i'm not workin, i'm tutorin... take sun and wed for instance... tuition in the mornin with this QL who didn't complete my work, den rushed down to BUKIT TIMAH to tutor another student, and WENT BACK to tutor QL AGAIN after i gave him the time i was at bukit timah to complete his homework... and this wed... tuition at bukit timah supposed to start at 3.30... i was out of hse at 2, and my student informed me at 2.30 that he had a remedial... and the tuition was change to 6.30~ supposed to meet vanee at nyp, but didn't due to the timing (3.30 to 5.30)... den in the end cnt even join them for dinner since the tuition time changed=S...

anyway, thx hongfa again for sendin me home today =D and thus savin my bus fare =D

and it's been quite a while since i see my bytches... well, except for bumpin into vanee on the bus and when michie came to jp, both on sat...

and thx to michie! for helpin me buy my medicine! =D and thus i'm gonna get my voice back very soon!

ANYWAY, I'M FREE FOR A WEEK, as my shop will be undergoin renovation, STARTING FROM 23RD. DATE ME ANYONE? though i tink my bytches and brothers are havin their exams that week T.T... shall go ka jiao them in lib =D

tank's 如果我变成回忆 is nice =D 1:34 AM
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back

mon was supposed to be a workday for me, but i went home early as i was feeling unwell... went to sch after a short rest to pass miss angie her present, which i initially intend to give her only on wed... got my pay on tue! wed went back to sch to celebrate angela's birthday! bought a small cake and with yangping weixin n nicole joinin us, thr was birthday song audible to the whole canteen~ visited mr choo too, whose birthday was on thurs... hang ard cookie hse n sizzling ice aftertt, and visited "bunk inn", whr students pay to slp! the environment damn good, nice and cozy! how come they didn't have such stuff while i was thr?!? i wuld have needed it SOOO MUCH!=X helped gigi with some of the probs, had lunch with angela cc zf (or rather they watched me makan), met up with (my) jinhui, watched the talentime semi-finals for a while before headin off to tutor~

went zf's hse for steamboat aftertt for angela's b'day! met yt fm angela on the way! cc was thr alr... and kao, he only have spicy soup base, which is so beneficial for my sore throat-_- still, the food was good, and didn't really need much prep cos the meat was alr in slices and cc washed the veggies... makan and chat, eat till damn damn damn full, and just stayed at the table to chat with the rest... but somehow i manage to makan quite a bit of the cheesecake aftertt, damn nice! =D nice hanging out with them again =D

anyway really need to thank kerine (my boss) for all those tips abt my giddy spells and my sore throat... also dunno y recently so suay keep tio these kinda things... cos of the weather? =S i jus hope i'll get my voice back soon T.T

i'm seriously getting sillier... why does it happens time and again? with mere reminders that's not even relevant? move on!

haven gotten the letter frm nus and no signs of my acceptance online too... and gettin a little paranoid as usual... cheat my feelins sia... haha and somehow i realised yt actually understands how i feel... and it doesn't help when i'm tryin to pretend that i'm cool abt it in front of my mum, who's paranoid abt it too... damn... see? lik mum lik daughter -_-

but nvm, at least i've got an alternative path =D lik i say, as long as i'm studyin maths =D

and somehow, no matter how it bothers me, how i cnt stop thinkin abt it, i actually know it was one of the best decision ever made, and that moment of anger and despair was just wat i needed to make that decision, sth which i will nv come to without that moment... if only now i can be as logical as i was then, at the one moment...

AND I HOPE SWINE FLU WUN COME TO SG... no please, i dun wanna see sg enter yet another period of fear and uncertainty all over again, and that constant worry for not only ourselves, but also our families and friends...

and BY2's 我知道 is a nice song!

从来没想过 不能再和你牵手
委屈时候 没有你陪着我心痛
一切都是我太过骄纵 以为你会懂
一直忘了说 我有多感动

vanee's blog got the full song =D

i'm very very tempted to make a private blog... too much i cnt say here, makes me feel very xinku, but a bit lazy nia haha

AND I MISS SOCIAL LIFE... haha i finally understand how it's lik when u got to work, u lose all ur social life... being adult is not fun at all... i miss sch days! and poly holidays! =x haha but nvm, earn money 1st =D

and i wanna meet up with the class sometime soon, perhaps in jun? and my bytches, jiayou for all ur upcoming tests and all

想念你的歌 - Saya

是否曾经后悔过
那时候负气说走　就走
是否偶尔想过我
所以埋怨我
每当听你的下落
逞强常常让人无法负荷
躲起来边哭边说 i miss you
还舍不得把你封锁

星光闪烁 如何拥有
站在远方才看见星空的轮廓
虽然有时候会寂寞
墙上时钟 停格
你说放开手才会快乐
用悲伤的脉搏写成想念你的歌

该怎么才能让你懂呢
谁对谁错已经模糊了　忘记了
我们都处理得有点笨拙
已经从来没有
像这一次如此爱过
想念常让我无法负荷
常常只有一个念头 i miss you
我的爱情从来没有死掉过

星光闪烁 如何拥有
站在远方才看见星空的轮廓
虽然有时候会寂寞
墙上时钟 停格
你说放开手才会快乐
用悲伤的脉搏写成想念你的歌

星光闪烁 如何拥有
站在远方才看见星空的轮廓
虽然有时候会寂寞
墙上时钟 停格
你说放开手才会快乐
用悲伤的脉搏写成想念你的歌 12:06 AM
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sat went kbox with angela cc zf sr to, erm, celebrate cc's birthday? LOL and dunno why will sore throat everytime i go kbox with them sia!~ which is why they're not deaf yet =x LOL didn't get to see cc's reaction in the end, for wat we've given him! angela passed it to him on fri! HAHA but aftertt he sounds high, so ya~ didn't get to join them for dinner, had to look after koko(my guardian's dog), so that he'll not be alone in the nite with my sis... and halfway in the nite i woke up to pei him cos thr was a thunderstorm outside and he was scared =s... end up today very tired nia

nites

很高兴遇见你，让我终究明白，回忆，比真实精彩 1:10 AM
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YESH i'm now, in fact for the whole day alr, SIBEI HIGH lol...

COS i got accepted by nus when i went for interview today ON THE SPOT!!!

WHEE!!!

the day didn't start out well, i worked for the last 3 days(full) and was damn tired, den when i went to sch to take the notes frm zf it rained heavily (of cos i saw some ppl i missed, including tml's b'day boy chenchen, my aunties and MY DEAREST JINHUI, eclub one i mean =D, and others)

den i head off to nus, at 1st i tot i'll be late but got thr earlier den expected... to realised that the interview will be delayed by at least 40 mins... and i got more nervous by the minute... and finally when it was my turn, i ans the 1st qn too frankly:

Qn: you prefer nus or ntu?
Ans: actually i've got no preference as long as it's maths
Prof's Feedback: i'm impressed by ur honesty but that has gotten you in a difficult position

but i really dunno how to praise nus, dunno which is better for maths nia... and they were hopin i'll take chem instead, = too many ppl scored well for maths

LOL... so i was damn high after tt, at 1st tot i'll have to wait for a few more torturous days or weeks before i know the results! and i called my dad my guardian my boss and informed everyone who knew abt my interview LOL

anyway went to work aftertt and did a bit of rearrangin with kerine... den met up, interesting day, and home! and got my acceptance letter frm ntu too!

and so still leavin my options open for a while LOL... any idea which uni standard is better? for maths i mean... give me ur opinions lol

oh ya saw aaron the current botak today at my shop! HAHA GOT MORE MEAT LER FINALLY!

anyway i'm still a bit =S that xiao niang re got the award for best drama serial when perfect cut(1st season only) is a much nicer show... nvm, expected

i'm losing quite a bit of my social life~ and thx ivy for ur intro of the agent!

lookin forward HAHA, hope to see his reaction

anyway, all the best, u can de :)

dl-ed 全世界都停电 by tank!!! nice song!

全世界都停电 - Tank

连你都会残忍隔绝
我的心能要谁了解
眼中烛光摇晃着熄灭

为何把我推向边缘
被砸坏了的一切
卡住了我让我无法往前

囚禁在距离笑声最远的房间
单独隔离 寂寞地盘旋

全世界都停了电 全世界都封了街
我所有窗子外面 被贴上黑夜
我呐喊思念 却没人听见
绝望到极点剩的是疲倦

全世界都停了电 全世界白雪满天
才发觉在我心间 有回忆碎片
一作梦翻身 就刺痛流血
我卷着身体缩成一个圈
像一个句点

连你都会残忍隔绝
我的心能要谁了解
眼中烛光摇晃着熄灭

为何把我推向边缘
被砸坏了的一切
卡住了我让我无法往前

囚禁在距离笑声最远的房间
单独隔离 寂寞地盘旋

全世界都停了电 全世界都封了街
我所有窗子外面 被贴上黑夜
我呐喊思念 却没人听见
绝望到极点剩的是疲倦

全世界都停了电 全世界白雪满天
才发觉在我心间 有回忆碎片
一作梦翻身 就刺痛流血
我卷着身体缩成一个圈
像一个句点 12:45 AM
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