Monday, March 02, 2009
it's never me, no matter how much it sounds like... i'm never the concern, never the problem, and miserably, i knew it all along... was not, am not, will not... not the very least... this time round, i realised what it was really meant for and saved myself before i got any wrong idea... i'm glad i still remember to remind myself that you dun care... not like it'll make it better, but at least it reminds me that i weren't entirely at fault, no matter what i did... i weren't treated the way i shld be, all my fears and insecurities were right, and of course i cannot trust and believe in something that was not even there in the first place... i was right, dun you see? it was already lost, when the distance grew, when something else return to occupy the space reserved for me... all my predictions and the cause for all my hesitation came true, didn't it? and all the little things that was so significant went away, and i doubt you even realised it... and it is all these little things that made me realise my space got smaller, no matter what you say... dun you see? all these had been the cause of it, it's not just me... whatever you promised, you broke them 1st... before i broke mine, the one about trusting you... and i admit, i didn't use my brains... but not in the way you've put it... ironically, the moments i missed most was not those, haha and i'm sure you'll agree that it werent the best times we've really shared...
had a fun day at ky's hse, though i had a 3.5hrs long tuition with the kid... but shall update about it next time, need slp...
My Happy Ending - Avril Lavigne
--I Need a Nap--
2:08 AM
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