.Rest Time.

Friday, February 27, 2009

i just feel... crappy

perhaps it's cos it's near the release of results
the perpetual war in the house
the lack of money
the sucky work
or the loss

or everything

perhaps i really should hope for a bad results... den i can drop my work

so much that i've nv seen, or rather turned a blind eye to, is biting me back now... 1st this, den that, den perhaps more

living in denial, telling myself things will only get better... nothing seems to be working enough... go to slp feeling happy most days, only to wake the next morning trying to make myself happy again

and the big world outside is so fake... and i'm willing to be cheated for that little amount of money... putting on a mask to entertain a mask

craps and lies

kids are much simpler... they are not scheming

and it was nv the case... my insecurities was right, all along... only, it will nv be understood and shared... and i hate knowing i had became the girl i was

getting quite sick of being the spare tyre... not like i really love doing what i need to wait for

i just miss... the times when i can live without such memories, the times when i laugh till i almost roll on the floor, the times when things were simple... the sec sch days, the post o lvls holidays, the outings, the camps...

life... i've wasted it, not making full use of it

should be happy

shall update abt kbox the next time... should look forward to the bbq tml =D

我怀念的 - 孙燕姿

我问为什麼　那女孩传简讯给我　
而你为什麼　不解释　低著头沉默
我该相信你很爱我　不愿意敷衍我　
还是明白你已不想挽回什么

想问为什麼　我不再是你的快乐　
可是为什麼　却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖著把爱都走曲折　
假装了解是怕　真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说　
我怀念的是一起做梦
我怀念的是争吵以後　
还是想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日　
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空　最紧的右手　
最暖的胸口
(谁记得)　谁忘了

想问为什麼　我不再是你的快乐　
可是为什麼　却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖著把爱都走曲折　
假装了解是怕　真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说　
我怀念的是一起做梦
我怀念的是争吵以後　
还是想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日　
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空　最紧的右手　
最暖的胸口
(谁记得)　谁忘了

我怀念的是无言感动　
我怀念的是绝对炽热
我怀念的是你很激动　
求我原谅抱得我都痛
我记得你在背後　
我记得我颤抖著
记得感觉汹涌　
最美的烟火　最长的相拥

谁爱的太自由　
谁过头太远了　
谁要走我的心　
谁忘了那就是承诺
谁自顾自地走　
谁忘了看着我
谁让爱变沉重　
谁忘了要给你温柔

(我怀念的)　我还有想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日　也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空　
最紧的右手　最暖的胸口
我放手　我让座　假洒脱　
谁懂我多麼不舍得
太爱了　所以我　
没有哭　没有说

--I Need a Nap--

1:45 AM
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