Tuesday, August 26, 2008
mon... phy p2, so so, lunched wit yf b4 headin to take a nap in lib... woke, studied a while, home, eat, slp... the lifestyle of a pig... mich i'm gonna become your daughter le... today had maths, totally sian diao... how come i can nv practise for some topics and still can do them but those which i practised for, i can't? DAMN LAR... settled teachers' day stuff, went lib and met vanee zh lx cs n his friend... didn't feel lik studyin so chatted wit lx n zh, all the way till i went home... i tink vanee even more hardworkin den mi lor =s...
recently haven been slpin well... wakin up in the middle of the night...
anyway, today is the 26th... not that i nv realised, but tis number does not realli have much impact on me le, so bro u can stop dsiao-ing me on it... it's a past
been tinkin a lot about religion, birth/ marriage rate, future, studies, existence, worthiness, emotions, dramas, being practical, purpose and generally life...
so, practically, one leads to another...
and, i tink ppl can skip my next part of the entry, cos its just gonna be some thoughts which i just wanna talk abt, and i have no guarantee itsll be interesting for all
sometimes i wish that i can blog whenever i have a new trend of thought or emotions, but i get too lazy to type... in the 1st place, wat is the purpose of bloggin? i tink, it's cos thr're certain things which ppl just will not tell everyone by the mouth, things that are usually not topics of a conversation, but things which people just want to rant and talk about somewhere, and when u noe it's nt gonna be an interestin topic, u blog abt it...
for mi, it is also a way for mi to rmb what has happened... i may not blog about all the details, but generally, i can recall everything that happened on that day just knowing a single thing that i've done that day... also, blog is in a way, i've realised nt long ago, a world of my own... although i still need to watch what i say, but still i can vent as much as i wan here...
anyway, to start off with something more current... teacher's day prep... mm was chattin with lx and zh abt teachers... and i was tinkin which are the teachers which i'll put in effort for, even if sometimes laziness overcome me, but i will try to be better for these teachers... haha yea i know of some... i wun start stating names, cos not very good for those whose name are not stated... just to name few, will be mr wee, mr chua lek hong, mrs ho lau and mr choo
just wanna talk abt mr choo... he is one of the nicest teacher, whom i truly respect... thruout the whole yunnan trip, he was the one in the middle of us and the higher lvl, the person who tries his best to help us with everything, and the one who realli accompanied us thruout our planning process, not just givin us big and fanciful ideas without thinkin thru, but got involved and know about our side of problems as well... even helped the log com to buy the luggage... while he intervened to ensure everything goes well, he gave us enough space to plan on our own, and taught us thru givin advices and experiences, and not enforcin ideas, and trusted us... maybe it's cos we're his 1st batch of leaders, and maybe cos he also dun realli enjoy the politics... he really put in a lot of effort for the trip...
a lot of ppl sae he still cmi in terms of leadership trainin, but i think, different ppl have different expectations... i know that he can be a bit too lenient at times, but sometimes it's such teachers that is so good, and you know they tries to understand your problem before lashing at you, that's why it makes you less willing to let them down... of cos, not everyone think of it that way... well, to me, he's just a very good teacher... we went to his hse, and i didn't even know he went out to fetch his gf over (of cos, some of the rest know), and just left us thr, flipping thru his cd rack, playing with his electronic organ and stuff liddat... this show how much he trusts us... i mean, no, i dun expect all teachers to do that, i know it's always impt to draw the line so that ppl will not forget that you are a teacher and climb over your head... i just feel that he's very good and nice, even friends wun do that... and i tink his gf must be a very nice person too lol...
not just nice, if you know how he works and what he's done, u have to admit he's good... i seriously didn't even know that ppl can be buey song abt a teacher lik him until i heard abt it today, with someone who doesn't scold until he feels that it is the limit... misunderstanding? and i tink that explains why he's so disheartened when he sees that we still lack discipline after the whole trip... perhaps tt's y, some of the more senior teachers have given up... so, actually, i just want to say, sorry.
and who is worth ur care and concern? i tink sec sch mates are most of the time ur best buds for life... in sec sch, where we mould our char, influence between us and our sec sch mate played a huge part, and we can accept each other's nonsensical habit and behaviour better, and perhaps that's why we can behave as how we like to infront of our sec sch mates and know that, ok they might mind, but they will still be ok and not scared off by us... sumtyms, i tink, y do so much if u know ppl does not appreciate it, or are not true? and i realised, that might be how some teachers feel too...
a lot of emotions and thoughts flooding my mind, but although i dun feel lik slpin yet, i'm actually quite drained to type more...
--I Need a Nap--
11:00 PM
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