Sunday, August 17, 2008
k, usual commentary 1st
ytd went to sch in the morning to print some stuff, den decided to wait for meiling jie since i'm in sch oready... and she was late... haha decided to leave, den i saw her at sch gate! and she became so much slimmer and all la!!! so pretty! lol so stayed in sch and chatted with the few of them and looked through her photos, includin some which she uploaded to her blog... and menghan was so funny la! he was hungry, and there were photos of very good food!!! anyway aftertt, went home before goin to meet yf at je to pass him notes, wanted to study de... BUT I WAS DAMN LATE... paiseh!!! so by the time i can start studyin it was lik, 4.30? and i have to leave je at abt 5.30? so we went to the arcade instead =x... i was damn noob la =x...
aftertt met up wit ps and headed for ky's hse... FOR STEAMBOAT... actually come to think of it, everytime we wanna celebrate b'day, ky's one seems to be the one with the least possible surprises... simply becos most of the tym, our celebrations are in her hse... lol bt wat matters is, we make her feel loved, right ky? =x... OH YA... SINGAPORE WON A MEDAL!!! feng jia wei is so cool lar!!! WOOT!!! though i'm nt exactly a sports person, bt we shld support sg rite? so cool lar!!! haha... den steamboat-ed... ate ate ate, den somehow, we began to sit on the floor of the kitchen while we chatted =s... lol den we continued in the room, wit raymond eavesdroppin on us LOL... ok nvm, when some of them went to play with the hamsters, yao, vanee, ps n i preped the cake.. and suay suay ky walked into the kitchen =s... so, no more surprise even in terms of the timing =s haha... so usual, our birthday song n photo takin session... got zhao hui(our eye candy =x=x=x) to take photos as well LOL! claudia keep on dsiao =s... claud, mich n ivy left shortly after as yao need to go n mit les, leavin mi, vanee n ps wit ky... and siao... all four of us decides to take "couple" shots with zhao hui... vanee made mi n zhaohui laugh n laugh uncontrollablly, till i cnt stand properly or hold the cam properly... didn't know how ky n ps managed to be so calm haha... den we all agree, ky, who's the one who's most impossible to be wit zhaohui, looks most lik a real couple with him LOL... laughed till very tired =x... go home n slept
today studied with vanee, mich, claud, drew, yao, les... quite a big grp, but as we were sittin quite far frm each other in small grps, we weren't talkin alot... the fat prata man damn pms la, n his prata is like rubber which drips oil =s... we all miss mich's eye candy sia =s.... lol dine wit tm, jh, van n ps(who didn't eat) b4 i went back wit ps to study as well as guide her on integration... n tryin to make her share my love and affection for math, tellin her to try to appreciate its beauty and tt it's actually very handsome =x... lol bt well, i'm waitin for her blog post on maths... n, good luck for ur pg module=s... n try nt to overslp le k?
didn't sleep very well last nite...
was talkin to her abt it the other day, den i found out even more... i tink, it's nt tt they dun lik it, it's jus tt, maybe they feel very little attachment to it? maybe lik wat she says, they tink it's nt matured enough or sth... and i'm shocked... cos i tot one n the other person were quite close... in fact, they are realli considered quite close... bt even the friendship wit tt other person cnt pull tt one thr? or is thr other underlyin reasons? or like wat she said, cos of an aim? i admit, i myself dun realli feel the attachment as much, after all tt had happened... or rather, my attachment is stronger to certain parts of it now, bt nt the parts i had used to be stronger to... bt, its nt realli a short period of time, realli nth can draw it back?
or maybe i cnt accept the change... for that one, is actually always been more or less liddat, but nth really bad, except for the late thing... bt i'm more shocked abt one... the change is too rapid tt i cnt realli take it, esp since we used to be quite close... he was tellin me, tt one was the one influencin the other instead of being influence... perhaps disheartened, after understanding too much and knowing nothing much will change? tt its strength is only what it seems to other ppl? maybe... i dunno, n i dunno if i'll ever get to know... time is short, at least, if tt one is realli losin sense and the attachment to it, at least retain the sense to want to get thru n not spendin time on other stuff...
i dunno how to describe how i feel now, after knowing all these... i guess, i seen it long ago, bt i tucked the signs and didn't tink much... char a little similar, i shld've seen thru wat's goin on... bt yet again, even if i noe, wat can i do? changes and changes... while i feel more settled, i see more distance to certain places...
anyway, after meetin up with the bytches and studyin together wit the gang of ppl, i rmb how i used to be nt so close to them, until the o lvls period, and realised how i got so much closer to them after o lvls... HAHA, i tink it's cos of the 3 mths break... and actually, i tink i didn't regret nt goin pae and spendin the time with them... and i realised we got so distinct roles tt whenever we wanna do sth or comment on sth, we'll tink of the same few ppl! for eg, the food ic, andrew! LOL mich was sayin tt she feel so proud to had done all the steamboat prep without drew and it still went well... cos tis time, ky's mum didn't realli help as well haha... bt of cos, we'll always rmb wat drew did to fill our stomach with very yummy self-magrinated food! LOL...
haha, wanted to photoblog again, but not in the mood now... plus it's late, so, ya... another day ba... and wait for peishan to send me her photos 1st...
--I Need a Nap--
1:08 AM
______________________________________________________
