Saturday, March 01, 2008
back...
went to study last sat with vanee and mich... sun also, with ivy as well... realli wonder what i've been doing for the whole of last yr nia... skipped piano lesson as well... haiz... and i realised vanee and mich can mug harder den mi nia... i wonder what i'm doing in JC...went home and came upon tis thread on stomp... realli realli make mi feel so upset.... been long tym since i feel it tis way... was chattin with ellene abt it... it's actually quite great to feel committed to sth again...
mon... studied with chin kang aftersch... very very distracted nia... chin kang keep insisting that he's not a mugger... compared to me, he's a good one le k? haiz...
tue... had a bgr session during civis....there's is couple who expressed their feelings about their relationship to a console aunt... I read the extract and realised i was so much like the boy, though i'm not as violent and neither was i the one keeping quiet... and mr wee was askin me what will i do if i'm the girl... HAHA weekheng's ans is what exactly i will say... engage in the same activities lor... maybe i wun be able to understand... cos i was nv in that position before... just like how other people may not be able to understand... den he ask again, do i tink both of them shld be together... without realli thinkin, i said no... and of cos, thr is two standard ans, but it's lik, either they sort it out or they break... HAHA what he said was realli the standard solution, but of cos breakin is the faster but harder way out... sortin out is nt that simple, unless both sides are willing to give up certain things, and are mature enough to understand... but given that case, most likely the boy will end up shouting and the girl will end up going for a sucide... BECAUSE BOTH OF THEM WONT HAVE THE PATIENCE TO TRY TO UNDERSTAND EACH OTHER AT THAT POINT OF TIME.
when i was much younger, thr is tis ting in westside story that goes sth lik, "the couple only truely understood each other at the point of a break up"... and i find it quite true for mi... not sure abt the other though... and i tink i said sth lik, we are still young, why give up the freedom we have now and tie ourselves down into an relationship? HAHA den weekheng was like, 你完了，你已经失去了对爱情的渴望. THIS realli made mi ponder... have i realli? maybe not love, but more of havin a relationship... wat for lose a friend and gain a heartache for one? well, it's not lik i dunno that not all relationships are liddat... it's not lik i dunno that people can still be friends after a break up... my first ex and i are still friends... some of the broken up couples ard me are still friends... and it's not lik i dun fall in love anymore, though i'm still unsure about it... but do i still wan to get into an relationship? realli dun feel lik it cos, isn't being friends still the best? den i wun have so much to worry about...
anyway, helped yuanyuan to paid his tuition fees aftersch while he went for his op... den came back and tried to study bt ended up mass dancin... didn't realli have the mood to... 1st tym... 1st tym i dun feel lik mass dancing... weren't concentratin thruout the whole session... ARGH... went to see yuanyuan as yufeng wanted to pass him some stuff... didn't went to the front, just waited by the side... he couldn't speak... get well soon ar...
wed... thura's b'day! tot i couldn't find him... den saw him in a classroom! HAHA... and the teacher was so nice to let him pass him the waffle ice cream during lesson! LOL! den... eclub meeting... only need to go for a while LOL... den went lib to print some stuff, checkin stomp again as i went... realli realli upset by some of the comments... was even more hurt when i saw defenders of JJ posting childish remarks and personal attacks... haiz... den went off to study at the canteen... saw this ogl playin on his phone... and i culdn't get back to my studies cos of it... told another ogl to tell him abt it... he went off, so the ogl told his friend... and i'm nt sure if his friend told him or not, cos he still kept on playin on his phone after he came back... and didn't took his eyes off for a single min... and i was tinkin whether it was right for mi to step in or not... in the end i didn't, bt told his fam head and mr chua abt it... haiz...
thurs... the torture... 3 tests in a row, with half-hour breaks inbetween... phy cfm + chop will fail, maths was good(finished the whole paper!) and i hope that i will be able to get reasonably good grades this tym, chem spa was good though i used the wrong apparatus for one of the steps... 30+% of yield!!! HAHA... den aftersch got the civil denfence thingy... the CPR thing reminded mi abt yunnan nia... with the funny demos by xing, tat and idiot... LOL... can i go back to yunnan? HAHA... den... JJ NITE!!! danced, played, and had fun! the new family dances was damn nice! council dance was damn cool! HAHA!!! MY DANCE PARTNER THAT DAY WAS BERNARD!!! haha danced with xing at the end during chori chori as well! so that nite was mi and bernard, shiyun and xing... dancing with bernard was nice, even though he dun realli remember some of the steps HAHA.... his "high"ness realli made up for it!!! dance till i didn't realised my feet was hurting until we were dancin chori chori... den... went out a slacked around... chatted with raymond and ellene... ellene is realli so nice to talk to... too bad she's not in JJ ler... haiz... stayed overnight in sch... saw tis vid made by pearlyn... WAS SO DAMN TOUCHED... THANKS!!! most of OG 29 leaders was crowdin ard to watch it... HAHA... aftertt was checkin on stomp again, with mr chua askin mi to get my slp... commented, den slept...
fri... a very special day... 29th feb... the birthday of mrs saz's 1st child rite? HAHA... woke up early... wanted to wake idiot up, but didn't wan to disturb the rest... waited till some of them was oready gettin up... and my classmates sure rocks... didn't bother to wake mi up for morn assembly when i was slpin... zf i will rmb tis... slept durin the 1st lesson by mr sim... haiz... and i actually left all my notes at home... damn... just hope that he wun tell mr chua abt it cos he was just askin mi to slp the day b4... haiz... saw raymond... thr's stil no ans... haiz... just hope that he will get a positive ans... afterall, he had waited for so long... i can understand his passion for it... maybe not as much, but to a certain extent... and his dilemma... if he stayed in MI, he wun had a good time there also... haiz... went out to orchard... for window shopping LOL... with weekheng helga and ahgong... went far east to eat in this restruant selling lamian... and it's definitely not good as compared to the one i normally go to... chenchen angela and junda joined us afterwards... junda with his braces!!! HAHA... and weekheng and ahgong looked great that day!!! so diff frm normal... HAHA was talkin abt prom mah... and went around while weekheng tried on some shirts for prom... LOOKED EVEN BETTER... LOL... slept =x while they were chattin in burgerking... LOL...
so, today, knocked out till late afternoon =D =X.
--I Need a Nap--
11:35 PM
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