Friday, October 26, 2007
ok... i just wanna update a bit...
mon had basketball comp... no no i weren't involved... was just helpin out at the frisbee... S25 sent angela, fangming, ruiyu, weekheng, wingkin, zhangfan, zikang... and they got in second! first was A01, with weijian in it =S... mai siao siao ex jyss bb cap lehz... LOL... cnt help but smile at the way they behave after they won... thr is tis nice atmosphere lar, everyone was playing as a class, with us the supporters by the side... was touched by the attachment i felt at that moment of time... really nice feeling~
afterthat, became very busy again... think i'm waving a big goodbye to my holidays... eclub got bazaar coming up, den there's the yunnan trip and the O1 (hopefully i'll be in it)... + i need to work on my studies as well...
went for O1 interview ytd, and ok, just talk, and hopefully i will just pass it... den com I/C meeting today, not bad, but realize that there is still a lot of things which i still need to consider... joined S25 for a brief moment of badminton, realized my skills are still as sucky as ever, lunched with them and went to helga hse with ba zhang... afterwhich, they left for cine, while i left for pitstop with vanee mich jiahao and claudia... HAHA long tym since we last went out... laugh and laugh and laugh, esp at the game of the fruits one??? spent sum tym lookin for our old photo, and yada yada yada... drifted home =D
glad... very very glad... but the worry is disturbing... i cnt rest, till it's cfm... most of them got by... i'm glad... and worried... of whether the worst will come next yr... one was nt saved... bt at least he is strong about it... one is, still on the line... no definite ans is given yet... and i'm hatin the wait...
might be better for him in terms of results if he didn't go by... bt at the same tym, ppl in his position will have a lot more things that is nt easy to let go...
i rmb that mdm mak's "you were chosen because of your results" had always been a mark in mi... -ve impact... not that i nv expect it to happen... it's that, the fact that she put it so bluntly is a bit hurtful... i was young and naive den... and i was lik, everyone noe that i'm nt the best person for the job, bt if i were to be chosen, i wan to be chosen cos the teachers realli tink tt i'm capable of doin it... W and Y was so much better den mi... more suitable for the post, the post of a vice-head prefect, which i held... they are definitely better leaders... but now, thinkin back, i'm glad that they took things lik results into consideration... if not, how will thay feel, when after they contributed so much, bt is forced to stripped off their posts?
for all of us, it had not been easy handling the news that came... yet thr was nth we can do abt it... two of our comrades, leaving us... sad, and depressed... i dun even noe wat i culd hv done... i dun even noe wat i culd hv said... at tt point of tym, nth we said culd hv helped... nt as if they weren't warned... bt in the end...
half my mind hope that he wun get by... half my mind hope that he will... cos, cos, i've to admit, i hv no confidence in him... that he will work hard... den ultimately, he is the one who will suffer at the end of a lvls, and get upset of it...
i'm nt upset cos they cnt get by... i'm upset cos they're upset... it's very hurtful to see someone you care about being upset and down... bt, lik angela sae, it's better to be sad tis yr den be sad nxt yr... hope that, they will be able to understand tis...
i realli hate goin thru tis... bt, how much can i do? do i realli have the strength to support them, and the ability to convince them to study? or will i fall 1st, even before they fall?
--I Need a Nap--
11:44 PM
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