Saturday, September 29, 2007
Officially, the H1s had gone, and the H2 knocks... screwed up my lit, but done ok for the other two... in the end, i still didn't do well... the structured was meant to help, but no, it was worse for me... exams... no time to worry... you have to just do... just crap... at least you get a chance... that is something i need to learn... to just write, just do... lets hope that my poem contrasts and push up my overall score...
chi and eng were ok... same problems... didn't finished, mainly due to worrying too much... forget it... ended...
was just telling fangming today... no matter what you do, there will be regrets... i kind of regret not going for pae, but yet again, if i go, i tink i will regret going as well... it's onli the magnitude and the things you gain and lost through your decision... that's life... filled with regrets, even though you know that it is not going to bring you anywhere, even though you know that it will make you feel terrible... but still, it's a feeling that you can't help having... the only thing is how you manage it...
and i tink i manages it pretty well, up to now... perhaps it's cause i'm still young and had not started making very big decisions or that sort yet... and had not experience the feeling of making a very very wrong desicion that will affect me for the rest of my life... perhaps i'm still young and naive; afterall, i'm only 16... time to grow up, i tink... should not keep being so childish... i should start to think more about my future... and view it in a more realistist manner, instead of the fairytale i perceive now...
sorry is the hardest word to say... old-fashioned, but 200% the truth... lik wingkin said the other tym, he dun sae thank you and sorry for the big things... i dun say sorry for this big things either, though i do say thank you... i'm not sure why... i can flood someone will thousands of sorrys when i accidentally banged into him or her... but i can never find it to say sorry for something big... perhaps it's cause i dunno how to admit that i made such a great mistake... perhaps it's cause i tink that i'm not the onli one who did it... or perhaps the mistake is so big that saying sorry will be insignificant and supercial, or rather, hypocrititcal.
--I Need a Nap--
1:12 AM
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