thoughts...
Sunday, May 27, 2007
yea i split my post into two parts... LOL does it help, i dunno HAHA... can dun read if u dun lik wat i will say... i will use a lot of offensive words...
tests... i take 7 subs, one of which will not be graded yet, 3 of which will fail (one is maths), 3 of which will pass with 2 of them a moderate pass bah LOL... sian... nv worked hard enuff la... phy culd still had been saved... if onli i didn't went to slp...LOL too late... gp... expected bah... maths... passed graphing tech... bt nt enuff to make up for wat i've lost to trigo... LOL nt feelin very emotional abt tis actually... just, feelin tt i just nt motivated enuff and tt i've wasted one term.
micromse... since when did it had so much probs? in the past, i culdn't feel more carefree and more relax there, even though i'm the onli girl... we just voice out freely, joke as much as we like, and play and even when we dislike sumone, we make sure the person noe... we didn't care about anything and we dun realli get very affected by each other's jokes... we even had a tradition of our own... but now, look wat the new juniors have done to it... look wat sum bastard have done to it... schemes... make the whole team trapped in internal conflicts... cause it to become a battlefield... idiots can go ard pullin out the wires from the com halfway when sumone is do a prog... and they do it more than once... JUST TWO DAYS BEFORE COMPETITION SUMMORE... seriously are they brainless? the onli thing tt i'm happy abt is tt ben became the chairman... for that i realli admire miss yong... so i've misunderstood her all along...
prefectorial board... i dun have to sae more... ask ppl to vote for ppl to enter the board i can understand... but ask ppl to vote for sumone to become the head prefect? ask prefects i can understand... ask the whole sch? look at the batch of students studying in the sch now... isn't it a very wrong time to do such things now? the batch of students when allan's batch is ard is so much more outstanding den this batch... even ah bengs respect most of the prefects den... n a voting system weren't used... the sch is doin it now... cool...
actually the real reason why i want to join badminton is because most of my classmates are in it. LOL... i've found my new commitment in this school - 07S25... it feels nice to be in an environment that u'll be confident that sumone will greet u back when u greet them... with abt the same enthusiasm... nt see one person on the street... and u end up feelin lik u're greetin the wall...
in the debate team, thr is onli 4 ppl whom will exchange "hi"s with mi when we see each other. one left for america(she went back)... one cnt realli see mi... two whom is nice and cheerful and cute... i dun realli do well in debate... i sumhow lost the confidence in speakin which i gained durin my sec sch yrs as a vhp... and i dun realli have ani experience or wat... bt so? i dun even mind if thr are ppl who will laugh at mi... i'll laugh with them... bt, i feel left out thr... i suck i debate, i suck more at badminton... i was nv a sports person, n i still isn't one, unless u want to include the fact tt i joined gymnastic in pri sch, which is lik 4 yrs ago and dun require much strenght except at the waist.
i'm nt realli close to the og... some of them still hangs out with each other i tink... most are just hi bye friends now, bt at least, they are still considered friends... not strangers... to some, i'm just transparent... maybe the prob lies with mi... i certainly dunno...
tt's y i lik the class now... because i think even if i leave them now, or if anione left us now *touchwood + cross fingers + slap hands*, we will not treat each other as if we're transparent next tym we meet... if we are not in any hurry, we might even take tym to talk... nt try to avoid too much contact the moment we see each other... hi bye friends are ok... bt at least try to be a little more sincere?
i wan to organise an outin for sec sch mates... how mani will try their very best to go? much i hope... i hope to see all... at least try to join us after another event or wateva... if ppl still wan to find excuses to miss the precious chance to see each other again, esp since we wun noe when we will meet again, den i realli bwg liao...
went to other blogs... n find it hard to express my feelings properly when i want to tag... end up taggin useless craps for sum of them... esp since i missed readin so mani posts ler...
hatred is a scaring thing feeling... and i'm scary... not tt i'm scared... bt i'm just scary... lik hatred... recently went to her blog again n got myself a bit upset again... her current best friend reminded mi of alot of things... just tt i dun rmb bein tt childish... the "h" section i deleted is back again... just tt the name is different... but, nice change... and by the looks of it... she have not changed a single bit... expected la... she did nt change even after her friends turn their backs on her for 3 times... why will she change now, with nice ppl ard her pamperin her?
--I Need a Nap--
3:53 AM
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