Monday, January 02, 2006
watching a date with vampire... WOO HAPPY NEW YEAR TO MY FRIENDS... sry i noe tis greeting is a bit late... bt bo bian been busy moving hse... PLZ NOTE THAT 67915662 IS NOT VALID ANYMORE... k been doin lots of thinking... AGAIN... k i like to sit there and think a lot whenever anything happens... it has become quite of a habit... advantage of movin back- can use com, save money, dun haf to move around so much, near sch... disadvantage- life will be dull without d laughter and jokes frm my guardian's family, will haf to listen to quarrels n naggings everydae without fail(tis is for sure since my mum is as hot-tempered n as unreasonable as mi), might nt b able to go out n stay late so often(though i think shld nt b a prob since i'm beginin to bcum numb to my mother's scoldings n naggings), i will miss koko (the cute doggy of my guardian's daughter) n fay (my guardian's granddaughter), will not be eating homecooked food for at least 5 days a week of even more, insufficient facilities... haiz... will realli miss my guardian... i had been wit them for abt 5/7 of my whole 15 yrs of life... haiz... now tt olevels r comin, think onli can visit them during holidays (which is a doubt, since i'm nv free frm sch durin holidays)... n i oso muz purchase lots of medical items and stuff to make sure i can survive at home... esp since my bones a prone to gettin a bit twisted... and my flesh is prone to bein cut... though at times i will to lazy to apply the medince=X... haiz... might nt b usin the medical stuff aniway since i was oways bein force to apply them by my guardian since i oways so lazy... haiz anithin larz... sick oso muz go c doctor myself... my sis sick i oso muz bring her go... haiz... nvm... gt 2 learn to b independant... haiz... missed the new yr countdown... coz of movin hse... haiz... sian... new yr... new living situations... new thoughts... watched initial D again ytd at guardian hse... WOO NICE SHOW!!!
MY NEW YEAR THOUGHTS- We are always comparing the past and the present. The past is always better. Then we think 'why didn't we treasure the past and regret now that we can never return to how things were again?' Having this thought is why we never treasure what we have now, which is the present, and regret onli when the present becomes a past.- It is our desire to be able to travel through time. To continue to enjoy what happened in the past and prevent us from making those mistakes we had made and to know what is going to happen with the choices we made so the we won't make the wrong choice. Too bad it is only a fantasy.- When you love someone, you will want that person to be happy with the person he/she really loves instead of wanting him/her to be with you even though the person does not love you. People always think that as long as the person they love is with them, they are happy. No, they are making life miserable for themselves to see their loved ones sad. Those who feel happy that way, they do not truly love the person but they just want to possess him/her.- Making people happy is a way of making yourself happy too but if it is to the extend of making yourself miserable, then you are doing to much. Know your own limits, how much you can give.- Everybody changes, you and I are not exceptions. We might not have notice that we have change. It is always other people who notice our changes before we does.- Do not change yourself for the sake of pleasing anyone unless you are changing for the better. To not go out of the way to please people. If it is a small sacrifice, it's all right, but if it is too demanding, do not bother.Haiz... new year spells new beginning... new thoughts... new experiences... new happy and memorable moments... not forgeting new heartbreaks... May this new year be a great year for me... last year le... hope that things will be ok... friends... hope that we'll stay together... olevels... hope that i will not disappoint myself n those who cares... camp... hope will go on smoothly... prefects... hope that the juniors can buck up... micromouse... hope that we will be able to overcome any difficulties... everything that is goin to happen... hope that they will be good things...
--I Need a Nap--
6:15 PM
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