im stressed. and im sensitive to words. and im tired of thinking for others.
you may not mean it, whatever i perceive, as you always dun mean to. but because im sensitive to words, it still hurts. to feel that im accused again, of being unreasonable.
just a sensitive person in a sensitive period. i must have been thinking too much again.
i know i shouldnt be selfish. but isnt everyone?
for once... my priority have to be set right.
i cant be pleasing others again when im already half-buried in the depths.
i cant always try to understand the stress and difficulties others face when they don't understand that I AM stressed and facing a difficult time.
and for you... i thank you.
for knowing me, for being with me, for trying to understand that i have my moments too. for sometime now, a rather unexpected friendship but in my down-est moments moved me to tears, as she stood by me, and my stubbornness.
and... sorry.
for making things difficult for you, and making the choice you had to make because i tied you down by a pact. but... i really appreciate it. for not jumping to conclusions, for not just accusing my actions of being a childish.
and sorry... was half tempted to just went along with the decision so as to not burden you, but i really have got to prioritize this time.
and ya. since it's just me, i should have given in to others. like i always did. but this time. i need to start trying to breathe first.
but...
我真的深深地感受到，只要有一个知心，在乎我的朋友，其实真的不需要在意其他人怎么看我。
Because when others are judging me based on what they see, there's is someone who will stand by me and listen to what i have got to say.
