i just... need to rant

HAHA. GPA sure drop, cfm + chop. well doing whatever i can but dun think will be enough to save the day. glad i SU both the PE. and i'm not even confident of passin it =s.

and apparently, i still got work to do. haha not as ended as i tot eh?

totally lost the focus this sem... got the totally ggfied feeling now. like right now LOL. but well... that's really not so much of my concern now...

well it is still a concern... but i guess i've alr predicted it, so i alr accepted it...

i really hate it when everything comes together... and so many uncertainties, so last min... really i know it's not really anyone's fault... once or twice, i can be forgiven... i hope this doesn't stretch the limit...

we cant really have the best of both worlds eh?

haha and who is there to understand and stop pointing their fingers? who can really stand in my shoes, give me the encouragement i need and forgive my negligence? and see the difference in our situations?

is a sudden feeling out of accumulated events. 1st u send email with so many errors. den you realised people are not really responding. den you send another email, your com hang, and you retype that freaking email. den you deal with some nonsense and people starts getting negative around you. so you try to help but you realised you are really just quite useless. den you find you have your own problems to solve, starting with accusations from people you care, people whom you hope might understand you. oh and people comes asking you for something you dunno. and the reply you were waiting for to answer them came after 13 hrs instead of one hour. den comes a sudden change in schedule. you arrange and finds a perfect schedule, something comes in and you change. but you cant confirm your change. and you see your midterm results. your com gets lag. and ba boom here you are, typing a super negative blogpost...

it gets tiring to remind myself not to be wilful, headstrong and be more understanding... to be convinced that everything is ok and things will go well... when you know it's not. yet you have to be convinced of it

hadn't felt this depressed in a long time. HAHA.

and you know, the lappy is not really helping by being so lag when i'm trying to get things done. :D

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