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2011-12-13T14:36:00.002+08:00

Finally starting to clear a few things on my list~ but nua too much, not doing alot xD Just watching Queen Seondeok all day :x enjoy life ttm. haven even start planning for xmas too :x nua till too happy~

People who owe me money, please pay me back eh, you know cannot 欠过年 one, will have bad luck! ok not like ppl will see it here anw. but really running low on cash :(( looking at all the things ive got to buy and the fact that i dun have any income for this two months!! ARGH. But yea too lazy to work too.

2011-12-06T13:57:00.000+08:00

YESHHHHHHH FREEEEEDDOOOOMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wows been damn long since i can nua at home, slack, watch videos, and do whatever {I} want!! Dont have to worry about FOC stuff, work, and all! and no im not really for the idea of going out to play often cos im not actually earning money... means i dun wanna spend too much either!!!! keke~

OK must do for hols:

1) Internship!

2) Clear the WHOLE room

3) Piano Exams

4) EXERCISE

5) Clear drama LIST!!!

6) NUA AT HOME

7) Meet up with friends :))

8) Settle my batt's prob

9) READ!!!

Things i will like to do:

1) baking/cooking

2) some big project (secret hehe)

3) go overseas again! short getaway (just back from Bintan!)

4) small event jobs, minimal commitment

5) korean/jap? hahs

6) Settle all the problems. whatever could not be settled when everyone was stressful.

Wants:

1) Camera

2) New clothes, a small bag and cream-coloured heels!

3) New earpiece for my nano~

4) Oven? Theory books?

5) Storybooks?

6) Jacket

Wells actually the list goes on xD hehe doubt i can have so much and do so much but still!!! Looking forward is happy!!!! Wont even dare to dream of doing all that i want the previous holidays!!!! <3 this life ttm!~

Dun worry so much and move forward :)) shall wait till 22nd :))

2011-11-13T02:24:00.001+08:00

im stressed. and im sensitive to words. and im tired of thinking for others.

you may not mean it, whatever i perceive, as you always dun mean to. but because im sensitive to words, it still hurts. to feel that im accused again, of being unreasonable.

just a sensitive person in a sensitive period. i must have been thinking too much again.

i know i shouldnt be selfish. but isnt everyone?

for once... my priority have to be set right.

i cant be pleasing others again when im already half-buried in the depths.

i cant always try to understand the stress and difficulties others face when they don't understand that I AM stressed and facing a difficult time.

and for you... i thank you.

for knowing me, for being with me, for trying to understand that i have my moments too. for sometime now, a rather unexpected friendship but in my down-est moments moved me to tears, as she stood by me, and my stubbornness.

and... sorry.

for making things difficult for you, and making the choice you had to make because i tied you down by a pact. but... i really appreciate it. for not jumping to conclusions, for not just accusing my actions of being a childish.

and sorry... was half tempted to just went along with the decision so as to not burden you, but i really have got to prioritize this time.

and ya. since it's just me, i should have given in to others. like i always did. but this time. i need to start trying to breathe first.

but...

我真的深深地感受到，只要有一个知心，在乎我的朋友，其实真的不需要在意其他人怎么看我。

Because when others are judging me based on what they see, there's is someone who will stand by me and listen to what i have got to say.

2011-07-31T14:35:00.003+08:00

Alot of things left unsaid, but somehow it just dun seem to be the right time to say it now. I sense a wall coming up, something i anticipated after that night. Or maybe its just me? Miscommunication had led to all these, there are things I need to apologise about and things I need to explain. I know while I complain, I need to take much responsibility of whatever happened.

Still, there is a big gratitude in my heart for all of them. Its because of them that I managed to pushed on, because of them that I remained strong (ok till that night). I admit I had been demanding and expecting too much. All the while not communicating properly and putting alot of stress on everyone.

Anyhow, ITS OVER!!! and i hope soon things will wash away too.

2011-06-11T00:48:00.002+08:00

what hurts the most

was being so close

and having so much to say

and watching you walk away

and not knowing

what could've been

and not seeing that loving you

is what i was trying to do

no freedom of speech

i cant be selfish

but who isnt?

just that i dun even have the authority to be :))

2011-05-15T11:16:00.002+08:00

我要疯掉了。

I'm not that nice, kind person i set out to be. Like anyone, i'm selfish. I dun even understand why i'm liddat now. Really regretted, now i dun even have a channel to express myself freely. My depression. I really regretted. How i wish i'm a little more stupid.

Self-pwned. Ignorance is damn blissful, isnt it?

Didnt realised till it was too late. HAHA. Turn back time, time, time. ARGH!!!

I dunno what will be worse. Finding out now, or waiting till its set.

Her best days will be some of mine worst.

FML.

2011-04-21T18:10:00.002+08:00

For the first time in my life, I wish i was prettier.

Not the kind of, dress up everyday, make up everyday. But the kind you know will make you feel more confident.

Its eating into me more than I thought it would. and i already almost lost my last line of defence.

2011-01-19T02:12:00.002+08:00

I suck. I know I am pushing the limits. I know I'm starting to think too much, to wrap myself up again. I know I'm accusing again. I know I have given up understanding and taking up unreasonability (if this freaking word exist). Just let me sit in my corner for a while and find the understanding side of me back and get rid of my accusations.

2010-12-26T23:22:00.000+08:00

Enjoyed the dinner today. not really the laughing and joking around sort, it's nv the tradition. more of the simple fare and the peace.

Glad to have controlled myself the day before. The house is hardly quiet with 4 hot-tempered people living under the same roof haha. Perhaps it's exactly because of this that the peace and simple interaction is considered precious.

Perspectives

2010-12-20T17:45:00.001+08:00

Ended finally. and here i am, allowing myself to fall deeper.

HAHA opened my paper and thought wow, it's really time for miracles eh? luckily some of our solutions still looks alike. most prob wun dabao, but not sure if will do well...

Exams is the root of all evils. Makes people stressed up and feel bad about themselves. glad i'm not really wanting to kill myself yet, haha but neither am i feeling the relief... the "wow, exams ended!" kind of relief... cause i'm back at old cant a? haha...

maybe it's cause i'm forcing myself not to reflect too much on the papers till my grades come... it's really kind of saddening to know that your hard work the prev sem is gonna be in vain cos of your own negligence this sem... but well, still glad i've done well enough last sem that my GPA wun be so damn cui.

time for miracles...

i know my blog has no content

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2010-12-17T13:46:00.000+08:00

all of us are guilty of prejudgment. we judge based on what we know from the past, what we've heard about the person and what we think we know about the person.

tired of it. of being judged. of having to judge people. somehow it's something we do unconsciously eh? and inevitably a skill you need.

one left. already not in the mood. looking back there are definitely regrets. it would have been so easy, yet i just have to screw things up myself. WELL haha. wont let it bring me down. it will have to be my motivation for the next coming sem.

meanwhile, i'm quite sure i'll continue to feel it this way till i end my last paper and break away from the mugging routine.

speaking of mugging, that's what i should be doing now eh?

i realised it's harder and harder to break away. i'm sinking deeper and deeper into it. i sort of permitted myself to eh? things will be better after mon... right?

time is the factor.

beneath the auburn glow.

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2010-12-11T01:08:00.000+08:00

Sometimes things just becomes a routine.

2010-12-09T01:10:00.001+08:00

mixed feelings. literally.

think i've been reading too much. into notes and everything. literally.

worried. about how it gonna affect everything. literally.

it's so easy to break my resolve. i'm lousy.

no one should be hurt.

never have i felt like this before.
Fri, may everything go well.

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nites, world.

2010-11-28T02:14:00.001+08:00

i just... need to rant

HAHA. GPA sure drop, cfm + chop. well doing whatever i can but dun think will be enough to save the day. glad i SU both the PE. and i'm not even confident of passin it =s.

and apparently, i still got work to do. haha not as ended as i tot eh?

totally lost the focus this sem... got the totally ggfied feeling now. like right now LOL. but well... that's really not so much of my concern now...

well it is still a concern... but i guess i've alr predicted it, so i alr accepted it...

i really hate it when everything comes together... and so many uncertainties, so last min... really i know it's not really anyone's fault... once or twice, i can be forgiven... i hope this doesn't stretch the limit...

we cant really have the best of both worlds eh?

haha and who is there to understand and stop pointing their fingers? who can really stand in my shoes, give me the encouragement i need and forgive my negligence? and see the difference in our situations?

is a sudden feeling out of accumulated events. 1st u send email with so many errors. den you realised people are not really responding. den you send another email, your com hang, and you retype that freaking email. den you deal with some nonsense and people starts getting negative around you. so you try to help but you realised you are really just quite useless. den you find you have your own problems to solve, starting with accusations from people you care, people whom you hope might understand you. oh and people comes asking you for something you dunno. and the reply you were waiting for to answer them came after 13 hrs instead of one hour. den comes a sudden change in schedule. you arrange and finds a perfect schedule, something comes in and you change. but you cant confirm your change. and you see your midterm results. your com gets lag. and ba boom here you are, typing a super negative blogpost...

it gets tiring to remind myself not to be wilful, headstrong and be more understanding... to be convinced that everything is ok and things will go well... when you know it's not. yet you have to be convinced of it

hadn't felt this depressed in a long time. HAHA.

and you know, the lappy is not really helping by being so lag when i'm trying to get things done. :D

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2010-09-23T16:12:00.000+08:00

HAHA. Apparently my plan of trying to get my attendance rate back to tt of a typical normal student and sleeping at a perfect healthy-enough timing has totally failed. For the last 2 weeks. this week was better, woke in time the last 2 days but slping as late as ever and ended up fallin sick. In the end slept through the time today again =s tml gotta be early!

and i've got a quiz tml.

so disorientated, academic wise. somehow i'm focusing too much on foc stuff? but wells, now at least my team is up! plans coming in, ideas flowing in, and we've got things to look forward to. i've got a good team (the chiefs at least) and i'm feeling +ve abt the coming year for foc.

guess not only my academic stuff was affected all these while. missing out suppers and gatherings due to all my tuition and foc stuff too. a bit overwhelmed. lookin back at the lives i've missed out over these weeks of juggling and seeing the things i perhaps shld have seen but nv really saw as probs till now. turn of events, perceptions, feelings, and perhaps a tinge of misunderstandings. i wanna know wat is going on and resolve it but i feel i dun realli have the right to ask. i wasn't doing my part too... it'll be ok again, rite?

wells, time to get my life back on track.

off to revise for the quiz. haha i wonder when will be my next update?

2010-08-31T11:56:00.000+08:00

wanted to have a final update b4 sch starts.. but yea, u know, haha..

wells, now sch has finally started (which i actually looked fwd to), time to TRY to get back to the momentum... haha shld start LEARNING how to sleep by 12 every night and get use to a schooling lifestyle? so not ready for sch man :s time to start mugging too if not i'll nv catch up :s

RESOLUTION THIS SEM: ATTENDANCE RATE INCREASE FRM 30% TO 80%

haha, try my best lar hor xD

and as expected i'm more free now that sch started... YOG ended with a blast (though i did not take part in the "blast") and no more outings and stuff goin on ler~~~ miss the free transport though, why dun they give us a full month of it? LOl... my duty was, kinda slack and hMm bored? but the ppl thr are great!

STARS wars.... won more or less, but sad that i only have 18 AUs this sem... wonder if i shld be ambitious and go add more but hMm dun really seem to have elects i'm interested in, or it clashes with the others... i scare i'll regret gettin computing as a minor sia =s

and things are lookin up, at least i think so :)

KITE FLYING WAS FUN! lol an aspect of of the regular childhood which i missed haha... shall try to see whr i can get materials/cheap kites and go again someday!!! :D

Sabotuer is another interestin game! LOL tempted to buy the cards... but most ppl i play with have the cards le eh? lol

step up 3D is damn cool!!! though i tink certain moves will look better watched on 2D

dun tink too much, study girl :)

2010-08-18T04:46:00.000+08:00

Yea. it's up to me now... time for me to face it no matter how hard it is... i cnt always sit there and think and emo and worry about doing something wrong... neither should i keep everything to myself and not bother explaining because i expect people to understand, even when they are not even me...

and ya, part of the problem lies with me... wilful, quiet, busy... perhaps, a great part of it...

time to salvage my kinship, my r/s, my friendships and myself... and fulfil all my duties for all the roles i'm playing... it's gonna be hard but i dun wanna go down without trying

do regret volunteering, cos now everything is coming at one go and all of this are more important to me... time is alr not on my side with student's prelims... responsibilities vs personal affairs... but did not regret my choice of position, since it do allow me quite a lot of free time compared to others

i dun handle my time well, i dun reject anything and thus i'm always too busy... i'm not brave enough to take all the 1st steps i could have taken long ago because i'm always scared and worried of the results and fear rejections... i jus keep convincing myself everything is ok when i know very well it is not... and i dun watch what i say and hurt people, or convey the wrong message along the way

give me the courage to carry one...

2010-07-22T01:02:00.001+08:00

stress level now hits a new high and boom~ disagreements, overusage of the f word comes along~ but the programmers are sure united haha... well, and not to forget the fact that some of us are gettin sick as well :s gg la~and the amount of $$ each of us have to fork out (no idea when we'll have it back), the amount of things we have to do T.T well but, we'll do it!!! die die also will complete

expecting some good show tml, like, updates? 4 days left, of which 2 are on weekends. have fun eh~

not to say i'm not worried, but i realised that since some stuff are supposedly none of my business, i shall stand by and watch... with much disappointment, but well, i know i've tried

twist of event is shocking but well, guess we have no choice... and we responded quite well to it, i think :D good work

all of us, get well before it :D

with regards to another issue...

i tot my confirmed list will be out by monday? wahaha~

we have increasing factors, but spending is to slashed to only slightly more than half the original.. nice~

well, not everything is as easy as it seems...

and trust me, if i'm out to do something, i'll make it the best... not just in terms of delivery, but also in terms of feasibility... whatever others might have thought of... i would have

which is why everytime you shoot me something, i can explain my rationale behind everything

and for me, i should really control my emotions and be more objective... it's really my fault for not being so (THIS sentence is really NOT sarcastic... i really think it's my fault... in this segment)

like what she said... we're expecting a surprise :D jiayou

and once this is over... i'll be much more free... will u trust me?

and can i trust that you do take what i said seriously?

or more like, u'll remember them... cos that matters to me...

i dun wan it to end on misunderstandings and childish reasons again

2010-07-16T20:55:00.000+08:00

unexpected. but well...

work wise, things seems to be picking up... at least i know what i'm doing and stuff... and i see the proposal coming out ler~~~ that's good haha....

happened to meet shangzhi on the way home ytd and decided to go over and see how they

his bday ytd :) realised been quite long since we chatted over the phone liddat... too busy ba~

life... what does it hold?

2010-07-13T04:07:00.000+08:00

guess i was too sensitive, with regards to the previous post... nth was said about feeling of displeasure towards me... sounds like self denial? like again and again... but, it doesn't matter if i'm happy :) ... the stone is still there but at least i'm looking at the side that makes me happy now :)

i know everything is piling up, and it'll come crashing down on me someday, someday... and i hope to tidy up the stuff before that happens... waiting for the appropriate time, appropriate mood... I dun want to start on the wrong piece and the stack eventually crash down before i can put anything into place... yet i'm afraid that all these waiting is piling the stuff up...

i cant do this alone... i need help... i wonder if the same sentiments is shared?

and time is so little... i wanna be happy in the little time i have... yet... somehow, things are beginning to end unhappily... and i'll spent the whole of the time alone thinking about it, getting emo over it, convincing myself that i'm just too sensitive, become happy over just a sms and thus convince myself successfully.... and remains happy till the next time something happens again...

the previous post was supposed to be much longer... too much i wanted to say... but i was too tired after the 2 gatherings that followed the incident... and i'm glad for some company like this :) ... though they have no idea that my insides was tearing like shredding papers, i laughed and forgot about everything while i was with them... for the moment...

HAHA... this is always what happens when i start expecting too much... haha... i should really stop hoping for what i'll nv get, so i'll be happier when it comes... stop saying what i want or expect, so i'll nv feel upset when i know someone is always gonna hear, but not listen... and stop putting in so much, so i wun feel unappreciated everytime something backfires...

perhaps, i'm just not that important...

and no... that was not an emotional statement... i'm certainly important, i know... to certain extent... and yes, i know i'm not always important... and the problem lies with me being someone who cannot express myself correctly... my concern for others, and my fears... and i'm not someone interesting, always too serious... but i do like myself for who i am... at least i know, there is so much things i can do, cause i'm mature enough... so much achievements i can expect... and so much happier just exploring life despite all the stumbles and falls...

he asked if everything is ok and i said yes, abit hesitantly... i hope next time, i dun have to hesitate... and he dun have to do anything again

anw~

wingkin is back! frm hongkong haha... had a nice time chilling up and updating each other (mainly zk's love life xD) at the coffee club (Holland V)... haha wanted to eat chicken rice but the stall was closed. thus, we had zhi char instead~ crabs!!! lol... nice~

and ya~ lots of things are going on, now that i'm out of my chicken pox

toyRus stocktake~ interesting!!! wasn't as lucky as my lingling, but at least i did not have to count batteries (that was emo)

recees~ good place we found! and had an impromptu recee on sun nite~ damn dark! lucky zq drove, we ended at one plus =s sad thing is, he had to drive all the way to the other end of sg den back to central again... nice of him to send me home :) though lik, he shld? lol but! at least i see the stuff coming out :D

went to pick saga seeds with steph too! got like 500+ of it... lots of them at st andrews cathedral!~ haha interesting exp, we were lik, why are we doing all these? HAHA

celebration brought fwd to wed since he had duty on sat... damn cork up... but, at least it wasn't sth we always do together :)

went on air on 933FM live too~ on thurs, for our publicity~ thr was nth much, but it was kind of interesting... at least i didn't say anything wrong xD shopped on fri with joanne~ haha i didn't see anything i like but she found some nice stuff... had dinner with dear after meeting up with zq to discuss about the ideas... enjoyed the atmosphere of the dinner that day :D

Happy - Leona Lewis

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can’t have everything
Don’t you take chances
You might feel the pain
Don’t you love in vain
’cause love won’t set you free

I can’t stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

So what if it hurts me?
So what it I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge,
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
'cause I just trying to be happy
I just wanna be happy, yeah

Holding on tightly
Just can’t let go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear
But all these days
They feel like they’re they’re same
Just different faces
Different place
Get me out of here

I can’t stand by the side
Ooh, no
And watch this life pass me by
Pass me by

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge?
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I’m just trying to be happy

Oh, happy
Oh

So many terms that I can't see
Like I'm a stranger on this road
But don't say victim
Don’t say anything

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge?
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I just wanna be happy
Happy
I just wanna be
Oh
I just wanna be
Happy.

2010-07-11T04:13:00.001+08:00

how about... start thinking about how i would feel before focusing on expressing displeasure...

lik... over material stuff, and things that are probably not even my fault... things i didn't wish for to happen and i cant prevent...

2010-07-03T02:31:00.001+08:00

money, can u drop down from the sky?

i could really use some of them now... alot of things and places i wanna go... no money means i have to give something up lol... the chicken pox period induced much financial loss and caused lots of problems for me to slowly pick up and solve... and not that i dun wan to listen to my mum, yea i know she's worried but i got things to do!!! lik, i cant even eat chicken??? for 100 days? den wat do i eat during my camp? grass?? and both events in my charge are at night -.-

ok back to money prob... i guess, i wun be able to make it for foc krabi trip then, since i've gotta pay by 7 jul... and this period i can really use quite a bit of $$$... and the toyRus pay, may get back to us by only 17th -.- just hope my open house pay comes in soon!!! =s... totally received no news on it yet, even after emailing in to the in charge =s damn lar =s

and i'm still cracking my head over some other stuff... haiz... so many factors to consider...

anyway, ps man was just getting more and more boring as i saw the next ep (18) picking up as more stuff were revealed... and i forced myself to stop cos ep 19 is not even out yet -.- i hate waiting for new eps =s

so in all, i'm glad i went for the training today. though there were awkward moments somehow LOL

2010-07-01T22:31:00.000+08:00

shifted from s25 blog:

"my mood was just getting better when i realised, i've this student, whom for the whole of last month, i only gave her tuition ONCE... this is NOT THE FIRST TIME, and the best thing is:

IT WAS JUNE LAST MONTH. JUNE HOLIDAYS.

so yea. off with the stuff about school. what about the time when she forgot and said she wanted to watch movie? i really cannot understand, what is tuition for since she cannot keep up with it?and what do i say everytime her mum ask me why i only went a few times?

another talk, i guess. if it doesn't get better in july, i have no idea how i'm going to continue teaching. the girl is smart actually. it all depends on how much she really wants to put in."

the post was actually posted yesterday, some time after the first post. i typed this into the wrong blog...

ps man said 他妈的爱情, i say 他妈的水痘

goin out for job training tml ba i think, attire: long pants + cardigan haha... i'm def not walking anywhere far =s

date changed to sun. i think i should be able to go? since i already decided to go out on fri? HAIZ...

2010-06-30T22:50:00.000+08:00

back... haha with chicken pox

well staying at home doing nothing much, just slacking away, enjoying the time i have at home... haha and i'm trying to slow down my pace of watching my new drama (ps man) in case i have nothing to do after a while....

haha missed quite a few meetings and stuff, + claud's bday celeb part 2 haha... but had a great night on part 1 of the celeb! all of us was there and it's so rare!!! nice chilling out with the bytches at nana after a dinner at home with my dad~ though we climbed mountains to get to the place lar =x

opened a bottle of martel and played circle of death (i think this was the name when zhenquan intro the game during foc chalet)... had fun adding hor to everything we say and boncing and screaming away LOL...

oh ya, it's WCF now btw and it's burning the atmosphere up! lik everywhr, be it meetings or seniors' camp... even my student who DUN WATCH soccer is getting so excited over the season!! haha... she had fun updating me (and not doin her work-.-) HAHA... well, perhaps if i can get a bit more interested in soccer within the next 4 yrs i'll really understand wat's all the fever about and not just a follower in the atmosphere haha... quite funny to see people getting depress (and at the same time another few hi5-ing each other) somewhr in the same meeting LOL...

well, might consider watching the last match on 11th, depending on which countries are in LOL

but well, chicken pox now means i'm to put aside alot of things inculding preparation for FOC... haha lots of ppl signing up! and it's lik, less den a month away! all of our hardwork in the past one year into this 6 meaningful days~ GO PPL!!! we'll see the fruit ripen soon!!! :D and ya, i hope to join back soon too!!!

and i miss all the people i failed to meet up with! haha ppl are comin back to sg soon, so i guess i can expect some class gathering to come :)

of course, next thing i can truly look forward to is mon!!! *winks* (well i'm coming out of fri but before mon it's all work stuff haha) i miss the bytches! hehe

k, till here, my ps man is waiting~

2010-06-20T01:26:00.000+08:00

lots of thoughts running through my mind, main reason why i decided to give this blog a little life...

over a significant portion of last week, i was super angry and fed up with this particular person... a FRIEND who is in a different placement... i was super duper angry actually, but i think i managed not to show it. i thought, anyone could have made that mistake, but once advised, people with any sense will do the required actions and apologise immediately.

in the end, not only it needed like THREE of us to talk to her for her to react, i was the one apologising. even though she was the one who came out with some VULGARITIES. WHEN I TOTALLY DIDN"T DO ANYTHING WRONG, AND WAS TALKING NICELY TO HER.

ya it's not fair to me, but what to do? clearly in that particular situation, I WAS NOT TREATED AS A FRIEND. rather, more like a junior who needs to show respect for a superior. so in accordance to the system, i do have to express some concern for her "damage".

AND THE IRONIC THING IS: i'm quite SURE if it was ANYONE ELSE, anyone whom i really should respect in terms of age and seniority, the person would have understood. and she, of all people, should!

ya, i totally understand, it's for other stuff, BUT DID SHE TRY TO UNDERSTAND THAT IT"S LOTS OF HARD WORK, IN OPEN FOR ALL??? it'll be like, everything down the drain.

and. why ask our superior to deal with us when we're talking to her (ya, to extent of a quarrel for one of us) as a friend??? THIS IS ONE THING I DONT UNDERSTAND. would she rather us, AS FRIENDS, ask her superior to deal with her instead of trying to stop her from making that mistake? IT'S ONE OF THE RULES SHE HAS TO FOLLOW TOO. so she is happier if someone else blames her for that?

and quarrel between friends, not settled within friends? why must it be that outsiders have to step in?

UNLESS, WE ARE NOT REGARDED BY OUR R/S AS FRIENDS. BUT AS OF OTHER STUFF.

but well whatever. now that it's over, i hope everything just blow over. though, perhaps when comes to dealing with her, i'll use her method: ask someone else to deal with her, instead of advising as a friend.

ITS GOOD IF ANYONE READING HERE DUN UNDERSTAND ANY OF THIS. THOUGH, I THINK NO ONE COMES HERE ANYMORE :D

i just hope whoever heard her story will be fair to see that the main point was not the words that was hurled at her. with her attitude towards us. this took 2 hands to clap, our side at most half the hands.

whatever, whatever.

and then. i almost cannot take it alr. 4 TUITIONS SET THIS WEEK, ALL CANCELLED. i dun see how i'm gonna make her improve. i'm like, omg, someone can be so much busier than i am?!?! i cant even set a proper and fixed tuition time with her. next week, i definitely have to make it clear that the time is reserved for me at least. if not, she forgets everything i taught her at the previous lesson everytime i get there =.= though i should not be concerned right? not wasting my money =.=

whatever, whatever.

2010-05-31T01:35:00.000+08:00

WOW it's been like 5 months since i last updated. not gonna post that day-to-day break down i guess =x.

took my time to read through all the blog entries which i've missed and not read for the past 3 months, hoping to get a glismpe of all my friends' life which i've missed out in the whole of last sem... and decided to blog and post some overdue pics up on fb~~

preoccupied with all other stuff, mainly academic, i missed lots my own personal time for me to do stuff like this. but no, i'm quite sure i did not really miss out much fun since i've been going out. well that's where the personal time goes to actually xD.

and me being here also means year 1 is officially over! kinda satisfied with my sem 2 results, though i know i could have done lots better for both sems. if i start early. but well! at least i improved quite alot. and my calculus. i did it! lol... if this continues i'll get my GPA 4 in no time :). hopefully GPA 5 for next sem! (siao LOL)

declared minors, actually kinda lookin forward to plannin my next sem's timetable now LOL xD. must make the right choice. cannot let my GPA fall again. AND CANNOT END EXAM ON 24TH DEC. LOL super emo =s

and about time i made my decision on next year ler hur?

that asides. that idiot might not get to book out next week and the following week i have seniors camp. T.T Nvm we'll both work hard these 2 weeks! jiayou :)

and i guess i should get a twitter account, seems like everyone is updating it instead of their blog now. shall get one and stalk all my friends xD.

And i'm only gonna get busier with all the stuff coming up and everything i'm supposed to do. jiayoU!!!!

2009-12-21T01:51:00.001+08:00

Activities at a glance:
- Super long main comm meeting(10+ hrs for some of us) + Mahjong with wanting steph steven (14th)
- slack at guardian's hse~ (15th)
- met up with mavis to buy fj's present + nights out with mich shan fruits(16th)
- FOC outing to JB!!! (17th)
- slack at michie hse~ (18th)
- Car wash + Japbuffet with S25!!! :) (19th)
- met up with yf (20th)

as u can see, i spent a lot of money this week~ LOL the meetin on mon was crazy, programmers followed by evalution followed by comm meetin~ stuck in CAC rm for 10+ hrs!!! worse for WnL, they were thr till 9+! wow~ and steven went more ksiao by suggesting that we go and play mahjong~ lol high, got home at lik 1+

wanted to club on wed, but due to some reasons, didn't get to play as much as we wanted to, mainly cos of the mood? and the lack of liquor~ but doesn't matter, admission is free LOL... spent more time chattin in the end LOL~

thurs... JB TRIP!!! didn't really get to shop, the prices ard the same as the goods in sg, and the grp was too large.. we had 6 girls and 6 boys!!! quite shocked that the girl-guy ratio is actually the same LOl... experience the ktv thr, got high, not forgetin the nobody dance by trent n alex, and mingjun's variations of our sorry sorry LOL~ 4 mics!!! wireless somemore!!! after that steven joined us, walked ard for a while, den head off for dinner! and we had our mini adventure... steph's batch of ppl (we took 3 cabs) went to a diff location thanks to the very "understanding" uncle~ and we walked for lik 20+ to 30 mins b4 we finally found them... and their autoroam weren't workin at that time! thank goodness we got everyone back... and settled down for dinner!!! the usual zhi char with... CRABS!!! lol... the chilli and black pepper crabs. damn nice, esp the black pepper de. ages since i last ate it... and with that, + a lot of shit stirring, our trip ends. fun :)

had our car wash session on sat morn... earned only 50 bucks as the weather sucked T.T still we had a lot of fun at the pavilion, singing (and irritating? a group of campers who shared the pavilion with us LOL)... with all the shit stirring and stuff, we ended early, by majority's preference :) and i headed down to clementi! changed, made myself look lik a human, and set off to meet S25! helga's back frm melborne!!! hadn't seen most of them for months as well! had jap buffet at turf city and fun catching up with each other... omg i so missed them and the crap they do~ feels great to see everyone again! went up to yt's hse for drinks afterthat... fm and him moved to the centris! the condo above jp2? and it's very nice, with a neat, calm feel to it, unlik other condos, with tons of trees ard the pool~ the pool is jus lik a lake itself! chatted and slacked over the drinks and the tv till abt 3+ before we left, thanks to yt for sendin us home! :) more meet ups to come! :)

and fb is uploadin the pics slowly-_-

things happened which set me thinkin abt alot, as much as i dun wan to... some things are jus so vulnerable... it's lik a flower, no matter how well u take care of it, it falls when the strong wind comes before the fruit grows and ripen... 花开了，但结不了果... and no one knows exactly wat's goin on on the other side... can only hope for the best now...

what doesn't break you, makes u stronger

so jiayou girl :)

2009-12-13T21:25:00.000+08:00

well i guess, there's no more reasons not to update my blog since exams and senior camp are over~~

Activities at a glance:
- mahjong at boon seng hse with his brother + ky ps yf (26th sept)
- holden's gathering + celebration for oct babies :) (29th sept)
- mugged at airport with xq yl noelle (30th sept)
- CAC FOC main comm chalet (1st - 2nd oct)
- yl's present + mug at yl's hse (3rd oct)
- celeb xq's bday with hall 8 ppl (6th)
- celeb with my brothers (7th)
- celeb with cot + family (8th)
- mugged with angela n zf (9th)
- 3 freaking mid term tests and "cloudy with a chance of meatballs" with yf (10th)
- surprise from my bytches :) (11th)
- dinner with emer (13th)
- CAC members' night - mismatch (15th)
- overnight at xq+yl's hall (16th)
- chloe's 21st (17th)
- lunch at marina sq with yf (18th)
- celebrate pt's bday (21st)
- celebrate ps's bday (23rd)
- lunch with yf, alumni's night + overnight kbox (+9 in a car :x)
- celebrate carine's bday (28th)
- "the sister's keeper" with yf and his friends (31st)
- mahjong with vanee ps ky (1st nov)
- new phone :) (3nd nov)
- mugged in jj wit ys (5th)
- met mentor (6th)
- samuel's 21st (7th)
- celebrate jh's bday (8th)
- pre-exams FOC gathering (11th)
- "astro boy" with yf (15th)
- start of 1st paper (19th)
- bugis with yf and THAT (21st)
- stay over at xq+yl's hall (25th)
- bak ku teh (26th)
- "fantastic fox" wit yf (27th)
- kbox with cot girls, tao huey with mich vanee yao(2nd dec)
- mug with yao and emer (3rd)
- new moon with bytches (4th)
- stand chart (5th night - 6th)
- dinner with vanee ky (7th)
- IMH canvassing, met cot ppl, claypot with bytches (8th)
- IMG canvassing, meeting + stay over (9th)
- seniors camp + 风云II(post-camp) (10th-11th)
- met yf (12th)
- shoppin with mich!~ (13th)

ok i believe i've missed things out, but that's really all that i can rmb lol... i'll be surprised if i rmbed every single thing haha

the rest of the day pretty much is mugging, in old cant A/ CAC rm~~ mainly with steph and trent ba...

well exams and seniors' camp's over, pretty much time to relax a little... which is good lol... mugged till siao in school... but dun tink will get good grades ba? next sem really must start early. rite xq?

so much had happened... 2 months gone in the blink of an eye... fair share of fun, downs, laughters and tears. uni is really... diff... nv ever in my life had i been this stressed up.... haha not over studies at least... more lik over camps or other duties... wateva, the sem is over, too late for regrets... can only wait for the results to be out...

anyway as i recalled everything, i came to this part when all the bday celebs were... wanna say, really touched by everything u guys had done... my birthday is only special because all of u are ard :) and my bytches!!! i know ur definitely will celeb de lar no worries... knew i had to wait till all of us were free... and really thanks for the surprise! and the late night out though all of u had work/sch the very next day... love you all! muacks!!! :)

and to my bros... no need every year stress over wat to buy for me de leh... nice day out with u guys :) and dun worry abt me this time le yea? i know i'm rather vunerable as compared to your but this time round i'm prepared to face anything that comes... wun fall as badly as i did le :) and cs dun always emo also leh... i know u'll read this ;p

holdenians... thanks!!! really glad to have all of u ard, to accompany me thru the 4 yrs in uni... more outins to come please!!! haha

and to everyone else, who made it special... thanks :)

yf for the treat
emer for ur music box
zf for the super duper ex windbreaker (will find some chance to wear it)
angela for ur card
pt for the notebook
and all others for the well wishes :):):)

and all of a sudden, it's the last mth of the yr and xmas is comin.. and i realised, i completed NONE of my new yr resolution... ok, a little done for the wardrobe changing part LOL... well... i guess i dun have to make new ones this year then :) ok except to add that i'm gonna work hard for the coming sems

and this year hadn't really been a good year for all 7 of us... all the shutty stuff happened this year... we all understands how bella actually feels somehow LOL... well, the yr's gonna be over soon :) things will pick up next yr :) i hope...

2009-09-26T00:40:00.000+08:00

Activities at a glance:

- Mug with steph (21st Sept)
- The long awaited not-meant-to-be-completed MAS 801 midterm exams, followed by my post-exam concussion and shopping with peiting in jp lol (23rd Sept)
- 1st lunch of the week with holden peeps, after my distressing test lol (24th Sept)
- HTHT over lunch and The paid-to-talk canvassing event LOL (today)

ya little stuff this week, which is good so i have time to mug as well as rest...

the week after recess week will be quite gg for me... 4 tests, three of them IN THE SAME DAY... thx to my very meticulous maths tutors eh? who dun wan us to come back on different days and dun wanna use the lectures for the tests =D (cos apparently we're behind time and they cannot finish the modules)

and the worse thing is: i'm in totally no mood to mug =D

issit the environment? cos i've been goin home after sch, finding it lame to go to lib after sch... and staying in sch to mug feels kind of weird... not used to the envir =x LOL

and angela asked me a qn which set me thinking... back lol... and ya, i think i got most of wat i wan now =D at least i'm happy =D

and now i'm really confused, i dunno why u're confused, i dunno how come suddenly it's lik this again, and ya, totally confused, LOL... it feels lik it's goin on n off =S

HAHA recent fav song after hearing it someday on the radio when mugging with xq and girls~ nice song hor vanee? LOL =X

Avalanche - Marie Digby

Since when do you come around?
And the temperature's changed, nothing's the same
Left me, in yesterday;
You don't see me that way, touch me that way, no more
When you get so cold, I'm not sure just how much longer I can hold

You got me standing at the bottom of this mountain that we've made (mountain that we've made)
And the ground is shaking from all of our mistakes (all of our mistakes)
But there's no one, but then the ice is in our way
It's a matter of time,
We can rewind

If only you knew,
What my heart goes through for you
I'm tryna break through,
Don't you think it's worth the chance?
Let's leave the past, is that too much to ask?
And where do we stand? (Where do we stand?)
Can we pull through this avalanche? (avalanche, avalanche, oh, this avalanche, avalanche, avalanche)
Can we pull through this avalanche? (avalanche, avalanche, yeah, this avalanche, avalanche, avalanche, ooooh)

We see what's up ahead
Why do we stay?
Watching us fading
Trapped in by regret
There's no way out, and there's no way in, no
And it's so cold, I'm not sure just how much longer I can hold

You got me standing at the bottom of this mountain that we've made (mountain that we've made)
And the ground is shakin', from all of our mistakes (all of our mistakes)
But there's no one, but then the ice is in our way
It's a matter of time, we can rewind

If only you knew,
What my heart goes through for you
I'm tryna break through,
Don't you think it's worth the chance?
Let's leave the past,
Is that too much to ask?
And where do we stand? (Where do we stand?)
Can we pull through this avalanche? (avalanche, avalanche, oh, this avalanche, avalanche, avalanche)
Can we pull through this avalanche? (avalanche, avalanche, yeah, this avalanche, avalanche, avalanche, ooooh)

The bond is breaking and it's taking over my spirit (quickly, quickly)
Something's shifted, have we drifted too far apart now?

If you, oh,
If only you knew,
What my heart goes through for you
I'm tryna break through,
Don't you think it's worth the chance?
Let's leave the past,
Is that too much to ask?
And where do we stand? (Where do we stand?)
Can we pull through this avalanche? (avalanche, avalanche, oh, this avalanche, avalanche, avalanche)
Can we pull through this avalanche? (avalanche, avalanche, yeah, this avalanche, avalanche, avalanche, ooooh)

2009-09-21T01:27:00.002+08:00

12 days has passed... =S

Activities at a glance:
- planning comm meeting (9th sept)
- zhi char with yl, xq, demon(jiewei) n demon's friend(oppx, i forgot his name)!!! (10th sept)
- super easy MAS111 quiz, new printer! =D HTHT with peishan after IT fair (11th sept)
- study with shiyun and yaying, celebrated dickee's birthday!~ (12th sept)
- new ipod nano 5th gen! met up with grace for sakae dinner!!! =D (13th sept)
- breakfast with yl noelle sam, dental appointment oO (15th sept)
- FOC main comm meeting... Jing Ying bday celeb! =D (16th sept)
- Sub Comm recruitment drive~ (17th sept)
- Operation research quiz =S, supper with bytches!!! (18th sept)
- Mug with dengyuan, den alex noelle (today)

lol recently more slack ler, got time to play and mug~~ somehow LOL... BUT! i'm kinda broke now!!! after buying my printer + ipod + going for my dental, i'm pretty broke! heng i have a student whose's payin me session by session~ haha but i tink i got the stuff in IT fair at kinda good deal~ hehe

btw, my sch's zhichar is DAMN DAMN CHEAP!!! 4 dishes, quality good, ok quantity SLIGHTLY lesser, makaned by 2 guys 3 girls, cost 15 bucks!!! it's $3 per person!!! wahaha damn cheap lol~ good place for gathering for ntu students!!! =D

and the camp, programme side, starting to see light... flow and all more or less fixed haha~ just that we got probs with manpower... shall not elaborate too much =S and i'm startin to know ppl thr better! mainly plannin side de lol... but at least now i can recognise all of them ler haha~

and! celebrated dickee's birthday last sat! haha... zhen fa~~ haha i very fast full liao =S... had a good time catchin up and chattin lol... went back jurong to cut cake and watched the gamers~ omg the show was damn sick =S psycho... controlling another person to die for you =S i tink ivy a bit xia dao by my reaction in the cinema =S but overall, it was good=D

and met up with my bytches last fri LATE in the night for SUPPER!!! at xin wang in YISHUN lol... FOR SOME REASON lol... ivy drove me thr! and we picked mich up along the way! =D... and peishan CABBED FRM TAMAH JURONG to meet us! though it was damn late and all of us was shag and hungry after a long day in sch/work, it was nice =D we even "reported" all our current status lol~ dunno when's the next time we'll all meet up le =S

and...

MICHELLE JIE IS GETTING MARRIED!!! haha my mood weren't good, but after discussing abt it with my guardian, i sudd feel better~ haha... the big sister in our eyes since we were very very young, gettin married now! time realli flies~ lookin forward to her wedding! haha =D

been blog hopping... ppl are leavin... and i think... perhaps he is alr used to leavin... afterall he is more mature den us in many ways, perhaps he just see 离别 as part and parcel of his life... not that he dun care, not that he's not sad... i dunno abt u, but come to think of it, i had nv seen his weaker side... ever with the calm and cool composure... and it's wat he wants...

and i think he's not the only one who's leavin?

recently thr's been a very down atmosphere in her blog... the flow, her language...

since the begin of our gather, in the on and off underlying disagreements amongst us, the mugging days, the ponnin days, the badminton days, the basketball days, i'm sure everyone realised that our gathering is short-termed... 2 yrs... and everything aftertt becomes unpredictable... and it's always during times lik this we look back and realised, we didn't spent enough time tgt as we constantly move on, constantly grow up... and suddenly it's lik, u wun see this person, perhaps ever again... ok for me at least...

and lik, i'm not thr when they're down? no doubt they'll have others, but it's the thought of me not playing the role of a friend to them... and i dunno how long can things still last, while change is ever constant...

and i realised, i'm being stupid again... haha... and the story goes back again, to the same point... no point, no point... lol so i go to jurong point~ (extracted from camp cheer haha)

move on =D

upcoming:
- recess week (26th sept - 4th oct)
- midterms (at random dates)
- CAC FOC chalet (1st and 2nd Oct)
- canvassing events (at random dates as well)

tasks:
- camp flow and games

jiayou girl =D

2009-09-08T23:56:00.000+08:00

Wooo back!

Activities at a glance:
- Met up with yf, Ky hse with vanee n ky n jh (3rd sept)
- Dickee's Arrival to SG!!! (4th sept)
- Keetyih's bday lunch and Steamboat at Dickee's hse!!! (5th sept)
- food poisoning T.T (6th sept)
- Steamboat with FOC main comm peeps =D (today)

i think currently i can only stick to this "activities at a glance" section to remind myself what happened... and i doubt i'll have time to update all in details, but still MIGHT decide to post some photos in near(hopefully) future haha...

just recovered frm food poisoning!!! ok for those who didn't know, i tio food poisoning just 2 days back, which deprived me a chance of earning $50 and meeting up with angela and the yunnan guys~ really very xinku, keep on 上吐下泻, and halfway while i was doin the ppt for claud! convertin it into movie... and had to finish it and send it to andrew that nite =S so i practically spent that whole nite between my laptop and vomitting =S but now i'm much better, even managed to make it for the steamboat today! =D

anyway, glad that Dickee's back to sg! all of us was glad to see him back, after so long! we turned into giraffes at the airport while waiting for him to come out! tryin to spot him amongst the ppl arriving sg (heng we reached on time, traffic jam =s) and after waiting for sometime, we saw him! just as he left haha! except that he was wearin a set of very smart clothes which he bought the day b4 he left!!! haha! all of us was, grinning, happy that he's back! esp so for mich!!! (ivy n i thought she teared =x) went to have supper afterthat and steamboat at his hse the nxt day~ and the feeling when we saw him at the airport was good... lol and he was very busy, tryin to entertain everyone who went to fetch him haha~

think now, it's really gonna be more difficult for us to meet up ler =S=S=S everyone's busy... glad that i had my fair share of outins these few weeks with most of my friends frm the diff clique, to last me thru for a while... wondering when's the next time i can meet up with all of them? and claud just flew~ bytch outings will not be complete for the next 6mths =S

and those havin attachments... jy yea? work for ur As!!! =D and i'll work for mine =D

2009-09-03T01:19:00.002+08:00

OK, my blog is piling up... i'm really not havin enough time to blog now!

activities at a glance:
-CAC welcome tea(12th Aug)
-Pin Guang's school concert(13th Aug)
-Joan's birthday celeb!!!(14th Aug)
-"G.I. Joe" with vanee cs cy, Dinner with yf(15th Aug)
-"Up" with yf(17th Aug)
-Bought laptop!!! =D(18th Aug)
-Pepper lunch with yf(19th Aug)
-dinner with yingling n jinghu + CAC interview!(20th Aug)
-KY's birthday celebration!!!(21st Aug)
-Shoppin with Holdens and Dinner with grace yf aaron & ryan's family(22nd Aug)
-Shenlin's birthday celeb!!!(supposed to be jianbin's as well)(23rd Aug)
-1st visit to yl's n xq's room to MUG oO(24th Aug)
-1st time at riverboat with yf!(25th Aug)
-Ramen Teh with yf(26th Aug)
-KBOX with yingling xuanqi noelle AND 1st CAC FOC 01 Main Comm meeting!!!(27th Aug)
-The proposal with Bytches!!!(28th Aug)
-Yunnan "family dinner"!(29th Aug)
-Breakfast at yf hse + CAC Planning Comm 1st meeting + Yy's birthday dinner!!!(30 Aug)
-Going back to juying!(31st Aug)
-2nd mugging session (1st Aug)

and ya... that's the activities i had over the last few weeks~ this week is much better, jus lik today, didn't have anything much outside lessons except to meet COT for breakfast n lunch... OMG and i haven updated in quite a while!!! and i didn't really realise till yingling told me she linked me today =S... looks lik for now the photoblog thingy will still have to be post pone, maybe till during my recess ba~

not havin enough slp nowadays, and i'm always lik, goin frm one place to another.. but i'm gettin used to it, and lik i told xuanqi, this week onwrds shld be better ler! and ya, i'm gettin my tuts done on time again ler, though i had to stay up for it, and after tml i can start preparing for next week!!!

and i cnt believe what a mugger i am now... when i'm free, i'll study or sth... tt's definitely a change for me! i'm sure my sec sch n jc mates agress rite? me doing tuts! and sacrificin my slp for it! omg i cnt believe it either, but i'm now lik, so tuned to it! but still, i'm spendin a lot of time outside too! haha

reminiscing, i sudd tot back of what happened to me in the past few yrs this few days... part of the reason why i wanted to blog, apart frm yingling's act of linkin me... well, rather, she reminded me that i wanted to blog abt this...

perhaps it's mrs hon's qn of "is that(my course in uni) ur 1st choice?", perhaps it's my conversation with cheryl a few days back... thought of all the schools i've chosen and the choices i've made... 1st time after psle... 2nd time after o lvls... and now, after my "A"s... and i think, i nv regret... i lik the ppl i met, my bros and bytches and comrades in juying, my multinational class and fellow leaders in jj, my super enthu and funny og mates in uni... despite the fact that, ya, i know i could have gone to better schs, got better grades for my "o"s and "a"s, i'm not regrettin anything...

i'm lucky to have what i want now... though i'm lik, knowing that ntu's reputation for student union foc(not CAC foc, which i attended!) is not good, complaining abt the Alpha Tango teachers not knowin how to teach(not all though, some are good =D), calculus killin me and all, but i'm enjoyin it... enjoyin studyin maths, my life in uni, with the ppl i enjoy mixing with, pt, cheryl, my og mates, yanting and company, shiyun n company, blah blah...

AND SPECIAL THANKS TO PT... i wonder if she's readin the blog, but well... she's always looking out for me, who's constantly late, blur, injured by my shoes, nv check stuff and forgot to bring notes LOL... jus lik a mama!!! though in terms of size... HAHA... damn lucky to have her as a coursemate, anything i need, i have her!

AND XUANQI, who offered to call me every morning! and the one who will motivate me to mug!

AND my lunch khakis, namely the COT, pt, cheryl~

AND my mugging OG friends, namely xuan qi(again) yingling(my les partner) noelle samuel HAHA

enjoying all the company =D

just lik how i've enjoyed myself in sec sch and jc, though both of them are the ultra type of neighbourhood sch, esp for juying

and i'm glad to have met all the ppl i did, all my friends now =D

will be workin very hard, for wat i want in the end... this sem is gonna be a busy one... jiayou girl! haha... 21 AUs! =D

ok wanted to slp at 1...now is 1.19 ler! so cya!

2009-08-13T02:48:00.001+08:00

I WANNA PHOTO BLOG ABT:
CAC Camp! (27th - 31st Jul)
Gardensia! (1st Aug)
Freshmen Welcome Tea (6th Aug)
Mahjong with Holden! (7th Aug)
Chomp Chomp with Bytches! (7th Aug)
Kbox + pool with shang and company! (8th Aug)
National Day Celebration with Sec Sch Mates! (9th Aug)
Topone with Camwhore-den! (10th Aug)

but sadly, my com is not in a good mood these 2 weeks... and it's piling up

started on the post though, will post little by little =D

hope to get my laptop soon

and being a student rocks! esp after comin out to work~ and i wanna do well, no matter wat... and i hope that the friendship forged during the camp stays strong! i love the holdens!~ and i dun wanna drift too much apart frm all the other friends!!! time to learn how to manage time well between friends, studies, cca, and tuition... i shld nt waste my uni life away, lik wat i did for my J1... jiayou girl!!!

but now thr's one freakin prob: why are thr so limited spaces for the electives?!? ARGH!!! and my com is not helpin by being non-switched-on-able most of the tyms!!! ARGH!!! jus hope i can get into the electives so that i can clear my GER and UE b4 the final yr!!!

and to my poly friends, esp bytches, whose exams are comin... jiayou arghs!!! =D=D=D

2009-07-26T01:59:00.002+08:00

Woo back!

sun went cut hair with michie and ky before goin to tutor jolynn... wah the boss sibei pms, scoldin her employee for her own mistake =S... and the hairdresser chopped off quite a bit of ky's hair =S mich de fringe nv cut properly... generally tt day both of them weren't very satisfied with the results of the hair cut... neutral for me, though my rebond parts are mainly cut off liao =S... after tt makan with ky, den go tuition, AND REALISED I NV RETURN KY'S PURSE... went over to pass it to her after the tuition at 9PM, watch one ep of kang xi before goin home LOL...

mon went out with shangzhi and chinsoon just to hang out... makaned den played pool, yw join us shortly after... went on to the bball court and watched them play... didn't wanna go initially cos didn't think that they were very good(those i know anyway, mainly yw and john =x) except shang and chinsoon, but went in the end since i was supposed to be the bait to get yw to go =X

so went, and to my surprise yw and john improved alot! esp john, as compared to when i saw him play in sch LOL... i tink i didn't stay on for more than 10mins to watch the matches he played with his classmates+shangzhi+aaron, nth exciting =X the only 2 ppl who were really playing were aaron and shangzhi, who weren't in his class =X not bad la, enjoyed most of the matches except the one they played with some kids and the one-on-one between yw and this guy call alvin... good thing is that when they play with the kids they were respectful enough to the kids and nv put water... aftertt makaned, arcade, slack at starbucks, den home

tue? HAHA stayed at home and play puzzle =X... recently hooked on some new puzzles, make me lost interest in sudoku =X... esp this puzzle call kakuro~ lol more interestin den sudoku lor, and my companion when i have no place to go HAHA

wed went to makan sakae with THAT!!! me, my nu er vivien, yensze, eeseng, zhiwei, jinhwee... lol very long nv see them ler!!! nice to hear them talk abt their preparation for "A"s and the interesting stuff in sch!!! and i realised they also lik lu guang zhong's songs!!! yensae intro-ed me a grp called the super juniors, which is not bad too LOL... really glad to have the chance to meet them before uni start... and lookin forward to kbox session! haha i tink this one will be better, cos all not shy to ask for mike lol... and of cos, i got to makan a lot of the stuff i miss! lik the salmon skin, lots of ugani and CHARWANMUSHI!!! and the new stuff, THE UGANI CHARWANMUSHI AND THE STRAWBERRY MELTS WAS NICE!!! HAHA... i tink i makan a lot of ugani in diff form tt day =X fats, but, who cares? =X really hope that they will do well for their "A" lvls, and go into the course they wan, esp vivien, she's workin so hard! after the meal she was lik, "omg A lvls is comin and i'm here eatin sakae"... haiz kind of a typical blss 1st class student, just lik grace and khiam =S... no wonder juying sec is worse than boonlay sec

thurs left hse early to collect my pay at bukit timah LOL~ HAHA aftertt supposed to meet up with shang, who lost his phone and can only contact me with his hse phone, to watch obbessed... and i told him to meet at the ATM machine thr... i reached thr, waited for 1/2 hr, thinkin where was that stupid idiot, walked out of my waitin place and saw him bai pose in the station... apparently he, who just woke up when he called me, heard wrongly, tot i say wait near the TICKETING machine =S... nice -.-... haha and the next turnoff for the day: obbessed was not in the theatres anymore-.- nvm since we were both hungry (all that while during the 1/2 hr we were waiting for each other), went to makan pizza hut 1st, tried some of their new dishes... most were not bad... and den went down to bukit batok csc to play bowling and pool... we played two sessions of bowling... LOL he's pro lor, still tell me wat he very long nv play ler... -.- and aftertt to wait for chinsoon, we played a 3rd round-.- thks to that i suffered from muscle ache the nxt day-.- played pool, after chinsoon joined us, and left shortly after... them to meet their friend, me to meet michelle in lib HAHA... makaned prata!!! chit chat, slack, den slowly walk up to tutor jolynn... while mich and miao jing was tryin on some of the clothes... stayed on after the tut and talk, bu zhi bu jue chatted till abt 10 den went off~

fri went to jp to get some stuff for camp... left with yw who went thr to meet ben... went up to my shop too! but the renov didn't turn out as nice as i tot =S... but still, quite nice LOL... didn't managed to buy all the stuff i wanted... went down to 903 aftertt to watch the guys play bball~ normal game, got cy cs yw ranald chenglong jixiang joey and one guy whom i forgot the name =x, den after tt ppl start playin soccer-_- and we went to 948... DAMN CROWDED... and the ppl thr DAMN PRO... i tink even ceyu and chenglong also not very near their standard lor!!! they realli play damn serious sia, with the speed, the roughness, and not to mention the accuracy... even the girls too lor! so even with our best players ceyu chenglong chunsern jixiang (joey left early) also a bit cmi... haha but still they put up a good fight... saw khaim as we were on our way to makan... actually i was practically the only one who wanted to makan =x the rest drink water or pei me eat lol... so makaned, den home~~

today went out to get the rest of the stuff for camp... wah kao it's during such process when i hope i'm a guy... cos we supposed to buy something for a guy we'll only get to know during the camp for a budget of abt 10 bucks-_- and u know for guys... WHAT CAN I GET?!? whereas buyin for a girl so easy, soft toy/ accessories/ choc can settle... haha in the end bought a keychain watch... hope presentable enough =x... yw joined me and bought a present too =x... damn nice can! i know him so long nv buy something liddat for me b4 leh!!! =x ok i exaggerate a bit =x... anyway aftertt we went down find the guys... this time got the same ppl as ytd, + shangzhi kengsiang khiam and one team nanyang guy and minus ranald... the addition of 2 pros certainly makes the games nicer to watch... lights off, home

lookin forward to the camp!!! 5 days startin frm mon... and i very glad when i realised i LNG on fri (it's very ok if u dun understand, most ppl are not supposed to) cos tt means wun clash too much =x hope it'll be fun, and i'm glad i'm lik, in the same grp as shiyun!!! haha got ppl pei!!!

and lookin forward to uni life!!!

and watchin the guys play makes me wanna be good at bball too!!! looks damn fun lar! but only when u're good at it =s

cya!!! most likely after the camp =D

2009-07-19T02:10:00.000+08:00

today is a meaningful day for me =D

earlier in the morn set off to send my cousin and nephew off at the airport... they had gone over to malaysia last sun to stay with my aunt for the week before they go back to US...

see that tall guy amongst us? that's my 14-year-old nephew HAHA

afterthat met the bytches and jh at amk hub to watch harry potter! walked to some coffeeshop to makan at astons (me excluded) before heading to amk hub for the movie~ i think, it was kinda expected for me that the show wun be extremely fantastic, esp since i've read the book and i'll tend to compare, but i still cant help feeling disappointed... i mean, is there a need to put in so much time for all the lovey-dovey scenes? it's lik for a movie like harry potter, isn't the action much more impt? + it's ok if the lovey-dovey scenes are, ok, touch and go, BUT some of those scenes are rather draggy in my opinion =S ok nvm i tink i'm losing the girl side of me which shld prefer seeing such scenes =X

aftertt i tink we spent quite a long time in minitoons playing ard with all the stuff thr before heading back... jh me n van went to ky hse for dinner HAHA... had a super long chat which really made me clear up most of the clouds that had been over me almost the whole of last week~ and had a great time laughing away at certain stuff LOL

i guess i should say no one was really at fault, character dun click thr's nth much we can do also... ya i admit, i do enjoy the company, cos they're really a funny grp of ppl, but we wun be able to move further than the hang out friends barrier ba, and that doesn't matter to me... cause now i know i still have friends who really care =D just that maybe in the future may have lesser chance to hang out with vanee they all also le ba? things a bit odd ar LOL

i tink i was really too free the past week lar, plus all the sutff that happened at work and all, tt's y think so much, which made my insecurities even worse, to the extend that i think i'll lose the ppl i care abt... i hope that is really because i going LNG soon, hopefully next week, cos if not, that means i'm really just a brainless person... and plus my camp is the week after next LOL

anyway to my friends... i know that i'm a person who's not totally interesting, more of a listener den a speaker... and i really can be kinda brainless at times, and i dun often initiate conversations with people, except when i really super super free or notice something's wrong... doesn't mean i dun care, just that i really dunno what i can talk about, and that i know u guys might be busy too... i can be shoot ppl, but when i do that i'm treating you as a friend, i mean i wun do that to some random people la... when i'm brainless and i get overboard, dun hesitate to tell me, will try to restrain HAHA.... and after all the stuff, i tink i know who are the people i can really rely on as friends to give me the moral support i need, who love me as me, the loud and noisy girl HAHA... sure got buey song here and there but we managed to make up for the differences... and i'm really glad i still have them, not only my bytches, but also my brothers and all those who cared and was there with me when i'm down and when i need someone to cry to HAHA... these are all that i need to pull me through the darkest time when i'm losing the strength to carry on walking... and in turn support the others who needs me... so, just wanna say THANKS TO ALL MY FRIENDS, FOR BEING MY FRIENDS.

sounds kinda like a tribute HAHA... nono i'll not writing a sucide letter of any sort, just a little bit of my sentiments which i find hard to express face to face LOL... ppl will shy nia!~ haha so ya...

and if any of u need ears, i got 2 big ones here =D

lookin forward to uni =D studying is good cos when my friends are not free, but i am, i can take the time to study and revise instead of rotting and not knowing what i can do LOL~

lookin forward to the camp too! hope it'll be fun =D just wondering what to get for SP gift... any ideas what will a guy expect to get from a girl (both totally dunno each other AT ALL) which is within $10? =s

glad =D

2009-07-17T01:38:00.002+08:00

OK i know this is an ultra outdated post.

Vanee's birthday!

ok celebrated with bytches on 4th jul. before that went topone with my pri sch mates, more fun den i expected, left early to meet the girls at ky's hse~ shall upload the topone pics after i've gotten them from xin yi.

went down to the central with ky to buy cake, all the while hopin wun bump into vanee, den whoosh~ majiam magic we saw her at the lift =.= make our way to the market in pretence to buy fish~ which we did left out... and both of us damn pro nv bring phone-_- wanted to lure her into ky's room and we plan super long outside her hse so she wun realised that ky was holding on to the cake... HENG they were alr playin mj in her room!

THEN IT WAS STEAMBOAT TIME!!!

wun post all the pics... we took abt 100 pics that day lor! broke the record~ credits to mich's cam and our camwhore~

ivy and mich being siao~

we need 3 girls to use the extension wire =s

YUM SENG~
purple nails: mich
hot pink nails: vanee

=D

with the birthday girl!

HAHA she looks mother-like here xD

vanee with retard

opps i ZG him =x

one of the rare pics with this bytch!

was mahjong-ing happily, me ky ps and vanee, den sudd vanee was lik, "yea cake lai liao" or sth liddat. 3 of us stun. i didn't even know they were preping cake ler lor! cos usually stuff liddat is ky n i settle de~ den super funny cos aftertt they took that long that we continue playin for a while before it really comes. and by then everyone know for sure the cake is coming liao =s.

our super non-di-gong birthday girl

when ivy and i was trying to adjust the camera LOL

xiao zhu fei bu fei? only 3 of them answered =x

SHERBIC!!! HAHA melon flavour de, nice! though not totally frozen =s

lol super unglam pic cos the sherbic was freaking cold!

opening her present!

DEN~ time to take photos!!!

our usual 1 - 7!

and reversed! same for me though =D

afterthat i tink mich suggest to take model-like photos... and we took damn long to discuss about our pose! and they were trying to reference with my top-_-

So, after much discussion,

Model Shot 1:

Model Shot 2:

Model Shot 3:

and we agree that none of them are very nice =x

WE LOVE THIS PIC BEST! Cuddle together!!! =D

Class photo shot~

Candid~

=D

Nobody Shot!

HAHA more photos sessions leh! =D

Sun celebrated her birthday with the package~ heng i decided to wear dress, they really wear too very formal-_-

the super blur grp photo excluding aaron

with the birthday girl. super lik ghost sia, so white =s

four of us and alex

after kbox we walked to suntec to makan... burger king LOL... due to budget and the need to make sure the guys can really fill their stomach LOL... wanted to eat duck rice but apparently the guys ate it for lunch while waiting for us =x... after dinner the guys went for some games exhibition or sth liddat... and the guys started playing street fighter... pretty fun to watch them trash each other and being trashed by an uncle =x helped yy choose present, den home =D

anyway my cousin and nephew came over last wed and stayed in my hse... kinda weird at first, cos it's been years since i've last seen them. but they were pretty nice to get along with. and my nephew is a 180cm tall guy, who is 14 years old =s

so on sun we had family lunch, with most of my relatives coming over to my super non-guest friendly house owing to the fact that we rarely held such functions in our hse and there weren't really even space at the table... so the lunch became something like a buffet~ i think the most interesting part about the gathering was that, one of my niece (P6) brought her maths homework, which cause me and a few of my other cousins (uni students, uni graduates, jc students) to engage in long and brain-draining discussion. not because we dunno how to solve the question, BUT because we dunno how to do it with a P6 method which my niece understands. still it was an interesting experience, afterall, i've nv seen so much teamwork amongst us as cousins.

Family photo =D :

FYI: we were still discussing about it as we was taking the pics. we'll be at it as another cousin of mine switch to the next camera, and smiles when the timer reaches the last few seconds.
BTW: my 180cm tall nephew was sitting down, the brown shirt guy in the 2nd row.

and with a lot of delays, i finally made it to city hall to meet the class, 1hr plus after the meeting time =s cabbed down~

was glad i rushed there, if not i wuld most likely have missed her. and as always she looks good, and i think she'll do well, wherever she is. all the best for her =D stay in contact =D

met emer at bugis lib to help him with phy, for a really short duration as we both had sth on at nite.... and i had to change to tuition timing to an hour later =s that day was really quite a corked up day for me, rushing everywhere and getting things undone =s... but heng i managed to complete all the things i wanted to do and meet everyone i want to meet~

Oh ya watched transformers with package they all too, as usual went into the cinema late-_-... heng i saw kiatyee as i wait for them if not really solo till they come... anyway nice show =D weren't draggy at all, felt that it was actually shorter den 2.5 hrs... but ppl who watched the 1st movie said it weren't as nice~ nvm, i enjoyed it =D

in a distant mood as i blog.

2009-07-13T00:00:00.002+08:00

deleted a part of my previous post. realised it was really a big misunderstanding. not that i'm totally ok about it le, but still, i know he was just as usual.

managed to sleep better after recieving the call at 6.30. went to slp at abt 4 and kept wakin up on and off, till that call. seems trivial to him but to me, all my insecurities about the friendship was dispersed =D

anyway, today was really an extremely corked up day. shall update more ltr

2009-07-12T03:08:00.001+08:00

wanted to blog abt vanee's birthday, but no mood now.

feeling very insecure about everything nowadays, like i cannot hold on to anything, lik i'm being misunderstood, lik i'm being stabbed in the back

why is this feeling coming back to haunt me again? i tot i'm over it? why am i feelin this way when everything seems to be ok already? is it that i'm oversensitive? or that's really the case?

perhaps it's due to what the girl in the shop nxt to me had done. backstabbed us when we least expected it. and i tot she was real nice.

and the recent emotions about the past. why are they floodin back again and again?

*deleted*

I MAY BE JUST OVERSENSITIVE. I HOPE SO.

sick of these backstabs. of being misunderstood. of everything.

2009-07-01T00:32:00.000+08:00

all i can say is, i'm tired... sales is really something that is completely out of my league... not that my taste is bad or wat, but my style is so diff frm my shop, and i cnt really open up to the customers... and i sucks at convincin ppl that they look nice in sth when i think they dun =x... no more sales job for me, ever, after this

2009-06-27T02:29:00.000+08:00

wed... felt very seh halfway during work... and think, sales is really not my type of job... but nvm lar, since i'm in it, i might as well make the best out of it and learn as much as i can... and hope it wun happen again ba... really very grateful towards dickee's mum nia, great help =D

thurs went lib after tut to meet up with vanee chingwe aaron jh... primary purpose is to help cw and aaron with their work, but both of them damn late-.- anyway aaron dun need my help, and chingwe is erm, ya he need but not very focused when he study with other ppl leh~ lol anyway stayed ard and went home and got changed to meet my classmates at chinatown... didn't wanna just go in my class tee ma... and my phone died on my way thr-.- i super seh can? heng i got my charger with me and the chinatown station got power points... had to charge my phone at the station, so paiseh sia, if not i wun even be able to find them... and when i reached there i realised weeleong was wearin class tee too-.- best, shld have just worn the class tee den i wuldn't have to worry abt meetin up with them lor... but nice dinner lar, cc angela zf and sr was thr too =D

today went vanee house to settle some uni stuff AGAIN-.- collected my a lvls cert, den met ky go her auntie hse... her auntie very friendly! told us a lot about meteor garden de story! make me very gian to read the comics la! though dun tink i'll have the time T.T... settle my uni stuff and read my book while waitin, den we went shoppin! haha walked a bit ard the shops in yew tee, and bought a new bag! my one gettin quite rotten, and i saw a nice one at $15, quality not bad either, so why not =D i rarely spend anyway =D... ky got herself a very chio dress(just the bottom that kind, lik a long skirt, maxi dress type) and nice wedges...

travelled down to bugis to meet jq, who went to make passport at lavender... jq wanna look for new clothes as well... walked abt, got a top for myself =D tried noodles house for dinner after ky's recommendation, and it was not bad! =walked abt the new mall (nothing much) and bugis junction after dinner too, till we quite forget the time =x junqiang had to meet his sis nia-.- heng his sis late, he can even send ky home before he go and meet her LOL...

anw was reading his blog on all the entries after that day... and i tink i can understand how he must be feelin now... and sudd all the memories of my own experience came flooding back as i read abt his feelings day by day... knowing that u have to accept the fact, yet not wanting to, and the need to get used to the lost of sth u've gotten used to... the inevitable sense of despair of following what you know should be the correct way... and i'm sure that he must be feeling it 10 times the way i've felt it... and reading it there gave me a weird combination of new insights and uncertainties... nevertheless, nevertheless... jus hope that he'll be ok

super packed from sun onwards =D

and RIP to one of our greatest pop idol

here's my fav song frm him... not like i've heard a lot of his songs, but this song caught my attention the moment i heard it... nizam liked his songs alot and often plays them in the prefects' room lol... quite long since i've last heard it too

You Are Not Alone - Michael Jackson

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says

That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
You are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
You are not alone

All alone
Why, oh

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
So forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Then something whispers in my ear and says

That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
And you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
You are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone

2009-06-23T22:07:00.000+08:00

ytd met up with kor to get danny's bday present which i've promised after tuition... went down to amk hub aftertt for pool with vanee jq alex les... lol towards the end better, nv tio trashed till very jialat =x dinner, den home... today met vanee n cs at lib and spent the time playing games on van's new phone... met jh aftertt to go vanee hse settle some application stuff... KAO i see the forms see till i blur lor, dunno whether i've filled in the correct stuff bo-_-... wrong den gg ler -_-

was tellin ky and van... i keep on hallucinating that i've gotten out of tt freaking hole nia, but why the slightest thing can prove me wrong again and again? i wanna get out of it into the big world again, where thr'll be a suitable place for me that i can stay in forever, and still see myself and the rest of the world...

wanna watch boys over flowers and play dragonica =D though i doubt my com...

2009-06-22T00:26:00.001+08:00

my com's finally back in motion again. for now.

Happy Belated Birthday to Claudia CWC! =D

tue when shoppin with the girls! claud n ivy met up with us during lunch while ky went for piano, and went for swensons 1-for-1! in the end it was kinda late by the time we met up with ky cos the service was damn slow=s... shopped ard far east, didn't really get anything i liked thr except for a necklace... vanee weren't feelin well too... came back to jp to collect the items mich and i reserved at fox, had dinner den went home ler~ thurs went ky hse to help her bro with his maths and settle my uni stuff... haha ky and i spent quite a bit of the time chattin though, esp since i reach thr kinda early and her bro weren't back yet...

fri camped at vanee hse to watch boys over flowers!!! OMG DAMN NICE, the guys shuai, girls chio, scenery breathtaking... omg lar... though kinda draggy at certain parts =x gujunbyo yoonjihu n soyijeong damn shuai =x (exclude songwoobin =x)... HAHA seriously think this drama is evergreen de la, though watched the taiwan version twice le, still not bored by the storyline... seriously enjoyed indulging in the drama during that time when we were watching, but we had to leave for dinner and goes back to reality... whr such guys dun exist =x den i got an sms which didn't help my mood very much... but still enjoyed the dinner la

SAT... CELEBRATED CLAUD'S BIRTHDAY!!! met up early with vanee, along the way alot of miscommunication =s... den met the rest of the bytches too! headed down to novena for steamboat, zhen fa huo hai xian, which cost us $24+ per person, and totally worth it! it's now air-conditioned and u get free flow drinks, NICE desserts, CHOC FONDUE, good sushi, vast variety of well-marinated food, AND! ppl to cook the tenpanyaki and bbq food (so we dun have to put up with splattering oil as well as burnt meat due to our own unprofessionalism and absent-mindedness when we're too engrossed in our gossips to care abt the food =x)...

SO!!! very worth it! and u know us girls, belly de storage not very big nia, quality is wat make such meal worth the money to us, and we think it was good... esp since the company was good as well, with a nice environment to gossip, so the money was very well-spent indeed!!! and thr's these episode when we didn't really dare to put the live prawns into the soup cos we were very scared that they will splash out... and we asked (a really cute) waiter to help us... think we created quite a scene, screamin a little while he pours the prawns into the soup... and think he also abit seh at our reaction, saw him um chio -.-

too bad we didn't take much pics that day, i dun rmb takin one with our bday girl nia... and sth happened to one of us, quite worried so mood a bit down... anyway went velocity, den sit the red line come back jp~ haha we see the seats immediately chiong, left the poor claud with our bags =x crap crap crap, den went home...

today was a kinda boring day... bumped into edwin at kfc after his swimmin session and he joined me for a meal... chat alot, had some fun catching up and went to collect my puffs (for dad's day de)... glad to hear that he's doin well and all lar haha =D

this week was a kinda emotional week for me... got to know abt some stuff that happened, thought a lot, and realise that... everything is so fragile... thr was a SHORT period of time when i came to resent a certain grp of ppl too, whom i felt played a great part in all these stuff that happened to _ in the last few months, and yet knowing i shldn't feel that way about them because i know they're indeed very nice ppl whom not only didn't mean for all these, but also wished all these didn't happened... and they're, i'm sure, unconcious of the roles they've played in all these... it's just that i'm perhaps overly concerned abt _ and i see the consequences of their actions clearer frm the other side... but no lar, not feeling that way anymore, and they're not leadin a fantastic life now too... and i hope that not only _ , but they too will find the path for them... all the best to everyone =)

sat down and mulled over a little about her too... things frm her perspective, and knowing that kinda feeling... i guess i can understand her better now that i wont ever get the chance to already... she's that extreme a character cos no one told her how she shld be... lik wat *** say, she could've been a very good friend if she's still here... she is a person who choose the sides she takes, and if u happen to be on the bad side, u suffer... if she betrays u, it's because she wanna help another friend she choose to side with, the friend whom she thinks is right... such a person is a nice friend, rite? or am i still too naive? haha not that it matters anymore... i haven even seen her for years...

and one leads to another... i think i was being extreme too, to them

anyway abt the swine flu... yea not deadly, but it is still sth that people shld be worried abt... because when it comes to the day that everyone have a possibility of contracting the disease while walkin on the streets, things could get out of hand for everyone... so? try to be careful ba...

and i'm kinda emo cos now that i'm finally free, my friend's are goin to have exams and they're busy studyin T.T

LIFE

2009-06-16T02:53:00.001+08:00

Ok, apparently my com had been down for lik dunno how many donkey days-_-

sun (7th) joined the girls for prata sessions again~ hang ard till abt 2 b4 leavin with claud for my freaking long 4 hrs tuition... and i only managed to get a short half-page journal entry done with him, and i'm the one doin most of it... sian... i culd have spent the time on my slp

last thurs was tuition marathon... from 9am all the way till 5pm, with ONLY TRAVELLING TIME in between... my cousin cooked some food for me though, and her husband drove me to the mrt station, which was why my lunch was not jus bread... had dinner with roy after the tuition and did a bit of shoppin, buying more of necessity... if not i wun even have time to get those stuff-_- walked ard the whole jp but couldn't find shorts that really suits me T.T... shall try my luck tml =D helped bj out in the shop a little, ordered satay, got home at abt 10

and fri woke early for tuition before work... which was all the way till ten, den went ky hse help to marinate food... reach home abt 11.30 - 12 ler

SAT... woke up super early for my 1st tuition at 8AM so that i got time for 2 tuitions and still spend enough time with my pri sch mates... and yet my 2nd student pangseh me-_- made me damn emo lar, if not culd have slp till quite late... heng i haven take the 2nd bus down to bukit timah yet-_- helped bj and check prices, went up to vanee hse a little, and met up with the 6I peeps. xingyi was the sole organiser!!! pro!

ppl who turned up:
xingyi
pohsin
mindy
cindy
celestine
kengsiang
yuyong
yongkhiam
kokmeng
shunyong
xiangyang
weiqiang
qingyong

apparently more ppl could make it at night for pitstop, lik singyee and jiarong... so actually missed seeing quite a lot of them... went for buffet at nihon mura at jurong west sports complex... which is so fang bian for most of us (except pohsin, who moved to lakeside) seriously had fun lar! chit chatting and catching up with each other... didn't really eat alot, but think got the money back ba, and the time was worth it... after the buffet decided to walk them to the pioneer mrt station, a bit bu she de to leave nia, so pei them walk before headin to central to collect satay...

waiting for xing yi and poh sin to upload the pics!!! =D

after collectin the satay, walked down to art park for the bbq to celebrate alex n kiatyee's bday, to save money + burn a little bit of fats... was damn scare it will suddenly rain lor, the sky was seriously... but heng in the end nv =D... ky and the guys came back after a while, and the guys spent infinite time dicussing about wat to do with the wire gauze and stuff... which i tot was rather ridiculous and they ended up with quite a simple solution... by the time we START COOKIN it's abt 7.30 - 8 ler =s... ok lar, not that they're not good, just that they consider a lot for one single problem -_- realised dun really trust them abt bbq stuff nia, too used to andrew edwin leslie dickson starting the fire and all le, the moment not them doin it very bu xi guan... but is i worry too much LOL... den ching we started showing us some magic tricks... damm pro! he actually tot of it himself! very li hai cos we all kena tricked! best HAHA...

collected the cake, but due to the stupid wind cnt light the candles -_-... end up we gave up and decided to just go thr, no surprise all tt lol... but think the guys dun mind anyway, so still ok... den vanee they all went up to mich hse and i stayed cos i was feelin lazy... which i regretted cos after tt the rest all come back which made me feel very gang ga and left out... den brought darryl up to mich hse for toilet cos he a bit erm, in a hurry LOL... which was good cos got to stay with them to chat and say hi to dickee HAHA...

and somewhr along the way they decided to ton-_- at alex hse-_- and i got work the nxt day-_- but didn't mind cos wun have much time for me to play + i know i'll be very free the whole of this week to slp! CHIONG to ky hse grab clothes... AND FOR THE FIRST TIME OF MY FREAKING LIFE, I DID NOT KENA MIAM WHEN I CALL TO TELL MY PARENTS I"M TONNING!!! WOO! made me damn high haha... all made it for the last train (jiahao kiatyee yiyang nv ton)... ton mahjong... 1st round paired with chingwe, lost $4... 2nd round jq joined us, lost $6 -_-... all of us that day really damn no luck lor, but alex and aaron's luck sibei good sia... caught abt 2hrs of slp at 6 after being awake for 22 hrs straight... heng aaron have extra contact lens case if not i sure blind... aftertt go mac makan breakfast, den chiong home, work-_- till ten plus cos one of the customers left damn late-_-

so practically my "wake and sleep" table for the few days:
thurs - sleep at 1am den wake at 8
fri - sleep at 2 am den wake at 8
sat - sleep at 2 am den wake at 8
sun - sleep at 6AM den wake at 8AM
mon - sleep at 12+am till 1+pm =x (didn't wait for hair to dry =x)

so imagine sun... practically is =s the whole day lor

today met up with vanee n ky for dinner after my tuition~ went up to vanee hse and chat till very hua hee LOL... lookin forward to shopping!!!

and think going midnite kbox on 4th jul with xingyi and girls! =D

2009-06-04T18:11:00.001+08:00

woo~ currently at np, supposed to help emer with his work, bt he seems quite smart nia, a bit of promptin can do ler

so here i am to eat time =D

last sun met the girls for prata in the lib! SUPER MISS THE FEELIN CAN? haha used to camp thr everyday and makan the prata with them so frequently...

AND TO MY BYTCHES (AND ALL POLY FRIENDS), JIAYOU AND GOOD LUCK FOR UR EXAMS!!! =D

afterthat tutored again-_- before meetin emer at lib to help him with phy~ he used to take bio, which have little relevance with his course =x wahaha take simi bio, see la? no use now =x aftertt watch angels and demons =D lik finally can? we both always not free de =x HAHA ok lar, the artifacts and landmarks was nice, the main twist of the story remains, BUT the underlying reasons for the mistakes committed, secrets of his real identity, was not reveal during the movie... and those was best parts of the plot. i still find it nice cos i got to see the statues and all, but for those who nv read the book, though it was still nice to them cos the twist was good, the plot and the schemes won't have the breathtaking effect for them as the book had for me.

Interruption:
OMG emer just BITE off the top part METAL drink can:

got one whole stretch the edge is very nice somemore. his mum(me) dun have to buy a can opener ler =S

and this photo shows how convenient it is for laptops to have bluetooth... ease of transfer for all types of files!

ok whr was i? yea sun... ya reached home at 12+... the movie started at 9-_- i see the time i got seh but both of us wait for very long ler... den next day got work-_- tue also, and wed had to wake at 8 to tutor jolynn, and report for work aftertt... tuition went well, better den i expected... but very tired T.T... so today, overslept, woke at 8.30... supposed to wake at 7 =x... cabbed down to BUKIT TIMAH for my tuition and reached at 9.30, half an hr ltr =x... met ky for lunch at np! since gonna go thr help emer with his work anyway wahaha... food was nice!!! desserts too!!! and chat till very hua hee, frm 12+ i reach we makan and chat till lik 2.30 den i go find him =x

ANYWAY NO MORE TUITION STUDENTS FOR ME FOR NOW. pls take note, no more intro ty... zhaohui will be the last student i accept, cos i forgot i also promised my cousin to help my niece and nephew with their maths. SO NOW I HAVE LIK, 6 students whom i need to help, EXCLUDING EMER, and + my salegirl job... which is currently lik, 5 days per week... so ya =D

i'm hopin kerine wun need me so often for the mth ahead, since min n bj will be havin their hols for 3 weeks and maybe another weeks' break for the shop's renov...

and with regards to the sch's use of foreign talent... i tink that, it is inevitable for ppl to find faults with it... ppl ARE narrow-minded, and will find faults with others 1st for their failure... tt's lik, human nature? admit was kinda angry when i read their comments saying that we are unfair and classifying the players as foreigners instead of students... afterall, more den half of my classmates and my og members are foreigners and i happen to be quite close with some of them... but now, our forum is filled with criticism abt these ppl frm that other jc... quite sick of some of comments frm our side, they only criticise without being reasonable... we're lik, scooping to their level...

and no use askin The New Paper to apologise... they can push the blame away cos the comments were taken frm the interviews frm students of the other jcs, although they will nv admit that they decided to focus on the views against us. just post another seperate one for them to see it from our point of view... though i'm quite worried that the person will not be able to write in a neutral stand... nvm, see how...

gtg, hopefully tonight can online =D

2009-05-31T01:46:00.001+08:00

wah kao... felt damn pek chek just now lor... supposed to meet ivy and guys after work... den customers keep coming in... end up not only didn't managed to get a glismpe of them, my mum was... suan le... heng those customers got buy, just nice hit sales target... and that managed to salvage the total sales for the month by quite a bit ba...

and i was looking forward to it... been damn high abt it since friday when ivy sms me to confirm abt it...

and i cannot blame kerine and girls, cos all of them have valid and important reasons... they all also didn't expect me to have to stay till so late... and i cannot even blame the customers cos they had no idea who i was supposed to meet and that it's been long since the last meet up...

but nvm lar, i'm sure that wun be the end of the meet up... and also glad that at least today's sales shld've let kerine relax for a bit... after one whole month of bad sales, today was quite a saviour... shld at least be able to cover the rent, our pay, and the cost price ba??? that's if tml's sales will be good as well, which i'm quite sure will be the case

anyway feelin much better now... mich took my "how well do you know me?" quiz and she scored 80%! i see ler i also stun, but immediately got instant highness sia!~ and immediately felt better =D

but i still wish that after this week, all my saturdays will be available T.T... i dun have much time left to play and meet up ler T.T...

no cork up tml, please T.T

2009-05-30T01:41:00.002+08:00

LOL CURRENTLY DAMN HIGH, LOOKIN FORWARD TO BBQ TML (though i'll only join them at abt 10.30 T.T)

ytd went to meet vanee at amk! initially wanted to meet at yck 1st, but i tot she haven release and went to check out the circle line in bishan mrt... the link between green and red line still under construction-_-... HAHA makan pepper lunch den aftertt jh and darryl came to join us... at 1st i scare will odd lor, nv talk to him b4 nia, + vanee also nt close with him initially de... HAHA but aftertt ok leh, mainly cos of the interestin content in a phone he found and its interesting owner WAHAHA =x go amk always meet this kinda weird but entertainin ppl de-_-...

pool... played with darryl 1st-_- heng is he got talk de, + that day i high enough to talk, if not really is damn weird =S... maybe cos usually when the rest of them are thr they'll the ones talkin... and i tyco win him the 1st round =x den aftertt change table and players, den tagteam... play till 4+, den junqiang came jus as we leavin, a bit unexpectedly cos we tot he cnt make it... so nvm, continue a while (darryl n jq), in the end by the tym we wanna leave abt 5+ ler... initially wanted to go ky hse, but didn't cos by the tym reach 7+ liao... end up wait for kiatyee go makan dinner, and pooled till abt 6.40-_- makaned, went ntuc, den go home...

anyway was damn high that day, cos didn't have to go to work... i tink startin vanee a bit overwhelmed by my "high"ness

and i hope i didn't have to work tml T.T if only my schedule remains the same lor! T.T

anyway had a good time catchin up with grace ytd too! we actually chat over the phone for lik 2.5hrs... yea, let's meet up soon =D

2009-05-28T01:53:00.001+08:00

finally back~

TML'S BREAK!!!

last wed adjusted timin for tuition! met up with vanee... makan-ed at nyp! went lib too cos vanee wanna find info, den we met cs yw yy cc for zhi char to celebrate my bro's bday lol... =S they damn late can? haha at 1st scared will awkward, but end up ok nia!

Pics:

LOL we see the guy we got seh-.- esp vanee lol, turn her head see the boy de face dere~ i was sibei amused by it =x

the cake vanee and i jing tiao xi xuan for cs

lol rare, 2 of us takin pic tgt

aftertt boys go BBall, me and vanee met ky for 2nd round... LOL only she ate lar... chat chat chat till very song =D, met hongfa(to chat also =x) after they went home

sat had tuitions =S den met jh at amk for dinner... at 1st damn sian cos tio ps LOL... but after knowin the reason den ok ler... + got 3 entertainin ppl we met in mac, so end up aftertt the whole day i very high LOL... lol lazy to elaborate abt them, 2 aunties and one boy... just know that dun use ur bag to chop seats in amk mac HAHA =x

den met up with the rest (vanee ky package brothers) and bought the movie ticks... bought the 9.20 one since many was damn late and my class stuff was cancelled... head off to pool... was sibei off form that day and played only 2 rounds... lost to jh and won kiatyee WAHAHA =x but aftertt very sian to play cos each game very long and aimin damn buey zhun so stopped... watched night at the museum after that... nice! but 1st movie better... sat beside chingwee lor, kao at 1st i scared damn odd lor, cos that day 1st day saw him + he come late so nv talk him b4 tt-_- heng he quite chatty, so after a while ok ler... den got this lady in the 1st row, laugh till damn loudly-_- worse den me leh, can u imagine? =S rushed home aftertt, heng got last train

this morn got up damn early to meet my new kid's teacher... wah, my new student (private jc) is gonna be a hard one-_-

and i heard a lot of things happened in sch... haven talked to him after tt day and didn't know how he got thru it... but yt says he seems fine, so see how, drop him a msg tml ba... wanna catch up with grace too and find out how she's doin

BTW! 1st case of swine flu in sg! 22-year-old girl frm smu! situation under control, but ppl pls be alert!

AND! i hope that sales will go up! if not kerine will really explode!

ANW! gotten the acceptance letter frm nus last fri... and that was when i decided i shld go ntu... cos i realised though i'm accepted into the sch of sci ler, my major is not cfm... i'll have to bid for it only after i got in... BUT, cos i'm one of the tio interview de, i'm lik, the last 5% in the whole cohort... literally the last to choose... though i know maths shld one of the most not popular course there, but why take the risk? i'm definitely studyin maths in ntu and if i dun get into maths i'll sure regret... SO! ntu ba! plus only ntu got direct honours for maths and peiting is goin thr too! so at least got someone i know...

and den ky paste me this news abt the follow-up of the stabbin incident just mins after i've accepted the offer... not lik it's gonna change my decision lar, but it's lik, we totally nv talk abt tt b4 and i also haven told her i've accepted the offer... so qiao =S anw it looked lik things weren't as easy as it seems...

and my schedule's becomin unsteady again =S

changed my mind and told her my stand... hope she'll be ok

and her too... weigh and think through 1st ba...

nites

2009-05-20T02:07:00.002+08:00

THERE GOES MY BREAK T.T

ok, my shop's renov may have to put on hold cos of the stupid jp management's decision.... and i tink kerine very stress now also... damn sian, cos i tink she need wait till AUG now... and i was tinkin after renov shld have more cus nia, after the renov the shop will become damn nice lor... and tt also means i wun get to rest T.T... HAIZ... and maybe wun have time go find my bytches in lib T.T... BUT, nth is cfm~ so see how ba~

and i may have to be workin on wed too frm nxt week on... see how kerine arrange the schedule ba T.T... 6 days week T.T... no lar, she'll get the new girl to start work i tink~

haiz i'm beginning to hate uncertainties like this... make it hard for me to plan my stuff, esp tuition.. almost had to change my schedule tml too

last sat after my tuition, went to meet joycelyn, vincent, my sis, my guardian and her husband at swensons~ got a treat by joycelyn after helpin her to look after koko for that weekend she was away~ aftertt went ky hse with vanee n jh for MAHJONG! damn long nv touch the tiles ler can? and damn long nv go her hse leh!!! whr we used to camp almost every other day!!! and damn long nv see them!!! WOO! and i only got tt chance cos i woke at 7.00 to go tutoring lor =s... mon after work, at 10 ten plus-_-, met up with hongfa and gang to celebrate hongfa's birthday which falls on tue... kao abt 12.30 den reach home, told them had to get home by 12-_- danny lar, suggested to go lakeside-_- and being biked by danny is really not a good experience =s... but really got to thank hongfa for the bike rides, if not wun join them that nite too nia, damn tired, heng my mum didn't notice how late i was cos she was aslp =s

tml got to wake up early too... lik 8? even earlier den my usual work day-_-

went abt reading blogs and realised... ppl are growing up, becomin mature, but, after being terribly hurt... by ppl and things they trusted, loved, and believed in...

如果我变成回忆 by Tank is a very nice and meaningful song, ppl who are thinking of sucide shld really listen to this song =x... not only does it tells ppl to treasure their lives for the sake of their loved ones, it also urge ppl who had suffered the pain of losing their loved ones to move on... and to treasure everyone around you, because you nv know when everything is gonna end... btw Tank have this hereditary heart disease or sth, which had cost the lives of some of his loved ones too, and he just underwent an operation cos of it not long ago... listen to the song here... Enjoy =D

如果我变成回忆 - Tank

累了照惯例努力清醒着
也照惯例想你了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在梦中不听话的就停止了

听着呼吸像浪潮摆动着
越美丽越让我忐忑
我还能珍惜什么
如果我连自己的脉搏都难掌握

如果我变成回忆退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己如此狠心
如果我变成回忆终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发
蹒跚牵着你看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以让他陪你
我不怪你

快乐什么时候会结束呢
哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着
可知你是我生命中的最舍不得

如果我变成回忆退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己如此狠心
如果我变成回忆终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发
蹒跚牵着你看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以让他陪你

如果我变成回忆最怕我太不争气
顽固的赖在空气霸占你心里每一寸空隙
要让依然爱我的你痛苦承受失去
这样不公平请你尽力
把我忘记

2009-05-15T01:34:00.001+08:00

I WANT MY SOCIAL LIFE

recently is just work... and when i'm not workin, i'm tutorin... take sun and wed for instance... tuition in the mornin with this QL who didn't complete my work, den rushed down to BUKIT TIMAH to tutor another student, and WENT BACK to tutor QL AGAIN after i gave him the time i was at bukit timah to complete his homework... and this wed... tuition at bukit timah supposed to start at 3.30... i was out of hse at 2, and my student informed me at 2.30 that he had a remedial... and the tuition was change to 6.30~ supposed to meet vanee at nyp, but didn't due to the timing (3.30 to 5.30)... den in the end cnt even join them for dinner since the tuition time changed=S...

anyway, thx hongfa again for sendin me home today =D and thus savin my bus fare =D

and it's been quite a while since i see my bytches... well, except for bumpin into vanee on the bus and when michie came to jp, both on sat...

and thx to michie! for helpin me buy my medicine! =D and thus i'm gonna get my voice back very soon!

ANYWAY, I'M FREE FOR A WEEK, as my shop will be undergoin renovation, STARTING FROM 23RD. DATE ME ANYONE? though i tink my bytches and brothers are havin their exams that week T.T... shall go ka jiao them in lib =D

tank's 如果我变成回忆 is nice =D

2009-05-09T00:06:00.000+08:00

back

mon was supposed to be a workday for me, but i went home early as i was feeling unwell... went to sch after a short rest to pass miss angie her present, which i initially intend to give her only on wed... got my pay on tue! wed went back to sch to celebrate angela's birthday! bought a small cake and with yangping weixin n nicole joinin us, thr was birthday song audible to the whole canteen~ visited mr choo too, whose birthday was on thurs... hang ard cookie hse n sizzling ice aftertt, and visited "bunk inn", whr students pay to slp! the environment damn good, nice and cozy! how come they didn't have such stuff while i was thr?!? i wuld have needed it SOOO MUCH!=X helped gigi with some of the probs, had lunch with angela cc zf (or rather they watched me makan), met up with (my) jinhui, watched the talentime semi-finals for a while before headin off to tutor~

went zf's hse for steamboat aftertt for angela's b'day! met yt fm angela on the way! cc was thr alr... and kao, he only have spicy soup base, which is so beneficial for my sore throat-_- still, the food was good, and didn't really need much prep cos the meat was alr in slices and cc washed the veggies... makan and chat, eat till damn damn damn full, and just stayed at the table to chat with the rest... but somehow i manage to makan quite a bit of the cheesecake aftertt, damn nice! =D nice hanging out with them again =D

anyway really need to thank kerine (my boss) for all those tips abt my giddy spells and my sore throat... also dunno y recently so suay keep tio these kinda things... cos of the weather? =S i jus hope i'll get my voice back soon T.T

i'm seriously getting sillier... why does it happens time and again? with mere reminders that's not even relevant? move on!

haven gotten the letter frm nus and no signs of my acceptance online too... and gettin a little paranoid as usual... cheat my feelins sia... haha and somehow i realised yt actually understands how i feel... and it doesn't help when i'm tryin to pretend that i'm cool abt it in front of my mum, who's paranoid abt it too... damn... see? lik mum lik daughter -_-

but nvm, at least i've got an alternative path =D lik i say, as long as i'm studyin maths =D

and somehow, no matter how it bothers me, how i cnt stop thinkin abt it, i actually know it was one of the best decision ever made, and that moment of anger and despair was just wat i needed to make that decision, sth which i will nv come to without that moment... if only now i can be as logical as i was then, at the one moment...

AND I HOPE SWINE FLU WUN COME TO SG... no please, i dun wanna see sg enter yet another period of fear and uncertainty all over again, and that constant worry for not only ourselves, but also our families and friends...

and BY2's 我知道 is a nice song!

从来没想过不能再和你牵手
委屈时候没有你陪着我心痛
一切都是我太过骄纵以为你会懂
一直忘了说我有多感动

vanee's blog got the full song =D

i'm very very tempted to make a private blog... too much i cnt say here, makes me feel very xinku, but a bit lazy nia haha

AND I MISS SOCIAL LIFE... haha i finally understand how it's lik when u got to work, u lose all ur social life... being adult is not fun at all... i miss sch days! and poly holidays! =x haha but nvm, earn money 1st =D

and i wanna meet up with the class sometime soon, perhaps in jun? and my bytches, jiayou for all ur upcoming tests and all

想念你的歌 - Saya

是否曾经后悔过
那时候负气说走　就走
是否偶尔想过我
所以埋怨我
每当听你的下落
逞强常常让人无法负荷
躲起来边哭边说 i miss you
还舍不得把你封锁

星光闪烁如何拥有
站在远方才看见星空的轮廓
虽然有时候会寂寞
墙上时钟停格
你说放开手才会快乐
用悲伤的脉搏写成想念你的歌

该怎么才能让你懂呢
谁对谁错已经模糊了　忘记了
我们都处理得有点笨拙
已经从来没有
像这一次如此爱过
想念常让我无法负荷
常常只有一个念头 i miss you
我的爱情从来没有死掉过

星光闪烁如何拥有
站在远方才看见星空的轮廓
虽然有时候会寂寞
墙上时钟停格
你说放开手才会快乐
用悲伤的脉搏写成想念你的歌

星光闪烁如何拥有
站在远方才看见星空的轮廓
虽然有时候会寂寞
墙上时钟停格
你说放开手才会快乐
用悲伤的脉搏写成想念你的歌

2009-05-04T01:10:00.001+08:00

sat went kbox with angela cc zf sr to, erm, celebrate cc's birthday? LOL and dunno why will sore throat everytime i go kbox with them sia!~ which is why they're not deaf yet =x LOL didn't get to see cc's reaction in the end, for wat we've given him! angela passed it to him on fri! HAHA but aftertt he sounds high, so ya~ didn't get to join them for dinner, had to look after koko(my guardian's dog), so that he'll not be alone in the nite with my sis... and halfway in the nite i woke up to pei him cos thr was a thunderstorm outside and he was scared =s... end up today very tired nia

nites

很高兴遇见你，让我终究明白，回忆，比真实精彩

2009-05-01T00:45:00.002+08:00

YESH i'm now, in fact for the whole day alr, SIBEI HIGH lol...

COS i got accepted by nus when i went for interview today ON THE SPOT!!!

WHEE!!!

the day didn't start out well, i worked for the last 3 days(full) and was damn tired, den when i went to sch to take the notes frm zf it rained heavily (of cos i saw some ppl i missed, including tml's b'day boy chenchen, my aunties and MY DEAREST JINHUI, eclub one i mean =D, and others)

den i head off to nus, at 1st i tot i'll be late but got thr earlier den expected... to realised that the interview will be delayed by at least 40 mins... and i got more nervous by the minute... and finally when it was my turn, i ans the 1st qn too frankly:

Qn: you prefer nus or ntu?
Ans: actually i've got no preference as long as it's maths
Prof's Feedback: i'm impressed by ur honesty but that has gotten you in a difficult position

but i really dunno how to praise nus, dunno which is better for maths nia... and they were hopin i'll take chem instead, = too many ppl scored well for maths

LOL... so i was damn high after tt, at 1st tot i'll have to wait for a few more torturous days or weeks before i know the results! and i called my dad my guardian my boss and informed everyone who knew abt my interview LOL

anyway went to work aftertt and did a bit of rearrangin with kerine... den met up, interesting day, and home! and got my acceptance letter frm ntu too!

and so still leavin my options open for a while LOL... any idea which uni standard is better? for maths i mean... give me ur opinions lol

oh ya saw aaron the current botak today at my shop! HAHA GOT MORE MEAT LER FINALLY!

anyway i'm still a bit =S that xiao niang re got the award for best drama serial when perfect cut(1st season only) is a much nicer show... nvm, expected

i'm losing quite a bit of my social life~ and thx ivy for ur intro of the agent!

lookin forward HAHA, hope to see his reaction

anyway, all the best, u can de :)

dl-ed 全世界都停电 by tank!!! nice song!

全世界都停电 - Tank

连你都会残忍隔绝
我的心能要谁了解
眼中烛光摇晃着熄灭

为何把我推向边缘
被砸坏了的一切
卡住了我让我无法往前

囚禁在距离笑声最远的房间
单独隔离寂寞地盘旋

全世界都停了电全世界都封了街
我所有窗子外面被贴上黑夜
我呐喊思念却没人听见
绝望到极点剩的是疲倦

全世界都停了电全世界白雪满天
才发觉在我心间有回忆碎片
一作梦翻身就刺痛流血
我卷着身体缩成一个圈
像一个句点

连你都会残忍隔绝
我的心能要谁了解
眼中烛光摇晃着熄灭

为何把我推向边缘
被砸坏了的一切
卡住了我让我无法往前

囚禁在距离笑声最远的房间
单独隔离寂寞地盘旋

全世界都停了电全世界都封了街
我所有窗子外面被贴上黑夜
我呐喊思念却没人听见
绝望到极点剩的是疲倦

全世界都停了电全世界白雪满天
才发觉在我心间有回忆碎片
一作梦翻身就刺痛流血
我卷着身体缩成一个圈
像一个句点

2009-04-29T00:28:00.000+08:00

not much activity going on these days, except work... anyway glad that i reached my sales target today! other den work the only other places i went to was hmm, let's see, vanee hse on fri and mich hse on sun... AND OH YA... going for interview at NUS on thurs!!! finally... but the interview is supposed to be 25 MINUTES... OMG, dunno wat they'll ask nia, so long! the NTU one was less den 10mins! =S

at least, i got the chance to be interviewed. = got hope =S

anyway zhang zhi cheng and wilber's new albums are out! yesh! more nice songs! =D

songs i wan:
全世界都停电
爱来的刚好
爱与罚
同一个遗憾
可不可以爱我

left with $40 to survive for abt 10 more days, including 3 meals and transport (and birthdays)

2009-04-22T17:53:00.000+08:00

wow finally can online again after so many days... AND FINALLY CAN PLAY RESTAURANT CITY!!! woot~ haha anyway been working the past few days so nth much to update... AND I WENT FOR INTERVIEW TODAY!!! for maths at ntu... at 1st i was very nervous, tot they'll ask me a lot of weird qns abt current affairs and all but i wun be able to ans T.T... instead! asked to solve qns on the spot, which was really interesting haha, and did pretty ok for the 1st 2 qns! and at 1st they quite impressed and didn't wanna carry on... DEN! this person asked me the last qn and i culdn't solve it! and after i got out of the room and checked with the other girls (who were thr for the interview as well) den i realised the qn given to me was wrong!!! ARGH!!! den cnt be i stomp back rite? i shld have noticed that thr was sth wrong with the qn T.T i hope i'll be approved though T.T...

not workin tis sun as well! haha... and got to thank hongfa for the bike ride home ytd, saved a few cents of a bus trip~

and i hope my com will still work after today T.T

BACK TO RC! =D

i tot it was gotten over with...

29 619 68 28165 18 68 818 268 6965 519 33 516 773~

2009-04-18T01:05:00.003+08:00

woO~ finally got time and energy... to update abt mich's birthday celebration! afterthat dun think i'll have the time~

13th Apr, the actual day of her birthday!!! =D

woke up EARLY to meet vanee, den ky n mich for lunch astons!~ haha luckily thr weren't a lot of ppl! we were damn hungry!

while waitin for the food(camwhored~):

vanee n me

ky n mich~

Our food of the day:

my prime sirloin, mich's chargrill chicken, vanee's chicken & sausage combo, ky's black pepper chicken... yummy!~

eat n chat till very song b4 we realised it was time for pitstop! foot our bill, and moved on to our next destination! the 4 of us played sequence, but got sian pretty quickly cos thr's too little ppl in the game... now i realised we didn't went back to the game aftertt... anw, our 19 MONTHS old bytch, WONG BEAR BEAR, suggest that we play a game called the "Pokemon Master Trainer"... lol i tink the person a bit seh when she explain the game to us also lor! so paiseh~ just nice ps came when we were abt to start, so the 5 of us decided to play till ivy's thr...

The game:

haha the aim of the game is actually to collect pokemons for the final battle!~ but how come the all cute ones attack points very low? T.T

My pokemons and item card at the end of the game... think i'm the one who collected the least~ T.T

With the box~

moved on to hit and miss after yao yao reached! haha was still in the camwhore mood, so we all took pics with the miss cards, to imply that we're missed! vanee's idea~ haha

bytches with the miss cards:

haha i tink it was cos we just played the game in our recent bytch outin, it too us quite long to find our qns tis time! still enjoyed the game nevertheless, though we got sian pretty quickly... and so being the bYtches we are, we moved on to our "爆料" (i.e. to reveal info) session, TRUTH OR FIB!

mich n ky with the box~

HAHA had fun with all the "bao liao"s and gettin cheated! ky is a damn good cheater! dun see her gong gong, we all tio tricked at least twice by her lol...

some of the more interesting qns that day! hehe

Group pic taken on that day:

claud weren't ard cos she had to work... and didn't paste the photo on the wall this time round! they charge 1 dollar now for it, cos of the limited space i tink T.T... still! we had the pic for our own keeping anyway!

with mich's cam =D

left pitstop and went to shop at ntuc xtra, for our steamboat that nite!~

the photos:

when we were paying for all our stuff, we realised that the bill was damn similar to our bill for pitstop!!! and so we decided to buy 4D n Toto that day! with the guidiance frm a very pro ivy! haha... the rest of us knew nuts abt it! didn't win anything though T.T... nvm, interesting experience for us hehe~

our numbers for toto:
1 and 7, cos each person pay abt $7.10 each time
4 and 13, cos it's her birthday =D
6, cos both times we divided the cost by 6
42, cos our bill was $42.70(pitstop) and $42.65(steamboat)

our numbers for 4D:
1304, 7171, 4265

we then also bought quick picks and mich bought 2910 too =D

while buying:

mich with 2910=D

and afterthat! we went back to mich's hse for steamboat! at 1st a lot of cork up, and we were very worried that we culdn't finish the food... and we didn't lar, but dun have much stuff left over! most of those who initially culdn't makan with us did! + dickee's mum and miaojing =D

The "before" of our table:

Preparation:

The "after" of our table:

filled with food! =D

ky jasmine n ps

think jasmine was very pekchek... she got the "i just wanna eat my hotdog!" face HAHA

and so we chatted and ate till we song, b4 some of us starts mj-ing... by then i was alr very stone due to very very little slp for the past 3 nites... initially wanted to wait till ivy n les came back for their movie for the cake-cutting session, but didn't want her family to wait up, so we started 1st...

the cake!

mich and her family

the girls!

birthday song, making a wish, blowing the candles, cutting the cake~

the cake was nice lar! we all tot it was frm bakerzin but no! claud, being meticulous, know that ppl will leak info and mich will know... so she kept the truth from us all! it's actually a very nice raspberry cheesecake frm marriott hotel!!!

mich's slice decorated by claud!!! =D

went back to mj again afterthat:

got mich to open and presents and try on the dress we got too!

Bytches and leslie with mich:

=D glad =D

tue went ky hse with vanee jh mich jq ps for mj... her mum treat us dinner! mich went home early though... wed met up with jh n emer after work, had dinner at astons and played pool~ HAHA been quite nice catching up with them, since i've not seen them for a long time! thurs went lib with mich vanee n jh, den mj-ed at mich hse with ky... watch handsome suit aftertt! mich left after the movie, n the 4 of us chat till 10+ before we went home~ today went to ky hse b4 the movie to watch the vids... THE GUY IS GODLY... his listening damn good! play pieces without the scores at the right pitch and they were damn nice! NICE TILL NO OTHER INSTRUMENTS NEEDED!! can see his videos here if interested! watched 17 again with ky vanee mich jh jq afterthat, and shopped ard cotton on b4 we went home~

anyway, the 2 movies are damn nice!!! alot nicer den expected!!! at 1st i tot they'll be quite lame, but nvm just go for the company, and since the ratings so high, why not just watch? IN THE END!!! damn nice!!! not only are the movies humourous, but they had very meaningful morals too! esp 17 again, really strikes... always remembering how it was like before it turns bitter~ WORTH MY MONEY lol... it's the best show i've watched recently...

i'll be working and working after this week, and my off days are wednesdays and saturdays, full day, and friday after 5pm~ which is good cos i've bought so much clothes recently that i'm running out of money to spend~ and i will not be buying anymore till i get my next pay!

HOOKED ON RESTAURANT CITY =D

2009-04-12T01:22:00.002+08:00

as usual had mj sessions again~ mon with ky vanee mich jh jq, wed with ky vanee jh mich~

and finally went for my 1st run after my leg had healed with ky on tue... bumped into ceyu cs ranald chenglong, had a good time catching up and watching them on the court... attempted a few shots as well =D

thurs went to jurong's sakura for yy's birthday... variety very little, food quality dropped a lot... taka one better, if the quality maintained... still had quite a nice time though~ certain food was nice too

fri managed to called together a dinner thanks to weekheng... steamboat at bugis... but only us ken yt fm went... so it weren't exactly a class dinner? haha... si ah gong cheated our feelings... call him nv ans-.- scare of steamboat cnt meet, live in yishun cnt meet, i live in jurong nia-.- no diff lor -.-... always last minute the phone zhun zhun will off de-.- nevertheless, did enjoyed the time thr...

read her blog... 覆水难收 might really be a good idiom to describe our situation now.. i guess i'll nv contact ppl lik wingkin and wuzhou again, much less see them... too many differences, different countries, opinions, taste, character, even the degree of differences in our future are much higher den that of other classes... cannot even call together a proper class outing now, and we've only graduated for less den 5mths...

still, good that we do keep in contact, somehow, in small grps

and that reason... i think i'll nv be able to understand, and even though i dun, i think it's only fair i respect how she feels... and i hope she's ok, it wasn't easy, no matter how prepared for it. and now all that i can only say? is jiayou... and all the best...

recently not in the mood to organise such stuff... the dinner initially cancelled the nite b4... was thinkin shld i call tgt one on my own but didn't =x... and wk went ahead to... left emer to organise yunnan clique outin too... bo bian, too sian, why are there often strings attached for wanting to meet up with one another?

i wonder how will wed's yunnan clique outing turns out.. no matter how many ppl can make it, i'll be thr =D

things wun last. be there while u can.

conversation with wee leong:
力Dynamies 收藏在眼眸讲一千句也不够 Doink says:
*yep
*if got go out
*try contact me lol
*i will join if its interesting
*steamboat abit over killing me
*xD
*paiseh ah paiseh ah
力Dynamies 收藏在眼眸讲一千句也不够 Doink says:
*hint:
力Dynamies 收藏在眼眸讲一千句也不够 Doink says:
*place that r interesting
*= chiobu

力Dynamies 收藏在眼眸讲一千句也不够 Doink says:
*lols btw i got a joke
*卖面的老板看到天上有云就收摊，y?
力Dynamies 收藏在眼眸讲一千句也不够 Doink says:
*lol
*云吞面

LOL =s shall forgive him for making me smile at his lameness

off to facebook~

2009-04-06T01:53:00.001+08:00

LOL back~

last wed~ acc jh make passport , den went to miss clarity! HAHA generally, the food becoming more and more sucky, BUT... THE MUD OOZE IS STILL NICE! hehe~ next time shld just go have main course elsewhere and have the desert thr... mj-ed at ks hse afterwards... very late cos vanee and me was choosin polish =x plus 241's frequency damn bad! we see 3 242s run pass ler and thr's still no sight of 241... and jh intro-ed us a game, that we think of a singer and sing the song till we cnt think of any... haha i think the S.H.E. one was the best for us... finally reached his hse after a long while, and met up with ky and thiamboon... the main players that day was thiamboon me vanee ky~

fri woke early go for the great sale wit vanee n her mum... vanee + ky and the rest actually went on thurs le when i had to work... i bought only one gap top =x but not bad, i bought it for only 8 bucks! thx to her mum we got free taxi rides and meals... i lik the silver guess bag her mum bought! but not practical for me cos quite small... den jh came and we watch ong bak 2, which bored all of us... den we hiao~ didn't wanna join the guys at amk hub for movie... ky a bit sian and i got work the next day, and the movie STARTS at 9.35... but end up jq, alex+les, yy called, and we scared, and we chiong down. practically... and jh and i played the game again on our way down cos the train journey really freakin long and mood really weren't very good... AND I FELT SO PEKCHEK I LOST TO HIM FOR JAY CHOU'S SONGS! haha...

watch the jackie chan show... overall i think it's really not a bad show, with good enough effects (blood even spilled on camera somemore, was quite impressed with tt) and with a very different type of storyline, abt china's illegal immigrants in japan... BUT... kao the blood, the sound of the stabs and shots, the screams, really made me quite seh... was practically quite nua afterthat... and all die till very jialat, damn emo-.- but managed to wrapped up the whole story quite well...

sat quite emo cos after so many days of little slp, still had to work-_-... BUT after a while i really got a bit high cos sales very good! that day i reached $522.12! which is very good for me HAHA... usually only abt $2-300 =x... today woke early again, a damn long and tiring day for me, got mj abit with jh vanee n ky lar, BUT also went sao mu, taught zf complex numbers, and tuition...

so practically since wed been slping late(i dun slp early) and waking early... HAHA shld slp more this few days... my beauty slp! =D

soon lar

anyway, recently sth cropped up, and a bit affected by it... feels a little irritated. it's still important, but now, it's shaky...

damn nice song, intro-ed by ky:

在你怀里的微笑 - 杨丞琳

可以吗
让我和你对调
希望换成你爱我爱的快要疯掉
知道吗
你对我多重要
只是现在的我们并不适合拥抱

爱的随着风飘荡飘过了你
最终飘到天涯海角
把我困在这城堡
哪里也逃不了

我不要别人温柔的怀抱
听不见你的心跳
连我熟悉的味道
再也闻不到
我只要你喊我一次就好
从前亲密的暗号
多想再次亲耳听到

可以吗
让我和你对调
希望换成你爱我爱的快要疯掉
知道吗
你对我多重要
只是现在的我们并不适合拥抱

爱的随着风飘荡飘过了你
最终飘到天涯海角
把我困在这城堡
哪里也逃不了

我不要别人温柔的怀抱
听不见你的心跳
连我熟悉的味道
再也闻不到
我只要你喊我一次就好
从前亲密的暗号
多想再次亲耳听到

我不要别人温柔的怀抱
让我暂时的依靠
那是短暂止痛药
很快会失效
你只要再喊我一次就好
让我可以很骄傲
记住我拥有过的好
记住在你怀里微笑

and who can send me 安全区, 爱来得刚刚好-张智成, a little too not over you, 明天过后-吴克群 and 全世界都停电-Tank? how come no ppl seems to have these songs de T.T

2009-03-31T22:55:00.000+08:00

emer tempted me. i wanna play jigsaw too!

wed went ky hse mj again, with vanee and jh, before we travel back with ky whos teaching piano... thurs went watch race to witch mountain with vanee and jh! not bad, relatively nice show HAHA... pooled also, but think very little ppl, play a while sian liao... sun sent dickee off, early in the morn... both of them took it better then i tot, but overall still quite emotional... good that vanee n ky was thr... lingered a while, and had to leave for work before mich go for her trip... quite heng that dickee's flight was scheduled at that time and mich can send him off instead, before her trip... but just nice their day was their special day... met up with jq for the stocktaking job, and by the time we start work, we both are like zombies le, due to lack of slp... but the work is easy and the pay not bad, $10 per hour for 6 hrs, though quite sian for jq? mon went 10dollars ktv with jh vanee n ky... sang for 5 hrs, and still didn't managed to sing everything we wanna sing... makan, satay, fried oyster omelette, char kiew tiao, glutinous rice balls and fried carrot cake... nice food~ did a bit of shopping as well

hope i'll get news about my university application soon

Take VERY GOOD care =D

2009-03-24T21:51:00.007+08:00

WOO~ back... TO UPDATE ABT SUN'S BYTCH OUTING! HAHA and we went to our usual hang out, PITSTOP!!! haha as and we played our usual fav, sequence! mich ivy and i won several rounds! all play till very fierce, even had a draw for one of the games HAHA... played halligali and imaginiff as well, and then HIT AND MISS and TRUTH OR FIB!

"Hit and Miss" is a game which requires us to write down a list of things under a category drawn and roll a dice to get either a "hit" , "miss" or "wild"... "hit" requires you to say something from ur list that the majority will write down, "miss" requires you to say something that you think no one will write, while you can choose either "hit" or "miss" if you got a "wild"... our dearest C-dia wrote "sex" under 3 of the questions, "things you do before you sleep at night"(still ok), "things you do in the morning"(erm maybe), AND "things you do when you're sick"(...)... LOL very energized sia =x

"Truth or Fib" is a game which you let your friends guess whether you are telling a truth or a lie (which is decided by shaking an enclosed container with a dice), and it gets quite personal sometimes! and that day, quite so for ivy! secret revealed haha... and we all decided that it wun be as fun, maybe it'll even be awkward, if you play with people who are not close HAHA... can visit mich's blog, 22nd march's post for more detailed descriptions of these 2 games...

TIME FOR THE PICS!

Let's compare...

and...

haha 1st pic was taken on 18th march 2007, the 2nd pic was taken on 22nd march 2009!

a closer pic:

haha just how much we've changed!

after that went to bugis, due to yao yao goh's request to take neoprints! HAHA it's been one year plus, abt two years since we've last taken any neoprints together! BUT it's the 1st time we've got every single bytch in a freaking neoprint!!! HAHA and the neoprints are damn nice lar, but damn small T.T

Bytches!

HAHA hoping we'll have another outing before their hols end, cos mich and vanee will most likely have attachment during their nxt coming hols

and we're called bytches, not bitches, so wat does the meaning of "bitch" got to do with us? and besides, it's none of anyone's business that it's our name of endearment for each other ;p

ytd went to ky hse with vanee jh hq to mahjong... helped zh with his presidential speech too! hope he'll get the seat sia! HAHA heard abt the situation from ky, damn funny! most likely he'll get it! =D!

2009-03-21T03:15:00.001+08:00

HAHA today went shopping at orchard with vanee and jh... damn high cos my knee not totally healed... if i by sun dun heal most likely i'll be the shortest amongst them le(which i'm actually not =x) cos cnt wear high heels=S... went xin wang for lunch, damn filling, that after shopping ard for the whole afternoon, we all not hungry at all! lol... the hor fun damn nice la! the prawns! haha curry rice nice also, but i lik the horfun better LOL... went far east shop, bought a dress! which i like! haha a bit ex though, but i so fussy, hard to find stuff i lik also ma... vanee and i bought some cute ear studs! and she bought a pair of damn chio heels which jh and i lik alot! HAHA keep asking her to walk abt with it=x we watched paul blart the mall cop aftertt, HAHA damn cute and funny, wun say that it's excellent but definitely entertaining and not draggy... the guy damn cute... aftertt went back makan at jp bk, den go ky hse rot~ ky hse becoming my 2nd home ler HAHA =x

the comments section in the pic of the class 4e1 and my email practically flooded cos we were practically chatting thr, dsiao-ing xiongkai LOL =x the little renuion there totally amused me sia, even chars lik xiaoyun and wangshuang was brought up =x had fun reading all those comments

after spending so much money today, and also gotta do so on the coming sun at pitstop, nxt week most likely can only camp at home... haven get my full pay yet lehs =S

AND THANKS VANEE FOR THE SONG 妥协!!! woo!~ anyway the lyrics in the previous post got some errors, this should be more or less correct, edited with the help of the song:

妥协 - 蔡依林

你总爱编织谎言
我负责配合表演
所有改变只为了进入你的世界
这情节重复了一百遍
才发现是你的心太厌

你划定楚河汉界
我不能轻易犯规
所有时间都是先给了你优先权
不自觉爱到不敢冒险
成了你的傀儡一年两年
才看见我有多狼狈

爱到妥协到头来还是误解
绑着你不让你飞
历史不断重演我好累
爱到妥协也无法将故事再重现
你已下最后通牒我躲在我的世界

你划定楚河汉界
我不能轻易犯规
所有时间都是先给了你优先权
不自觉爱到不敢冒险
成了你的傀儡一年两年
才看见我有多狼狈

爱到妥协到头来还是误解
绑着你不让你飞
历史不断重演我好累
爱到妥协也无法将故事再重现
你已下最后通牒我躲在我的世界

你只是害怕一个人睡
我不想再为你掉泪
我了解不会变别在徘徊
开始自己的明天

爱到妥协到头来还是误解
绑着你不让你飞
历史不断重演我好累
爱到妥协也无法将故事再重现
你已下最后通牒我躲在我的世界

2009-03-19T02:01:00.002+08:00

feels slightly better

was feeling sucky cos of 2 reasons:
1) i mixed-up the scholarship application dateline for MOE teaching scholarship, and missed it
2) someone is so damn... =S

i felt sucky cos i wun even have a chance to see if i can get the scholarship, even though well, my grades are not exactly fantastic... if i tried and i failed, i'll feel better... blame it on my dumbness... but what can i do? shall try apply for other scholarships... BY 1ST APRIL... my testimonial will be out soon, and i'll be able to try to apply for the scholarships with it... things will get better... perhaps i'll have alternative plans after uni?

and i can be quite open-minded, talking abt... well, you know wat i mean, but i didn't even said that... and i'm still a girl, i got a reputation to uphold... but i guess it'll never work asking an insensitive person to be sensitive... damn that nick

ytd met zf for lunch and passed him notes... today met up with angela and zf to sch, requested for our testimonial, then went lib, supposed to teach vectors bt tt idiot nv bring qns -.- ... went vanee hse to watch devil wears prada with jh afterthat, damn nice haha

BYTCH OUTING - looking forward already

new song, by jolin =D
http://www.haoting.com/htmusic/330491ht.htm

妥协 - 蔡依林

你总爱编织谎言
我负责配合表演
所有改变只为了进入你的世界
这情节重复了一百遍
才发现是你的心太远

你划定楚河汉界
不能轻易犯规
所有时间都是先给了你优先权
不自觉爱到不敢冒险
成了你的傀儡一年两年
才看见我有多狼狈

爱到妥协到头来还是误解
抱着你不让你飞
历史不断重演我好累
爱到妥协也无法将故事再重现
你也想退后一点我躲在我的世界

你划定楚河汉界
我不能轻易犯规
所有时间都是先给了你优先权
不自觉爱到不敢冒险
成了你的傀儡一年两年
才看见我有多狼狈

爱到妥协到头来还是误解
抱着你不让你飞
历史不断重演我好累
爱到妥协也无法将故事再重现
你也想退后一点我躲在我的世界

你只是害怕一个人睡
我不想再为你掉泪
我了解不会再仍在徘徊
开始自己的明天

爱到妥协到头来还是误解
抱着你不让你飞
历史不断重演我好累
爱到妥协也无法将故事再重现
你也想退后一点我躲在我的世界

2009-03-17T02:16:00.004+08:00

~

thurs went vanee hse pass her the books, den watched pitch black with jh n vanee... haha not as scary as i tot, maybe cos cnt really see wat's goin on and all cos too dark lol... fri met up with yw yy n cs for dinner at astons... yw intro de sia, surprised he know this place =x haha but apparently yy and cs were not full after the meal... chiong back cos cs wanna go basketball... the bball court thr majiam jyss gathering sia, got us, the 4e'07 guys(edwin ho's batch), ranald and his classmate =S but not bad, watch them play quite fun cos they relatively pro... the last time i enjoyed watchin a bball match shld be when i watch the interclass tt wingkin organised LOL... btw, i freakin suay, friday the 13th ma, my shoes spoilt -_- heng was at central, can buy new ones-_-

sat went nus open hse... haha the place freaking big, but managed to find out wat i wan... aftertt join vanee n jh at ky hse mahjong again=x haha after dinner went back watch jurassic park, den dunno why talk till we all very high =S i practically ROFL =X... today drop by ky hse meet vanee jh jq, tripped -_-

photos taken at topone:

if my clothes in the last pic looks weird, it's cos i was so damn cold i'm wearing both my bolero and cardigan... i was so glad i didn't take out my cardigan from my bag, which i sometimes does haha

anyway ya, hope that i'll get into double degree course in mathamatics and computing in nus... and get a scholarship =D HAHA but with only 2 As like quite hard, esp since even my H1s are... haiz nvm, see how haha... hopefully lik wat the person say, MOE will give quite a lot of scholarships.. and hopefully my leadership experiences and the 2 pages long CCA record will help hehe

and haiz, i dunno how to mention it to her =S anyone to take over my place, pls pls pls??? =S my mum's gonna bite my head off... i told her this will be my last month working thr =S and sales is not really my... =S

missed a lot of movies that i wanted to watch, bride wars, new in town and the curious case of banjamin buttons =S

anyway all the best to all my friends in their 2 yrs of army haha =x

my wound looks gross underneath the betadine antiseptic solution =S why lik got liquid coming out de? =S

and so glad i removed 5 big bags of clothes from my cupboard today, mainly made up of clothes given to me by others which is not suitable for my age and clothes which i wore when i was much younger, lik, in pri sch-_-... and i'm still left with alot of clothes, but a good bit of it was clothes from special events and camps haha =D haha anyway some of my old clothes really quite cute... got hello kitty all tt de~ will take pics b4 throwin/giving them away HAHA

anyway just saw this group on facebook about wanting ms loon to get married... and the pic they uploaded for the group is a really damn pretty pic of her... nevertheless i was so seh when i saw it-_- cute sia!

"Description: Our JJ Chemistry teacher, Ms. Loon has been single for far too long!!
It's time we see her in her wedding gown photos instead of cheongsams'.
Join this group if you support this noble cause to petition for Ms. Loon to get married. Please nominate some potential husband materials if you can~!! "

HAHA =x

会呼吸的痛 - 梁静茹

在东京铁塔第一次眺望
看灯火模仿坠落的星光
我终於到达但却更悲伤
一个人完成我们的梦想

你总说时间还很多
你可以等我
以前我不懂得
未必明天就有以后

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛连沉默也痛
遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
後悔不貼心會痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛

没看你脸上张扬过哀伤
那是种多麼寂寞的倔强
你拆了城墙让我去流浪
在原地等我把自己捆绑

你没说你也会软弱
需要依赖我
我就装不晓得
自由移动自我地过

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛连沉默也痛
遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
後悔不貼心會痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛

我发誓不再说谎了
多爱你就会抱你多紧的
我的微笑都假了
灵魂像飘浮著
你在就好了
我发誓不让你等候
陪你做想做的无论什麼
我越来越像贝壳
怕心被人触碰
你回来那就好了

能重来那就好了

2009-03-12T01:40:00.000+08:00

last fri in the morn, met up with vanee jh ky to run... met laixing thr too... HAHA after 8 rounds, when gym with xing and zhenghui... too high haha... been so long since i work out till so hiong... aftertt went to take results! MR WEE WAS THR! and making me nervous with all his weird expressions-_- and ya, not the whole class went back... yunfan wingkin wuzhou yadong weren't thr... ok overall, my results were far, far better den i expected... wow... and no matter what my mum say, i'm contented... aftertt hang ard with classmate for a while, den went makan with yf and aaron...

sat went lib with vanee n mich, makan prata!!! den walked abt in jp, lookin at books and all b4 meetin up with jh to go ky hse mj... jq was thr ler... another friend of theirs (cong-something or something-cong) came too to record a video... shall not go into details haha... sweet~ haha... aftertt went makan, and decided not to go amk hub as planned due to various reasons... sun after work met up with yy and cs after my work... did had some good time catching up and all haha...

tue... went vanee hse watch "All's Well End's Well 2009" with jh... HAHA i wun say it was extremely funny, but rather it's constantly damn lame that u cnt help but go LOL... enjoyed it HAHA, except that thr was a bit of probs with the disc... watched till a bit pek chek cos of tt haha... DEN WENT PLAZA SING FOR BLOODY VALENTINE, 3D SOMEMORE =S... with ky yiyang n jq... haha the guys was late, but managed to enter the cinema b4 the movie start... AND KAO... THE MOVIE WAS REALLY DAMN BLOODY =S gross lor, 3D somemore, see the blood spilling at you =S... walk about plaza sing aftertt b4 makanin dinner... papper lunch! with my mac vanilla cone aftertt HAHA =x=x=x yy and jq weren't full after the meal and had a burger each at mac-_- and jq was tellin scary stories lor =S

anyway, SIGNED UP FOR RELIEF TEACHING! at juying HAHA... lik finally... my mum will be so glad hehe

i'm leadin one of the most fortunate life ler... i really shld be happy... i'm still young... i'm perhaps just, too used to havin it... 687, 2856 73...

and be ok... i dunno what else i can say, but take care... make your decisions, and things will work out, somehow... jiayou, all the best to you two =D

刚刚看了一切完美，今晚的主题是拥有“追求幸福的勇气”... 突然就想到前几天他们刚提到的“安静了”的一句歌词，“爱不是一加一，努力就有结局”... 所以，至少有追求过，努力过？但失败了，下一次，就会需要更多，更多勇气? 渐渐喜欢上郭美美的“放了爱”，但到现在还是觉得石欣卉在上一系列唱的主题曲和片尾曲比较好听... 喜欢歌里的这句：“别人的幸福何必要模仿心不在何苦留躯壳在身旁”... 联想很多

HAHA btw i'm so glad i bought my freakin big plastic drawer HAHA =x ok tt was random

anyway, "The Boy Next Door" by meg cabot is a good read too! mainly for girls though, it's damn funny, and meg cabot damn pro, uses solely emails to tell the story! LOL and the reactions of the characters are damn bitchy and funny!

HAHA gtg finish my book, "Big Boned" by meg cabot... haha only started to find the story engaging when the horny monk became the suspect =x

2009-03-06T01:01:00.000+08:00

ytd met vanee jh in the morning to go and give ky moral support for her exam, den ate at Astons... not bad, the food affordable and cheap, we had like a main with sides + water at $6.80, inculding gst, just that the travelling itself cost quite a bit... but just nice we're in the area ma... aftertt went to ky hse to mahjong, junqiang kiatyee yiyang came to join us after a while too, and keep askin ky to teach them(kiatyee jq) piano when she mahjong-.-... kiatyee keep asking her to teach him a damn emo song haha-.- ok la, quite nice actually, listen ler want to cut wrist only... mahjong-ed for quite sometime, den ky go teach piano, the 3 guys from the north go to jw gym, jh and i went to vanee hse slack... i slept =x... i had a very satisfying slp, esp after waking so early =x met up again for dinner after ky's piano lesson... hope she will pass haha =D

in the mornin supposed to run, den rain again =S jh n i went vanee hse camp 1st... aftertt somehow, decided to rent dvd to watch instead-_-... 27 dresses, nice show! haha... watched finish ler chiong home prep to go juying... celebrate ~~horny's~~ mama hon's birthday! haha with vanee ky mich ivy jh dickee drew! and quite to our surprise, we saw some juniors there with the same purpose too haha... as usual, sat there and chat abt other things, our current life and all, with her telling us a lot of interesting stuff HAHA... aftertt mi vanee n jh went ky hse to mj again haha =x addicts =x practised the piano a little too, since the guys are not thr HAHA... makan, den home

Pics taken during zhao hui's birthday:

brother and sister

jq, jh, me

the nicest photo of him and the cake taken =x

the family~

friends~

the cake!

his present =D

now

ALL THE BEST, EVERYONE

tml will be the big day

junyong was telling me that i definitely wun be as bad as i tot, that spa wun screw up so much... and aaron was telling me there are a lot of ppl who are worse than me... i'm hoping they're rite, den maybe i can get AAA/A instead of the ACE/E i'm expecting... AND MAYBE, BY LUCK, i can pass GP... WOW

that is A LOT OF consolations... well, MAYBE it will come true

den MAYBE i'll be able to go into mathematical science this year too

den MAYBE i wun have to retake A lvls GP if i really fail, since i got AAA/A

HAHA

maybe, maybe, maybe

den i'll find a better job, try my best to help aaron's cousin, get more tuition assignments, save up and start learning piano again, study in the library for my UNI tests and exams, etc etc...

well, if not, all these have to wait until the next year at least...

and tml, if every single person in the class is still interested in taking his/her results, if thura will be there, and if mr wee is able to come back, then, it'll be the last time, after the phototaking session, that we see each other as a whole, complete class... afterthat, it'll be much harder, or rather, IMPOSSIBLE... mr random continues his life in NJ, the pros go to the unis, the guys go to the army, some may need retake, some go back to their own countries instead, and the bomber go create his bombs =x=x=x ok the last part was just a joke, in case the blog is being spied, there's no potential terrorist in the class~ leave us alone thanks =D

tml, tml...

and all of us will be so emotional abt the results to bother abt that...

2 years. i'll miss them

Graduation - Vitamin C

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

[ As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever ] x3

2009-03-03T23:42:00.001+08:00

I'm so encouraged... I better score badly enough to be allowed to retake... either that, or i must be damn lucky and score damn well with a lot of moderation...

just look at the grade profiles last year and you'll see what i mean: http://www3.ntu.edu.sg/oad2/pdfs/COP.pdf

if i'm not wrong, NUS does not offer mathematical science... and the 10th percentile (which means the poorer students) scored BBB/B for their A lvls... damn... i'll most likely be getting ACE/E... and the worse set of grades there is DDD/D... for "art, design & media"... chio, good luck =D

2009-03-03T12:52:00.001+08:00

HAHA supposed to be running now... but i think it's also a nice weather to slp in rite? so an update while i wait =D

sun went to kaiying hse after a 3.5 hrs worth for tiring and voice-losing tuition for the kid, since its his exams this week... and when i arrived, they were still at jp-_- went in 1st and spent the time chattin with auntie b4 they came back with my lunch =D vanee was lik, she see the uncle pour the oil she also scared =x aftertt mahjong-ed with vanee jh and jq while ky practise her pieces! in her room! haha finally got her own room back! was waiting for zhaohui to come back, but decided not to surprise him so early, end up we play and play till dinnertime, had zhi char, den vanee n jh dragged him to buy some stuff while the rest of us came back and prep for the surprise... and succeeded... haha was askin them to slow down den to speed up again =x den the moment zhaohui saw the cake he directly act busy taking off his shoes and look away... didn't know he so shy de! but everyone was so full le, after eating still got extra piece... and used zhong ji mi ma to settle the last one... jiahao tio 4 times =x jq tio thrice i think, the rest i dun rmb =x went home after a few more rounds of mahjong~

ytd was just work... saw ivy hz arron raynald n his gf... anyway the minute i switched on the radio, i heard the news... 6th March, as predicted by all... before that i was still lik, aiya, fail at most retake lor, but hearing the news, a sudden surge of panic hit me... what if i got lousy grades but cannnot retake? how to answer to everyone? damn... how i wish i can take my results rite now and save all the suspense and worries

and i hope she'll be ok... if all those stuff happen to me, i dunno how i can take it... good that she still got very encouraging people around her, and something she can always go back to... was telling him she seems to be someone who will not be easily defeated... i hope i'm rite... and hopefully, she will be given approval to stay on

oh ya, some ppl saw a rainbow last week! didn't see it T.T... and peishan has a very nice photo of it in her blog, the last one in the entry taken by her friend, can see all the colours very clearly!
http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_SXKsxNKCGKM/SaXwjMBb-HI/AAAAAAAAAds/vlD0Cl2HE5I/s1600-h/ahma%27s+0101.JPG
if you look carefully, at the top left hand corner, got a second one... damn nice...

running was just cancelled

things will work out =D jiayou =D

2009-03-02T02:08:00.001+08:00

it's never me, no matter how much it sounds like... i'm never the concern, never the problem, and miserably, i knew it all along... was not, am not, will not... not the very least... this time round, i realised what it was really meant for and saved myself before i got any wrong idea... i'm glad i still remember to remind myself that you dun care... not like it'll make it better, but at least it reminds me that i weren't entirely at fault, no matter what i did... i weren't treated the way i shld be, all my fears and insecurities were right, and of course i cannot trust and believe in something that was not even there in the first place... i was right, dun you see? it was already lost, when the distance grew, when something else return to occupy the space reserved for me... all my predictions and the cause for all my hesitation came true, didn't it? and all the little things that was so significant went away, and i doubt you even realised it... and it is all these little things that made me realise my space got smaller, no matter what you say... dun you see? all these had been the cause of it, it's not just me... whatever you promised, you broke them 1st... before i broke mine, the one about trusting you... and i admit, i didn't use my brains... but not in the way you've put it... ironically, the moments i missed most was not those, haha and i'm sure you'll agree that it werent the best times we've really shared...

had a fun day at ky's hse, though i had a 3.5hrs long tuition with the kid... but shall update about it next time, need slp...

My Happy Ending - Avril Lavigne

2009-03-01T01:31:00.003+08:00

woo~

wed went out with vanee and jh, and though it's only the 3 of us, it was still fun! haha... had pepperLUNCH for DINNER, watched fish leong's performance for a while before going home HAHA... thurs met ivy andrew edwin les to buy the food and marinate them before i went down to tutor aaron's cousin... saw jiahao as i was getting a quick bite before the tuition... aaron came down afterwards too...

fri... met vanee in the morning for a run... ran 5 rounds with vanee and 2 on my own... looking forward to more of such sessions =D... afterthat was hesitating whether i shld join jh and vanee to watch "marley and me" since i was not going for the zenitant training anymore, having cancelled my booking after some thinking... cos wanted to organise the time with the others, so that we will meet earlier and thus yuxuan can join us, and if i went for the movie i definitely cannot make it... in the end i went since i wanted to watch the show, anyway yuxuan cannot make it too... AND WAS GLAD I WENT... the movie actually got the timeline all jumbled up, and i still haven't found out whether the original film is liddat or it's just the cinema we went to... we tot they had 6 kids sia-_-... only realised wat was going on at the end of the show... and it was nice! touching, though certain parts was quite draggy~

after the movie, set off to buy the stuff we left out the previous day, and was off to mayfair! and just nice met up with cs and yw, which solved the problem about getting the ice for the drink... the guys definitely can handle them HAHA =D... AND IT WAS A LONG WALK FROM CHINESE GARDEN... not because it was very far from chinese garden, BUT because we had to take a BIG LOOP around parc oasis, another condo that was situated in between chinese garden and mayfair -.-... ivy claud edwin drew les was thr ler! they carried all the food there too! haha... and after settling all the accounts, everybody could get 2 bucks back for the bbq! HAHA initailly it was ten bucks each... 1st time we did not overshoot the budget! even with much better food!

The menu:
chicken wings
hotdogs
cocktails
otah
tiger prawns
bacon
stingray
sotong
dory fish fillets
marshmallows (nv buy satay sticks, so only bbq-ed a few cos of the trouble =s)

AND FIRST TIME WE FINISH ALL THE FOOD!!! WOO!!! and everyone was full enough afterthat! though i think hsihing can manage more... the moment he came, till our bbq ended, he just sat at the same spot and eat and eat and eat, not leaving that spot at all HAHA... have to admit i overate a little, and this time it's not because we need to help in clearing the food, but rather, it was cos the food was just too nice and tempting! HAHA with andrew's hand in marinating the food! and our cooks!!! and the fire leslie built was good too, + the food was all well-defroze i think... cos they were cooked very quickly! they were neither raw nor burnt! haha nice!~ other then the food, had a very nice time catching up too, laughing and all...

the people who went: vanee michelle kaiying ivy claudia peishan jiahao andrew edwin dickson leslie chunsern yewwah ceyu tingwei hsihing joel amos and me!!! kengsiang paid but didn't go -_-

haha chatted for quite a while in the dark area after our food and all... lol well just for your info, we were damn suay, just nice all 3 lamps at our pit was having technical problem that night and the technician was not there -_- in the end their phones (vanee's claud's ed's yw's and maybe a few others'?) came in and save the day! lighted up the pit and helped those who could not see the food! haha went up to dickson's house after a while and played games there... this game called homojalay(?)... haha not homosexual ar =x (andrew didn't let us change its name =x)... at 1st we all thought it was a lame game... but after joining in to play, WE HAD LOTS OF FUN!!! sibei addictive!!! ivy and i won the 1st round (i took over claud after she left)... could have won the 2nd round if not for my blurness, in the end andrew and kaiying won... last round paired with andrew, end up kaiying and mich won HAHA... play till we felt like tonning! WOW... missed our last bus cos no one was bothered about the time! =x... haha of course, cabbed home

thanks to: andrew, ivy and guys

overall, it was a nice bbq: cheap, good food, great company, fun game! whee!~

luckily it weren't cancelled

haha and here's something michelle had drew for us:

HAHA i recognised everyone but myself =x... LOL since michelle showed me mine before hers, i tot that drawing was her since it didn't look like ivy and peishan, whom were the other options left... cos i hardly wear a dress, and she wanted to draw something not as sloppy as my usual t-shirt and shorts =x

ignorance is bliss~ or pretence is bliss... i think certain things could be put aside ler, i hope... we didn't understand each other, you didn't understand why i rather choose certain things... i didn't have the faith, after so much of the same stuff... at least, i'm glad of the results despite it all, though i dunno how you feel... at least all turned out nice and good, better than all i thought =D and to be honest, it's really because of you, i admit

and the bbq really cleared whatever clouds in me =D

anyway since the trip to ky hse today had to be cancelled, i made use to the time to finish a book that is overdue today at the library, and saw vivien, angeline, chinkang, and kenneth! had a long chat with angeline though we didn't actually knew each other very well back in school HAHA... and luckily i managed to finish the book =D

and just hope both of you will get better... though i know nothing others say will work now... cheer up, it'll be over, and it'll be the same again... jiayou =D

ok, i think i got a bit too high about the bbq... to the bed =D

2009-02-28T02:13:00.002+08:00

it was a great night

special thanks to andrew, as well as ivy and guys

haha tired, update more another day

2009-02-27T01:45:00.002+08:00

i just feel... crappy

perhaps it's cos it's near the release of results
the perpetual war in the house
the lack of money
the sucky work
or the loss

or everything

perhaps i really should hope for a bad results... den i can drop my work

so much that i've nv seen, or rather turned a blind eye to, is biting me back now... 1st this, den that, den perhaps more

living in denial, telling myself things will only get better... nothing seems to be working enough... go to slp feeling happy most days, only to wake the next morning trying to make myself happy again

and the big world outside is so fake... and i'm willing to be cheated for that little amount of money... putting on a mask to entertain a mask

craps and lies

kids are much simpler... they are not scheming

and it was nv the case... my insecurities was right, all along... only, it will nv be understood and shared... and i hate knowing i had became the girl i was

getting quite sick of being the spare tyre... not like i really love doing what i need to wait for

i just miss... the times when i can live without such memories, the times when i laugh till i almost roll on the floor, the times when things were simple... the sec sch days, the post o lvls holidays, the outings, the camps...

life... i've wasted it, not making full use of it

should be happy

shall update abt kbox the next time... should look forward to the bbq tml =D

我怀念的 - 孙燕姿

我问为什麼　那女孩传简讯给我　
而你为什麼　不解释　低著头沉默
我该相信你很爱我　不愿意敷衍我　
还是明白你已不想挽回什么

想问为什麼　我不再是你的快乐　
可是为什麼　却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖著把爱都走曲折　
假装了解是怕　真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说　
我怀念的是一起做梦
我怀念的是争吵以後　
还是想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日　
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空　最紧的右手　
最暖的胸口
(谁记得)　谁忘了

想问为什麼　我不再是你的快乐　
可是为什麼　却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖著把爱都走曲折　
假装了解是怕　真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说　
我怀念的是一起做梦
我怀念的是争吵以後　
还是想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日　
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空　最紧的右手　
最暖的胸口
(谁记得)　谁忘了

我怀念的是无言感动　
我怀念的是绝对炽热
我怀念的是你很激动　
求我原谅抱得我都痛
我记得你在背後　
我记得我颤抖著
记得感觉汹涌　
最美的烟火　最长的相拥

谁爱的太自由　
谁过头太远了　
谁要走我的心　
谁忘了那就是承诺
谁自顾自地走　
谁忘了看着我
谁让爱变沉重　
谁忘了要给你温柔

(我怀念的)　我还有想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日　也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空　
最紧的右手　最暖的胸口
我放手　我让座　假洒脱　
谁懂我多麼不舍得
太爱了　所以我　
没有哭　没有说

2009-02-25T01:57:00.000+08:00

back...

was feeling crappy, but better now

ytd went bedok for tutoring again-_- met vanee and jh at amk hub aftertt for underworld! nice show, better den i tot though a bit draggy... and not as gorey as i tot! just the blood smear ACROSS(sideways) the wall only ma =s... HAHA aftertt we all sat in MAC and tried to plan our DIET... so not ironic... wanted to makan icecream lol =x... haha i realised ice cream is one temption i'll gladly give in to =x the only kind of sweet stuff i'll always enjoy =D...

this afternoon went to vanee hse with jh, watched journey to the center of the earth.... FREAKIN NICE SHOW... haha it weren't draggy at all, and managed to keep my attention for the whole movie... and only today i rmb that i had to return "get smart", which we rented and watched last thurs after our dinner... i totally forgot abt it, heng vanee returned it, a day late though... and decided to go out for dinner aftertt at lai lai kitchen... mich and ky joined us haha... though some stuff happened which made me a bit =s, but at least during the meal it was fun...

and i really think i shldn't have doubted andrew, after wat he had done for it... really sorry...

at least we sort of managed to talk it out... bbq still on =D

and tml will be just 3 of us and topone =s

2009-02-23T00:59:00.001+08:00

back =D

wed went to tgps.. met yf, and saw kiatyee by coincidence... passed him the present too =D... as a teacher without any assistant was so tiring... had to go ard to make sure they are writin down the correct stuff while i teach=s... and yf was right, the class was damn naughty =s... just nice i tio the class he taught... but overall, new experience for me, LOL... and still it's a better job =s... we stayed to help ruth with the clearin, b4 goin home...

thurs went bedok-_- dinner with vanee jh n ky aftertt... fri went down to zenitant... AND GOT LOST AGAIN... =S... 2nd time ler... end up was damn late lar, almost wanted to give up, but since i travelled all the way to REDHILL for it, i just moved on =s... and den the whole thing was just some talk that lasted for only abt an hour-_- but didn't regret goin though, but after lookin at their calendar, i think i'll only go sign up for projects after 6th march (the "triple R", Rumoured Results Release date), if not in case i'm goin back to sch, den the training time will not be worth it... aftertt yf and i went to orchard to take a walk... wanted to play pool but both of us no money, and just nice that day was fri so movie was ex too =s... no choice, just window-shopped, went to a few places i nv really had time to walk into b4 =x... met vanee for dinner aftertt

today went to east coast! with my guardian's family... didn't get to bike and all, weather weren't good =s... enjoyed eatin =x... watched as hf's bf played a few rounds of cable skiing though... and bought koko out thr too! koko is a dog btw =D

recently home is gettin a bit tense... with the cold war and all =s so i'm tryin to be nice by pretendin i'm very hungry and eatin as much food as i can... those that she preped i mean... i jus hope i dun have to do this for long, or i'm seriously gonna have some probs =s

a bit addicted to peggle lol =x... wanna complete all the challenges =x

and i'm lookin forward to topone outin this wed =D

recently a little bit hooked on this song... the actually song starts after abt 2.03 mins into the vid... haha and one of the dance steps always reminds me of aaron sia-.-

looks lik chalet will have to be cancelled... hopefuly can put together a bbq =D

and there was this nite, wednesday i think, that emer and i actually chatted over the phone for lik, 5+ hours? all the way till 3+ am the next day sia =s weren't watchin the time =s haha 1st time i chat with him didn't hear him spend half the time, or rather 90% of the time, saying that he's sian haha... though at the end of it both of us got a little bit emo, but overall it was an unexpectedly high session LOL

very tempted to change blogskin, but lazy =x

and even singapore have bush fires.... the weather is sure gettin... worse

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2009-02-17T23:46:00.001+08:00

WHEE~ my com is in a good mood today =D

sat was tiring! LOL laughed till tired... in the morn went for the NTU talk with angela cc n her friend, and i still decided that mathematical science is the course meant for me =D my course =D went amk kpool to find them aftertt, only to realised i'm actually the 1st to arrive-_- played a few games with leslie(non-jyss) and alex, haha was damn weird la, nv even talked to them b4 that =s got better after a while, since alex got try to talk LOL... den they arrived! vanee ky jh aaron(non-jj)... lik finally-_- by then actually the 3 of us played till a bit sian ler-_-... so after a few games, leslie went for his date and the rest of us decided to go to amk lib to find kiatyee junqiang yiyang... waited for them a bit to have dinner tgt with ky n yy, and somehow after the dinner, we decided to have pool again-_-... lol and it was actually alex who suggested it-_-... "ran" 2.4 km, and den jh ky yy started to sing their "siao char bo" to some song-_-... LOL laughed till we all was so damn tired on our way back sia... and they were lik tellin me i have not seen their really true colours yet-_-

sun tutored in the mornin, and my 2nd tuition assignment got cancelled... joined vanee claud mich in lib while waiting for the outin, makan prata! lol after a while they cnt take it le, so they went back while i scrolled for a while in jp... met pt junhao chienhan emer junjie at clementi for botak jones! haiz xueli n carine last min told me they cnt go, very tempted to cancel but no way to inform jj... luckily i didn't! haha crapped, ate, laughed... to me at least had quite a nice time with them... went pool with jh n emer aftertt, the rest had to go home... walked damn long-_- luckily thr de bus stop got 198 sia, if not i need to walk a long way back-_- HAHA junhao keep on own me and emer sia... i wore emer super big jacket also =s... play play play for abt 3 hrs! haha and we didn't even realised it was tt late ler =s lol nice sia, cheap also LOL

mon went work, vanee and guys, vivien and guys came to visit me! and heqiang waited for me to knocked off, and go makan! so at least i got humans ard me sometimes =x... today went bedok teach chem... omg chiong 3 hrs... after all my shortage of slp and all, that was simply tiring... initially was 4 hrs lor! but both of us cnt take it =s lol den went back to jp to meet grace, passed her the flower and my passion card so that she can sign up for her course... and omg i forgot her xmas card again... i can save it for this yr ler i think =s bumped into ivy, and went lib to makan prata again =x mich claud vanee was thr... stayed and chatted for quite sometime, den left

and at the rate i'm eatin, i'm gonna gain back my 5 kg in no time =s time for more exercising LOL

random:

one of my fav flowers =D

oh ya something i didn't blog abt... last wed after goin to tgps, i went ks hse to bake cookies with them! haha at 1st only wanna go chap one leg a while, den end up since i was dere, kop some dough and made a few for aaron(jj), since i cnt make flowers for him ma... not bad, though certain batch a bit hard =x

the cookies!

and glad that u girls like the flowers =D

and i really want more jobs so that i can work more days every week... AND I WANT CHALET!!! hopefully can find a cheap and good one for all of us! before dickee fly~ chalet without him is weird =s

MATHS ROCKS

copyrighted from ivy's blog, good article LOL
her blog got bigger version, 16 Feb

The key to choosing the right partner is to look for a person with good character, not simply good personality. Character determines how he will treat himself, you and one day, your children. Character is the foundation of any healthy partnership. A relationship may be likened to a cake, where personality is the icing, and character, the substance. When you're deciding whether a person is right or wrong for you, instead of asking "Does my partner love me?" You need to ask, "How capable is my partner of loving?" If your partner has an anger problem, he is incapable of loving you. If your partner hasn't "grown up", he is incapable of loving you. We are going to study the seven qualities to look for in a partner. These qualities are the basic building blocks of good character in a person.

Quality #1: Commitment to personal growth
What are some of the most common forms of problems couples face? One person
wants to work on the relationship and the other doesn't. One person tries to talk about problem issues and the other refuses. One person sees areas that need improvement and the other is in denial. Commitment to personal growth means : (a) Your partner is willing to receive help and guidance. There is no way a relationship can work if one partner refuses to seek help when necessary. This quality is something you must seek out in the beginning of a relationship . Because by the time you face a crisis in your relationship, it is often too late. (b) Your partner is conscious of his blind spots and emotional handicaps. It is dangerous to become involved with someone who is oblivious to his weaknesses and problem areas. There is no worse deception than self-deception and we need to admit our faults to one another. Pride and stubbornness is the quickest way to turn a partnership into a battleground.

Quality #2 : Emotional Openness
An intimate relationship is not based simply on sharing a home, a bed or a bathroom; it is based on sharing feelings. Your potential mate must have the ability to feel, know what he feels, desire to share those feelings with you, and know how to express those feelings to you. Many men and women are unhappy because they are involved in a relationship with a partner who can't express feelings. If your partner can't identify and share his feelings with you, he is not ready to be in an intimate relationship. What is the purpose of being with someone who is emotionally shut down? Staying in a relationship with a person who cannot share feelings is a form of self-punishment. Another way to describe emotional openness is "emotional generosity" - someone who is generous with his love, giving love freely without restriction. You are involved with someone who easily tells you how much he loves you, and shows how much he appreciates you. The opposite of emotional generosity is "emotional stinginess" - someone who holds back love and emotions as if they were in limited quality, offering you tiny bits and pieces of one's heart at a time. Emotionally stingy people will make you beg for love. You would have to pull their feelings out of them, they expect you to make a big deal of the tiny scrap you receive. Emotional openness is a vital treatment in a partner because it gives you access to his soul. It provides a way into his heart, without which one cannot become a soul-mate.

Quality #3 : Integrity
This is the consistency of character. Your actions match your words. Your choices match your vision. Your behavior match your beliefs. For a love relationship to work, honesty and trustworthiness are essential ingredients. Knowing that you can always trust your partner gives you a tremendous sense of security. If you have to live in constant fear that your partner is somehow lying to you, it will be impossible for you to relax in the relationship. You would always be unsure, doubtful and resentful. Look for someone whose actions match his words. When your partner is consistently honest with you, you will naturally trust him.

Quality #4 : Maturity and responsibility
There are people who are just aren't ready to be in a committed relationship. They may be lovable, and they may even love you very much, but if they haven't reached a certain level of maturity, you will feel you have adopted a "child" rather than a lover. How much do you know if your partner is mature enough to have a relationship? (a) He can take care of himself. If your partner has grown up sufficiently, he should be able to earn enough money to support himself, keep his bedroom relatively clean, know basic personal hygiene, etc. Our outward life is a reflection of our inward life. If the guy you are dating is messy outside, he is probably a real mess inside. If he is not grown up enough to take care of himself, what makes you think he can emotionally take care of you? (b) He is responsible. Maturity doesn't come with age; it comes with the acceptance of responsibility, doing what you say you are going to do. Your word is your bond - paying your bills on time, keeping your promises, showing up punctually, not letting people down, etc. Everybody deserves to be loved, but not everyone is ready for the responsibility that is required in an adult relationship. (c) He is respectful. One of the ways we know a child has grown up is his respect for people around him. Children have no understanding of boundaries. When they don't get what they want, they get into a temper tantrum. Men don't behave badly in public places. How do you know you are having an adult relationship? See how respectful he is of your feelings. Does he demean you publicly? How respectful is he of your boundaries, time, possessions, other people's feelings?

Quality #5 : Healthy self-esteem
Your partner can only love you as much as he love himself. A person with low self-esteem loves in order to feel good about himself. A person with a healthy self-esteem loves because he feels good about himself. The healthier your partner's sense of self-esteem is, the stronger your relationship will be. (a) He doesn't abuse himself, but takes good care of himself. The more you love yourself, the harder it will be for you to abuse yourself physically or emotionally. You can always tell how someone feels about himself by observing how he treats himself, the way he takes care of his body, his clothes and his possessions. All these are reflections of self-esteem. If he mistreats himself and doesn't mind it, you can be certain that he won't mind mistreating you either! (b) He takes action in his life. A person with low self-esteem is usually a procrastinator. He avoids action because he is scared to death of failing and feeling worse about himself.

Quality #6 : Positive attitude towards life
There are two kinds of people in the world: positive people or negative people. Of course, we want to be with the positive type! Yet, how many of us end up in relationships with the negative sort- always fearful, worrying, anxious, problem-focused, complaining and pessimistic about the future, not trusting easily? Love is a positive. It grows in an atmosphere that is positive and shrinks in an atmosphere that is negative. Relationships are much easier when you are with a positive person. You work through conflicts faster. There is less blame and more cooperation. Most of all, there is more love!

Quality #7 : Personal Chemistry
How does one define personal chemistry? It is very hard. You either feel it, or you don't! But one thing is certain: both you and your potential life partner need to have some form of personal chemistry in order to distinguish your relationship from a friendship. A word of caution here: personal chemistry doesn't have to be instant. Gradual attraction is usually more genuine because you are not just focusing on the physical looks, but the whole person. If you never felt personal chemistry or attraction to your partner even after a reasonable period of seeing each other, don't proceed! You are unlikely to develop those feelings overtime.

2009-02-14T09:18:00.001+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY!!! =D

wah ytd was a long tired day... HAHA like i said, arrived in school at 7+ to help with vday sales for eclub... and omg! i culdn't make it b4 the morning assembly! the whole mornin i was like, oh ya, my shoelace? my bag? and seriously didn't wanna wake at all =x

so i reached, set up the booth and all, and for the day, i'm the balloon girl! haha the tips of my fingers are losing their sense of touch after all the tying of these balloons... heng got ppl lik aaron, bingqi, yangping, yiming, anna to help me now and then... million thanks to them... though some of them burst a few balloons haha... and i didn't know he got a phobia for balloons!

saw a lot of ppl whom i didn't see for a long time, chat with those ppl i missed, made a few new friends, and got to help in making some of the bouquets... and vivien gave me a balloon flower! damn cute! and there was these guys, who were so desperate to find gifts for their ogls, they literally begged us to sell flowers to them, omg... but we culdn't cos all the flowers are ordered and thr's this guy, eugene, who bought 10 roses frm us and sold 1 to them at $2.50 for a profit of $1.50! they actually offered him lik 5 bucks for one flower! oh ya and good luck to anna =D

stayed on for jj nite! junhao and emer came to the school to join us as well... became fast friends with vien, shot me alot =s... think initially was a bit sian for them cos they didn't really join in... and mass dance! haha no guy partners, danced a bit with zhenying and ivy, most of the time just dancing my own part... and i forgot some of them ler HAHA... was tellin bernard i missed dancin with him! got slow dance too, danced with emer the seriously tall guy =s got a bit sian at the end of the 2nd song cos both of us didn't really follow and was just dancing the same step HAHA =x... but it was nice la haha... AND WE REALISED THIS YEAR DUN HAVE YI BA lol... song singing was, haha too high... i dunno whether it was good or bad... i only know dragged tilll very long... ended at lik, 11+? HAHA... they played when you say nothing at all and sometimes when we touch as well... went supper afterthat, with shiyun angela jon n junhao

HAHA and thanks vivien, for your flower balloon! =D

AND STUPID EMER AND MARCUS... keep dsiao-ing me abt my height =s

it was, nice, ytd... felt very at home, except that the ppl ard us are very diff... i miss the times when we were leaders the most HAHA... dun really feel odd and all when u just grab someone, and that person will be someone u somehow know, and dance, and get high tgt LOL... AND CHORI CHORI IS NV THE SAME WITHOUT TOMMY! haha and the juniors dun join in! we were creating this human train which kept breaking up cos ppl dun wanna run =S i miss eclub, too... valentines' day sales! this year is much quieter, cos of the camp? but other den that still ok... and miss ppl lik vien and guys, anna, jinhui, bingkun, aaron, bingqi, laixing too LOL... still very much the same HAHA... and didn't see yuansheng and zheyuan!

heard this song sometime ago on the radio, LOL damn retro but still nice haha

Baby 对不起 - Coco Lee

听到我的电话响一声就暂停
会不会是你我总怀疑
因为这原因心情不稳定

我们之间的问题是我不相信你
敏感又多心怕你变了心
因为爱你害怕失去你

爱的天气总是阴晴不定
爱的情绪也在欢笑中哭泣

(baby)想对你说声对不起
用错了方式去爱你
因为我太在意
(如果没有你) 我的世界只剩回忆
每天只面对孤寂
已来不及再说我爱你

自从那天分手后停不住泪滴
想念一个人能忘记自己
让我爱你什么都愿意

爱的天气总是阴晴不定
爱的情绪也在欢笑中哭泣

(baby)想对你说声对不起
用错了方式去爱你
因为我太在意
(如果没有你) 我的世界只剩回忆
每天只面对孤寂
以来不及在说我爱你

(baby)想对你说声对不起
用错了方式去爱你
因为我太在意
(如果没有你) 我的世界只剩回忆
每天只面对孤寂
已来不及再说我爱你

如果能再遇见你把你抱紧
从此不分离决不放弃
我要告诉你 baby i'm sorry

2009-02-13T00:53:00.000+08:00

ok today is just a work day

glad that sales reached over 200 though =D and heqiang visited me

heard abt rihanna getting beaten by chris brown... and ppl are askin the fm to stop playin his songs... but hey, his songs are innocent! that's y it's impractical for ppl to go extremely crazy over the singers just cos they can sing... i mean, you dun know them well!

ok, i think i wun have energy tml ler... going back to jj =D... at 7+ =D

2009-02-12T01:30:00.002+08:00

hi, com =D

last thurs went to gym with grace... haha so long since we last worked out! and i actually lost 4 - 5 kg despite that and cny! ok think shld try not to eat bread the whole day even if i work... and surprisingly we saw aaron too haha... he seriously look better den in the past, more meat now=x... fri went to work as usual, waited for heqiang to knock off, den went home with him after he makan lol... sun went for some lunch gathering for some organisation made up of ppl surnamed 蔡... 蔡氏聚餐 or sth lik tt de... every cny will have haha, at boon lay restaurant... went over to ky hse aftertt, to crap and mahjong with vanee and jh HAHA... thruout very scare my dress will drop =s end up play mahjong till a bit sian cos i keep lose (didn't play money, heng =x), den played showhand! first time leh, vanee taught me n jh HAHA... think the best part was the chat in kfc lor LOL, go back ky hse suddenly all quiet =s

mon went to work, and grace came and visit me for a while haha... den i actually saw zhiwei vivien eeseng and this girl call yanting! thx to them i got some porridge for dinner instead of my usual bread diet LOL... and ppl to chat with too! if not i'll be so sian the whole day... heqiang came ltr, much to my surprise, and waited for me to knock off for quite long sia =s abt 2+ hrs lehs =s... tue went bishan for, mm i shld say the briefing lar, for the teacher's assistant job, and went gym with grace, jievee and jieyi aftertt...

today worked at teck ghee pri sch!!! haha while helpin ruth i actually catched crickets bare hands! omg i didn't know whr i got my guts frm... and the kids was good lar, so much better den i expected after wat yf told me... maybe mine was a different class though... thr's actually these few girls who try to help and all, and all those stunts they do, so cute! next week i'll get to teach, hopefully the class next week will be as nice haha... i'm actually totally comfortable with this job, and i like it alot! too bad nxt week will be the end of this project already T.T... hopefully there'll be more haha... stayed back a little to help ruth with other stuff, she very stressed sia

i think phelps is just suay... that he happens to be the public figure who kena caught... that's the thing abt being famous, everything u do, u got a whole bunch of ppl whom u dunno personally to answer to... and u have to apologise to all these people you dun even know for being a normal human who makes mistakes, if they demand it, to keep your job... i mean, with or without that, he's still the person, the normal human, who won 8 medals... go easy on him la

and omg, she's the 1st person i've ever seen who cnt hide her stress and worries from someone she barely know... her stress level is pretty high sia =s

and i realised that recently a lot tragedy that's fire-related... bombs and forest fire and fireworks =s let's be more carefully when fire's involved

nice songs (or songs so frequently played on 9.87 that they sort of grew on me):
the show - lady lenka
t shirt - shortelle
1,2,3,4 - plain white T's
white horse - taylor swift
a little too not over you - david archuleta
just dance - lady gaga
decode - paramore (according to weekheng, the whole world is listening to this twilight soundtrack-_-)
breakeven - the script
bonuce - the cab
unbeautiful - lesley roy
love bug - jonas brothers
seventeen forever - metro station
best of me - daniel powter

when work is sian, listen to the radio =D

I WANNA WATCH BRIDE WARS... the whole world is lik tellin me it's nice and i still haven watch it! ARGHS!!! and omg andrew say benjamin buttons sucks lehs =s still got anyone wanna watch? i think i still wan =s

and oh, they actually got candyman for mass dance, BUT it's a diff dance T.T nvm la, our steps are simply too impractical if we wanna get the whole hall to dance... i mean, we dun dance at the synthetic field, ppl will crash into each other, so ya...

fri going back jj with aaron! to help with valentines' day sales HAHA... and jj nite! =D

nice song, pretty emo sia, but soothing...

2009-02-05T02:26:00.002+08:00

woo back... haha thurs went mahjong with vanee and cy at ks hse!!! HAHA lost $2.10, but i'm actually the one who lost least amongst those who lost... ks lost $8.40 and cy $7! vanee the big winner LOL

i actually built this while waitin for the very very late ceyu... inside is actually mainly hollow except for a normal can of 7-up... we waited till i managed to build till the hole in the middle is close sia-_-

fri went to meet yf, waited for him and played some games before we watched the wedding game with my sis... better then expected! not as boring as i thought haha, just that the ending a bit vague... AND I WANNA WATCH NEW IN TOWN!!! =x

sat went dickee hse to gamble... lost quite a bit of $$ =s... left after a while and went to bbq with vanee ky jh and guys aftertt... AND GOT TO EAT MY BBQ MARSHMALLOWS!!! haha... as usual they nv fail to crack me up... LOL den the guys do all sorts of funny stuff lik playin with the balancin beam =s... and i had a piece of hotdog in my bag-.-... i dunno who was tt-.-... mich and dickee came over for a while to take the key also LOL... mon went back to work... and damn i broke record... the 1st day these few years with no sales at all =s quite stress leh, but wat can i do? =s

tue met up with class and went to makan some sichuan dishes... LOL saw vanee and ky at lib and chat a bit b4 that... good news leh! =x... met up with angela wk cc zf zk, atmosphere quite good, den played pool at marina sq after zf collected his $150 at oriental... LOL quite long since i last played ler!

anyway it ended... and life still goes on HAHA... lettin go frees everyone...

i realised some things very zhun one... when i told someone i wanna go their hse use their com, suddenly my com can use again... and when i wanna use the com the most the com just cnt start... somethings, i just cnt help but believe in them...

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Was just reading the news (ok well, dun be too surprised, i was just too bored) abt this birthday celebration that resulted in fire and deaths and ppl gettin injured... i meant, indoor fireworks? that was rather brainless... u wanna have fun, but death shld be avoided as far as possible when it comes to lik, a birthday celebration? and i think tt applies to drink driving... yes u wanna a drink on ur birthday, but make sure u dun drive, or that might very well be ur doomsday as well... right, ur life is ur life, if u have to die u have to, but let's try to minimise the risk for the ppl ard u? it weren't their birthday celebration, they dun deserve to die with u, u know

and i miss mass dance! esp candyman! haha doubt i've ever dance that song with another guy again since so few guys actually knew the dance and rmb... i forgot a part of the guy's side also, and it's nv the same that way... and they'll nv use this dance for jj events again! since it's lik my family dance! so no reason for ppl to dance this song with me LOL... quite sad sia, + no vids taken T.T

Anyway, nice song:
The Show - Lady Lenka
the lyrics is... a bit emo? confused? but yet the tempo quite cheerful, so overall wun make u emo, but light-hearted in fact, somehow? LOL nvm, just enjoy the show~

轨迹，搁浅，说好的幸福呢 - 周杰伦
半情歌 - 元若蓝
后来 - 刘若英
Whatever It Takes - Lifehouse
When You're Gone - Avril Lavigne

Random:

PINEAPPLE TARTS. MY FAV NEW YEAR SNACK =D

got as much angbaos as expected =D damn happy haha, and this year new yr was ok! time to go back to job hunting... for more freelance and part time jobs lar HAHA....

一个人生活 - 林凡

叶子在窗外轻轻摇动
人行道没行人走过
镜子里的我很不像我
自从你离开了我变得很软弱

你的影子在每一个角落
好像是在提醒着我
少了你的陪伴
我现在有多寂寞

我想我可以习惯一个人生活
我想我可以假装不曾爱过
冰凉的夜里让眼泪温热我
我想我可以习惯一个人生活
在记忆里面擦去你的承诺
爱你怎么会是这个结果

叶子在窗外轻轻摇动
人行道没有行人走过
镜子里的我很不像我
自从你离开了我变得很软弱

你的影子在每一个角落
好像是在提醒着我
少了你的陪伴
我现在有多寂寞

我想我可以习惯一个人生活
我想我可以假装不曾爱过
冰凉的夜里让眼泪温热我
我想我可以习惯一个人生活
在记忆里面擦去你的承诺
爱你怎么会是这个结果

我想我可以习惯一个人生活
我想我可以假装不曾爱过
感觉如果要走谁能说 no
我想我可以习惯一个人生活
在记忆里面擦去你的承诺
爱情是个梦而我睡过头

2009-01-31T18:13:00.002+08:00

now i know what end of the world means. now that i went to it willingly, on my own initiative, after practically seekin it.

sorry, goodbye. take care.

2009-01-28T23:30:00.000+08:00

WOO!

I'm lik, so glad my angbaos didn't decrease... think cos it wasn't much to start with that its able to decrease even more, and economic crisis dun really hit my uncles' families badly...

=D

as usual on the 2nd day is the visitin... and was glad to meet up with some of my cousins, nephews and niece, had fun catching up and hanging out with them, and my 1st uncle... not jus cos he always give a lot, but also cos he's really a kind and nice old man... not really close to the others, and really cannot stand the way one of my little nephew always treat my 1st uncle (his grandpa) in front of all of us and his parents dun say much... to think i, or we all, used to lik him so much as a dear charming little boy =s...

and then there was of course the food! as usual haha... my whole family is very particular abt food and there will always be very good food during such sessions... and the adults, esp my 1st uncle, will be esp scared that we're not eatin enough and ask us to eat even more food! equals to me eatin quite a bit and the growing must to go for some workout HAHA

LOL overall cny is a tiring festival for me, since there's a lot of things to follow and do... and with my mum being a very traditional woman, i dun get to escape LOL... so much to do and prepare for the food alone! takes half the day before the eve, den hours on the day itself... not to mention all the cleanin in the hse... but the food was good lar, so nvm =D

2009-01-27T00:32:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

till now, i got 3 ang baos=D

last few days helped my mum prep for the meals, the prayers, and washed up some of the places. damn busy and tired. sat even went yf hse to ton mahjong with his cousin and mum. shiok sia. and they were fast lor, and with my stoned mini really cnt keep up =x. anyway, VISITING STARTS TML! ANG BAOS! haha

2009-01-24T01:17:00.000+08:00

wow my com rested for another week...

sun went makan with angela wk chenchen zf after work... end up i dun have enough money and zf paid the balance... HAHA chatted and catched up with each other, and overall, nice meal! as long as spicy it's nice =D... AND they damn high... aftertt we actually all decided to go kbox! and the next day all of us except bazhang need work! haha but it was cheap, and zf treated us, so we all went... abt $18++ per person till 3am leh! = abt $27 per person... but i sian cos i after 1st few songs my voice cnt take it... became so low that i got no prob singing guys' songs de verse lor! 1st time my voice deep enough sia! haha anyway, chenchen was fantastic, zhangfan was a lot better than i thought though a bit overboard... still enjoyed!

thurs i went back to sch to visit the aunties + pass them their photos... supposed to work that day!!! but, good thing is that liddat i can pass the aunties the photos cos they wun be able to open shop the nxt day... saw ppl lik vivien, arthur, sharon, benedict, mr choo, mr vp chua and mr seah... had fun catching up with them! HAHA... today finished all the chores den meet angela and yf for application to become facs... i like the job! freelance, and something i'm so damn familiar with! now is wait for milkboy schedule to come out so i can start applying ler... and maybe goin to chenchen's hotel to apply for job and see how also haha... acc angela to buy her shoes, before goin on my own to shop after she left for an appointment

AND I'M STILL CRAVING FOR BBQ MARSHMALLOWS. I DUNNO WHY =S

hope that this year's new year won't be as bad as last year, then maybe will invite some people to bainian... and i want angbaos! =D

in case i cannot get back online again,

HAPPY "MOO"NAR NEW YEAR IN ADV =D

Some nice songs:
Missing You - 范逸臣
Decode - Paramore
Nobody - Wonder Girls =x
Seveteen Forever - Metro Station
Love Bug - Jonas Brothers

1,2,3,4- Plain White T's

1-2-1-2-3-4
Give me more loving than I’ve ever had
Make me feel better when I’m feeling sad
Tell me I’m special even though I know I’m not
Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Barely getting mad
I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you
You make it easy
Its as easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4
There’s only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you
There’s only one way to say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you
Give me more loving from the very start
Piece me back together when I fall apart
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends
Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
You’re the best that I’ve had
And I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you
You make it easy
It’s easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4
There’s only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you
There’s only one way to say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you
(I love you) I love you
You make it easy
It’s easy as 1 2 1 2 3 4
There’s only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you
There’s only one way to say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you
(I love you) I love you
1-2-3-4
I love you
(I love you) I love you

2009-01-17T02:04:00.023+08:00

Woo!!! finally my com can use!~

anyway i finished the twilight saga!!! like long ago =x...

since i'm alr last to update abt yao's birthday, i'll update 1st

4th jan 2009! Ivy Goh's brithday celebration!

The resturant we celebrated at! HAHA les' uncle resturant! the resturant is actually located in sp, and ironically, none of us are frm it!!! though vanee... haha anyway it's lik, me and ivy frm jj, drew from pj, vanee frm nyp, mich and les from tp and dickee edwin ky claud frm np! none from sp! HAHA

It's an vip room we were given, and the boys decor-ed the room with lots and lots of balloons!!! WOO nice! and quite lame that les actually tried to fool ivy that he's not goin cos he goin grandma hse on tt day, when it's at his uncle's resturant somemore-_- LOL i almost revealed it, sry! =x

haha atmosphere all that was good, had a fun time catching up with everyone! and andrew! didn't see him for quite some time ler! haha must mention, some of the nice ideas for our photos came from this photographer of ours! but seems lik we wun be able to reach a proper date for chalet... chalet without dickee not quite the same ar LOL... and woo, nice planning frm les! 67 balloons!!! HAHA nice! after the meal half the time we were chasin after each other for it... chasing after claud to be exact cos she practically took all of it! peishan culdn't join us cos she got an overseas trip the next day =(... so we're lik one bytch lesser... haha anyway i not posing ALL pics, but most of them lol

The birthday girl! IVY GOH!!!

her dress is actually a gift that we asked her to change into on that day, from the guys as well as claud and mich! i got the same one previously but purple de=x ivy's fav colour=x... AND there was supposed to have 19 balloons tied to the chairs... andrew even confidently told us to count, and ivy, mich and me did! only 18!!! somehow edwin the maths pro failed maths HAHA... and the icecream cake was damn damn damn nice!!! thx to dickee!

photos we took in turns with the birthday girl!

photos of the bytches!~ without peishan... ideas by drew!

We love the balloons one the most!!!

LOL i'm not really involved in them, but they're nice! the card to ivy by the guys as well as mich and claud, and the ilu card from les!

The cake!

We all took turns to pose with the 67 balloons!!!

Our eight course meal:

HAHA when it came to the prawn everyone's 1st reaction is to ask andrew to deshell the prawns for us! HAHA stuff we'll nv forgot LOL... anyway, nice meal!

More pics:

All of us who went!

The guys!

ivy, and les the organiser for the day's event!

mich and dickee! (the pig and the boar)

mich vanee ky

me and the birthday girl!!! the jj bytches HAHA

i've no idea why he looks lik this

me and vanee!

failure attempt to zilian by me vanee and mich

me vanee ky

the mehmehs!

edwin dickee les

yao and drew

haha cousins!

ERM, this is actually taken in the girls toilet =x

vanee and ky with the sp rostrum... haha vanee in sp sia

edwin! with eyes! =x

lol these 2 pics quite classic. i like!

the helium tank which made all the balloons possible!!! HAHA at the end the few of us was practically playing with the helium, changing our voices with it!!! damn fun!!! dickee one esp cute!!! kawaii!!~

haha we were afraid to let the balloons fly till there, cos drew said that it willl burst!!!

1st jan met yf for dinner at pizza hut b4 we went up to aaron's hse... to visit his new hse!!! HAHA he just got back from india and we bought a big bunch of bangles for me which i have no idea when will i be able to finish wearing everything once... but good thing is india's bangles got size de, so those bangle wun drop out of my hands lik the others does... and still got a very nice box and a keychain with my name! HAHA yf got a coconut carved into an ah meng (i forgot what you call that animal, that "cousin" of the monkey =x)... damn cute lar! haha and i saw that he got breaking dawn! and since he was still at book 2, i borrowed it frm him LOL... easier to meet him also cos he also no sch LOL... chatted a while before we went home

2nd jan went nyp visit vanee with ky... met the other ky, yiyang and jq as well, super crappy!!! HAHA i actually went into a BIO lecture... at the last hour of it when some of them left, i was tryin to conc on breaking dawn FOR A SPECIAL REASON =x lol aftertt jq and vanee wanna scare someone away cos we wanted to play the piano he was playin LOL... HAHA we took turns and i realised i forgot some fo the keys! KY DAMN PRO. PLAY TILL DAMN NICE.

6th jan ivy, jenmey, aaron, huizhen, yufeng and i went to oriental to try find job... =s just nice that day we suay, dun have interview... nvm the rest of the girls went shoppin while yf aaron n i went play pool... omg too long nv play lost my touch liao... just to keep a record, i started wearin my contact lens on 7th...

8th sent khiam to ns!!! haha he damn emo lar, the only person there who nv call anyone else to go for the 4 hr tekong trip... lol too bad i workin if not i gonna accompany him and watch him kena shaved HAHA=x... saw ken too! haha was very bad, laughin at khiam thruout the whole journey to pasir ris, and laughin even more when i realised he's the only one with no company=x... went for juying campfire after work!!! with edwin drew ks les claud! HAHA met teachers lik mr teo, mrs hon, mrs yeo, miss chua! nice chattin with them, esp mrs hon! new year most likely goin back as well, if the rest are LOL... just disppointed with the organising committee this year, from what i've seen and heard... haiz... nevertheless, i'm glad that during my time, it was diff =D

11th, last sun, was a very interesting day for me... i forgot to call my student the nite before to tutor him in the mornin, so i had to scheduled it to 6.30 cos i need work... den i went down to collect my contact lens in the morn, and i left my wallet on the bus! i chased after the bus for one bus stop but u guys know how fast i run -_- and i actually stopped a car with family(luckily) and asked them to help me chase after my bus! and thanks to them, i got it back... den cos of that, i was gonna be late for work... collected my contact lens anyway, den decided to take a cab but somehow there was no cab and i end up takin bus... so i was quite late, and when i reached thr, the shop already open! i'm supposed to work on the nxt sun! LOL the miscomm arises cos i count sun as the 1st day of the week and the girl count it as the last day, so when she say "next sun", we meant diff stuff... so in the end tutored early haha

anyway that day got little nonya "special". damn lame waste my 5 mins.

tue went shoppin and buy contacts! went shop with vanee ky n jh HAHA, halfway thru meet ivy they all to go oriental and got thru this time... LOL aftertt went to meet them again, shopped till very late and end up i have to meet yf for dinner at tiong instead of je cos he got work the next day =x wed went back to sch to join in eclub stuff and collect my $200 cheque before i met wk to pass him my photocopied ic and den shopped... thurs aaron came to my shop to take the books and chatted awhile after my work before i met yf for dinner... ytd was just shoppin on my own

anyway, quite gettin the hang of doing sales! but weekday sales is so bad for me and shirley... i really wonder how minmin and bingjie can clinch so much even on their weekdays! but ok lar, gettin better...

now in the midst of planning my pri sch outing!!! SO lookin forward to it!

anyway i got a 16gb thumbdrive for 45.90 and a 8gb for my sis at 24.90! at sim lim haha! stored all my pics cos i got no idea how long this com will last =s and i got most of the stuff for new year! but still need search for a nice pink top =s

and workin at oriental sucks cos need to put make up =s

anyway, i wanna read: deception point, digital fortress, the pact(frm andrew's blog)
twilight saga was nice! esp breaking dawn! funny!

ANYWAY, I'VE BEEN CRAVING FOR BBQ MARSHMALLOWS FOR SOME TIME LER. CAN I HAVE A BBQ SOMEDAY???

and i realised i just wanna be happy for now, i dun care what happens in the future=D

左边 - 杨丞琳

总是
忍不住寂寞掉下眼泪
你才会给安慰
担心
短暂的晴天随时都可能
被阴霾收回
等待
有机会最坏也最甜美
我乐观却疲惫
因为
太怕失去你
所以连快乐里
都装满伤悲

你不曾发觉
你总是用右手
牵着我
但是心却跳动在左边
你和我之间的遥远
永远隔着亲切
爱少得可怜
伸出右手想陪着你
向前走
感受你爱我的心跳在左边
那么深深爱你的我
相信你会了解

总在
埋怨过你的冷漠之后
又急着说抱歉
仿佛
向疏远的你乞求一点体贴
都是我不对
结果
有可能最美也最可悲
我做好了准备
也许
太自由的你心里面那个家
谁也不能回

你不曾发觉
你总是用右手
牵着我
但是心却跳动在左边
你和我之间的遥远
永远隔着亲切
爱少得可怜
伸出右手想陪着你
向前走
感受你爱我的心跳在左边
那么深深爱你的我
相信你会了解

我一直相信总有一天
你会用左手
牵着我走向明天
未来很遥远却会实现
心在同一边
就能够听见
你说的那句
我爱你

你不曾发觉
你总是用右手
牵着我
但是心却跳动在左边
你和我之间的遥远
永远隔着亲切
爱少得可怜
伸出右手想陪着你
向前走
感受
你爱我的心跳在左边
那么深深
爱你的我
你一定看得见

2009-01-07T23:06:00.001+08:00

OK, i know this is late, but here is my 1st post of 2009.

last year is the year where i really discover myself... both the good and bad, with all that had happened...

All the significant stuff that changed me or affected me:
O1.Dramafest.VD sales.piano.YOG.chi n pw results.workout sessions.class T.BU4.phone spoilt.THAT conflict.talentine.council investiture.sports meet.eclub camp.intensive study.Unpainted.class photo.teachers' day.f1.flowers.A levels.class chalet.prom.attached.twilight saga.malaysia.xmas.work hunting.

All the treasured outings and meet-ups with:
MY BYTCHES <3. 3E'05. cs yy yw. yufeng. aaron. grace. angela. Yunnan family. THAT family. S25. jinhui. biking guys.

Theme songs of a part of my life last year:
Jolin Tsai - 你怎么连话都说不清楚
戴爱玲- 对的人
石欣卉-我知道我变漂亮了
你没想像中爱我 - 石欣卉
珊瑚海 - 周杰伦,Lara
Breakaway - Kelly Clarkson
你最近还好吗 - S.H.E.
天空 - 蔡依林
Whatever It Takes - Lifehouse
Sometimes When We Touch - Olivia Ong
半情歌 - 元若蓝
带我走 - 杨丞琳

2008 is the last year of my jc life (i hope) and the year where i got truely involved in leadership activities in school again, with opportunities were given to me near the end of 2007. it is the first time i found myself constantly mugging(which i assured you have never happened in all other years of my life, and my preparation for O levels is not even 1% of what i've done for A levels). Mugging to keep myself busy, to stop myself from thinking, to keep up with the work i've missed in the previous one and a half years in jc, and most importantly, to go into Uni and not disappoint the ppl i love. and to be honest to a certain extent i actually enjoyed it. enjoyed studying, enjoyed thinking my way out of challenging problems, enjoyed discovering more, enjoyed the sense of achievement and the competition. But i hope i need not enjoy it in JC again =D. *pray*

And i miss the mass dances, esp candyman, geek get the girls, aint it funny, pump it, five colours in her hair!

And learning piano. had to stop though...

And the new, or rather, closer relationships. knowing people lik yufeng aaron grace angela vivien yensze lydia jinhui better. realised who are the people whom i can really trust and rely on, to be with me when i'm upset. people whom i really can call friends. or boyfriend =D.

And with 2008 ended, 2009 is a new beginning.

So here's my new year resolution for 2009:
1) Learn piano. hopefully complete Grade one
2) Earn money to "change" my wardrobe. i need clothes that are more mature.
3) Continue to keep my table tidy
4) SLIM DOWN! 46 kg? =s

That's it

and for the short-term stuff

Things i want to do:
1) buy a new bag, a set of casual wear (inculding shoes) and a bolero for new year
2) go for a full body check up
3) try to see if it's possible to organise a sec sch mates chalet =S... maybe during july break?
4) find more part time jobs

so here's my new year update. will update again abt:
1st jan: dinner with yf, visit aaron's hse
2nd jan: nyp visit
4th jan: Ivy's birthday celebration
5th jan: work
6th jan: oriental, pool with yf and aaron

once i get the photos!

2009-01-01T21:03:00.001+08:00

back for another update... HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! :)

ok 21st: met up with jingying to discuss abt 100 tasks before she leaves for Perth! fortunate girl! did a bit a shoppin after she left, returned home empty handed =s... 23rd: Had dinner with mich, jol n auntie sharon before meeting up with the rest of the girls for manicure session! i seriously wonder how they paint the nails without doin tt to the sides =s so zhun =s den we did some shoppin, and some slackin and home!

24th: xmas eve!!! met mich n ivy in morn for some damn last min shoppin... got back, prep, den went out to meet the COT! i tot i was damn late! HAHA dinner at lau pa sat, + catching up and throwing fires =x had to left soon for movie, didn't get to join them for countdown, and forgot to take a group pic with them! =s... rushed down to bugis for avatar... NICE SHOW~ HARGH! lol =x afterthat, we decided not to ton and went for supper at prata wala~ both vanee and i agree that the food there is overrated =s lib's prata is so much nicer!!! den as we wait for ky's mum to come, we camwhore~ like, 5 of us took 37 pics tgt! within lik half an hr HAHA

25th: went up to jol's hse to pass her the xmas present and aunties sharon's~ cabbed, as it was raining, to michie hse, den to the mrt station to take a train down to meet yf and aaron for dinner! stupid aaron, starts suanin me non stop the moment he see me-.- ocs leh, shld grow up le!!! lol we went to makan at xin wang... this is the 1st time several sides and desserts were ordered.. THEY SURE GOT A BIG STOMACH. esp aaron, I DUN UNDERSTAND WHR ALL THE FOOD GOES TO... ok he did put on weight, but with MUCH EFFORT and he must eat SEVERAL TIMES MORE =s... walk ard to 313 to take a look, den wanted to play pool at lucky plaza but it was closed... and all of us were tired, so we went home~ dropped by michie's hse b4 that

26th: went mahjong in the morn with my bytches! + kelvin lol... he's damn lame, ky hse no need any aircon next time ler-.- HAHA and i tink he now super scare of us =x opps =x went off to meet S25 aftertt! had a nice dinner at some italian restaurant recommended by weekheng, slack for very long, and off we went to rebel! i would say this is my 1st real clubbin experience~ with a bit of alcohol, you can really get high enough on the dance floor! and we started the dance floor that day (partly since we were so early and we just wanted to get it started)... glad that the boys were there to protect us, esp weekheng who kept lookin out for both of us girls and ken who sent me home aftertt~

28th: lunched with helga yt n fm at kuishinbo! haha thx yt! :) were chattin and eatin, abt alot of things and totally enjoyed the good food~ slacked at yt's hse aftertt, before he sent me to sch to settle my stuff and helga home~ finished up the last bit of my proposals after i got home~

29th: meetin in the morn, at 9am, and we were lik, informed ~7 hrs beforehand =s my schedule was messed up totally.. met vanee n ivy after dinner to do get somethings and home for more calls to make and smses to send... but, to no avail... AND... results are out... 3.5 for me =s=s=s

30th: went to balestier ite to regis for my sis~ ya she's studyin thr, so far away! aftertt went to ichiban sushi for lunch... met auntie sharon by chance, and chatted with her after my fam went home~ caught the movie bodyguards and assassins with yf and his friend... nice nice nice!!! tutored, home~

31st: meet the sec sch peeps for a mini bbq! credits to les n ed for prepin the food~~ HAHA kelvin came as well, and we had a fun time bytching (and eating) !!! joined the holdens afterthat, tgt with yf at marina barrage... didn't really see the fireworks, kena blocked lol... went down to makan tao huey(pak, our newest member, and jingchu drove =x) and slacked, before going down to jurong safra, to play lan-_- ya i mean it... and lol it was fun! my 1st try on CS haha~ though i'm usually the one who's killed =x, i still found it quite fun! slacked at pioneer mrt afterthat before going home... thanks to our drivers! who're tired but still drove us home safely! haha~~

and things to say:
1st, thanks for all the cards and present... and i love the cookies frm peishan! so cute! and this xmas is certainly different, and fun :) loves the company over the few days!

and, i really really need to work hard, alot harder next sem, if i wanna get a 2nd upper... i deserve those sucky results, i know... no pain, no gain... gonna cut down on slackin and playin!!! RAHHHH

clubbing... is totally fun and addictive... u wanna stay there and u wun wanna get off... and the empty feelin you have after the session makes u wanna just go back... but it's certainly unhealthy though... a place where i certainly will not want to go back to often... i dun want it to mess my life up, take my friends away, and make me forget my responsibilities... but certainly somewhr i'll not mind going from time to time, for the fun :) and with the right company~~

and speaking of which... my bash tics sales is only at 1!!! out of the 28 tics i'm holdin on to =s=s=s must jiayou jiayou!!! why must it be on thurs? =s=s=s dickee also sayin thurs hardly got people go there, too empty... ARGH... and i tink some of them every worried too =s=s=s sianz =s=s=s and more issues are comin up... some people are taking their positions for granted =s eliminate!!! lol and the the right person for the post! =x=x=x working with peopl really sucks =s=s=s wat's their idea of an orientation? and so many things comin up so last min, but so bo bian... lik how my prog meetin falls on 5th, when i have chalet from 4th to 6th =s=s=s jiayou jiayou!!!

nevertheless, i'm just glad the year is over... it's been a long painful year... things couldn't get any worse ler ba??? haha... no new year resolutions, i guess that's no way it'll be worse... work hard, and for all we know, the year'll be over in the blink of an eye, all the while bringin new surprises for us to celebrate and put the past away :)

2008-12-31T23:56:00.001+08:00

~~emoism~~

now that i'm finished with eclipse and new moon, done with my own "financial planning", with the countdown cancelled (damn last min), there's nothing i can do... to keep my mind busy again... perhaps i'll got and watch some movies online ltr

before that, let's end off the year with a post

which was why i didn't really want "emoism" to be the 1st word that appears in the post, though i've practically and conveniently left it there... because there really isn't anything else i felt, now, today

not that this year wasn't good... just, weird at the thought of it ending, perhaps i did not realli think much about it till this very moment...

LOL and emo-ing here is not helping with all the stuff drifting and smashing and floating and stomping through my mind...

ok for the more trival part, i finished new moon and eclipse! and my work went well ytd, i managed to clinch quite a number of deals... but today was... didn't start out well for me, 1st i only knew last min ytd that i had to work today, and i had to wake up much earlier again for tutoring, den aftertt i realised kerine (my boss) was coming down, and her presence actually made me very nervous... and i think she weren't very pleased with how i've performed when she was ard... but nvm, my results in the 1st half of the day was still quite good... just as i was glad to get away from the stress, i saw that sms from wk right after bingjie took over the work, informing me that the outing was cancelled... and suddenly i have nothing to look forward to again... met hongfa on the way home, and was very glad of his company... although we've only met once beforethat and we've barely talk the other time, i chattered with him quite easily without effort... didn't accept his invitation to join the rest for countdown though, in case the whole thing turned out weird...

and this is my last day of the year... well, i shld be glad that i've actually been making money?

was actually still excited that i've finished eclipse, which means i'm going to find out how things will turn out soon enough... but apparently it left me with nothing exciting to do... btw, poor jacob T.T... i just hope he'll go and imprint on someone else so that he also gets a happy ending, which i think most likely edward and bella will... not without her becoming vampire, though? maybe if i get too bored today, or possibly tommorow as well, i'll go and reread the two books

anyway i realised i really really HATE IT when people cancel something on me last min... it's extremely terribly irritating, esp since i'll left the day out for it, BOOKED the day for it, looked forward to it, and all of a sudden it got cancelled... without me understanding why, but even if i did what can i do? the slightest consolation was that i wasn't already on my way there when it happened, unlike the other day... i'm getting tired of outings

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2008. coming to an end.

2009. approaching.

i dun feel like summarising the whole of last year in my current state... it won't do justice to the really happy times i had

but, let's move on with the year ahead

nothing good to look forward to, yet...

i mean, i'm like, 100% positive i'll fail both H1 Gp and H1 Lit, which is not going to get me into a uni even if i got my 100%-guarantee A in maths, because i definitely won't get full marks, and it doesn't matter if i got a very high A because it simply wun be reflected in the cert...

and the shop i'm working at might need renovation, and i wun have a job for that period, but i dun realli wanna quit since i've promised the person to work thr...

and think about chinese new year, having all my relatives after my results... and the possibility of facing that stupid cheating uncle of mine who nv even think of us when he stuck rich, but suddenly rmb whr we stayed when he got fake goods to sell... i didn't realised that particular uncle of mine was doing that until recently, and i really can't seem be able to stand seeing his face...

and the volcanos erupting at such high frequently i think global warming is just a minor case in the world

anyway, for now, i'm just gonna earn as much money as i can before i face the possibility of repeating myself. come to think of it, i still owe my dad $100

trying to stop thinking of whatever i'm thinking of now

2008-12-28T22:29:00.000+08:00

ok, i'm sick, went to see doc...

haha my throat was already in a bad shape, in addition to all the bbq and outing meals, i got quite bad, and since my dad and my sis was so seriously ill they needed docs, my mum just forced me to go as well

on the up side, i got 5 bucks to top up my ezlink card. well, 5.50 really... if not i'll be walking to and fro jp to meet mich...

and i met her, to get NEW MOON and ECLIPSE from her!

haha, like, finally! haha thanks!!!

finishing half of new moon ler... was so upset when i kept reading and i saw no signs of edward!!! T.T... but i think he's coming back soon cos laurent found her and told her victoria planned something bad for her... HAHA that instant i thought edward will appear! with the wolves and laurent, bella weren't safe... but i tink the wolves are actually jacob and guys, so they went after laurent instead... who knows? but i think edward's coming back, so i better settle my stuff on the net now before i bury myself into the book... and think i might wanna try for some games now that i'm here... the game ytd was a fun one, no matter how er xin i find it =x... haha hopefully i'll find such games on the net LOL

anyway, as i was flipping thru the papers while waiting for my parents just now, i saw this chinese article about having no "Crtl Z" in life... and i found it quite interesting...

of cos, what else will it talk about but to treasure what you have now, but to think before you act? haha... perhaps it's because i never really think of "Ctrl Z" - in case you dunno, they are the destinated keys to undo an error when handling(typing or formatting) some form of document - as applied to life... which was why the piece of chinese article actually drew my attention... not really the meaning but the figure of speech, "Ctrl Z" being the undo-ing... though i doubt that many ppl will really be as interested as i was =D

anyway gonna work on tue... =D

2008-12-28T02:13:00.001+08:00

http://www.2flashgames.com/f/f-Karoshi-Suicide-Salaryman-6632.htm

THE GAME IS... OMG

haha fun, u need to think of ways to, erm, die? but some is terribly lame de-_- if not for mich i wouldn't know how to play those-_-... SUPER SADISTIC... ok to me at least =x... yufeng you will like it i think =x

but i still finished the 50 diff levels in the same day, because i frequently delete temporary internet files, so most likely my records will be gone the next time, which mean to say if i wanna complete another time (which i will most likely want to), i need start from scratch. which i dun wan because
1) some lvls need a lot of coordination, which i suck at, and had to refresh dozen of times before i get it right =D
2) i was beginning to feel er xin-ness seeing myself die again and again towards the end

but it's a good stress reliever =x... the sound effects quite good =x

2008-12-27T23:38:00.000+08:00

I'M LEFT WITH 15 CENTS

since ytd =D

one more day to go, and i'll get my weekly allowance! =D

oh anyway, now even my ezlink card is -ve value haha =x

like that's anything to be happy abt -_-

but, since i dun really have to go out anyway, =D

anyway, i forgot to include meeting yufeng and his family for xmas dinner on mon after the outing... forgot about it =x

met up with yf ytd as well, accompanied and helped him get some stuff for some st johns event...

http://www.2flashgames.com/f/f-Karoshi-Suicide-Salaryman-6632.htm <== playing this now. stuck.

2008-12-25T23:32:00.006+08:00

I'M LEFT WITH 45 CENTS FOR THE REST OF THE WEEK

means no goin out... or going out but no spending, which is highly impossible... but jogging and tutoring seems find =D

anyway, despite the shortage in cash, it's still chirstmas!

MERRY CHRISTMAS =D

anyway, i'm just glad my com is back... i could not switch it on for 6 days!

last thurs celebrated vien's birthday with ys, yf and zw! haha my sis tagged along too... WATCHED TWILIGHT!!!

haha have to say la, that after reading the book, i do feel disappointed... the book write till too nice ler lar!!! haha but nevertheless, it is a very nice movie =D... hang abt the extension with him for a while afterthat...

fri and sat was the training... haha being a salesgirl there is quite fun! i kinda like it =D

mon met up wit yao, vanee, mich n ky! went makan mac breakfast, den watch twilight the 2nd time! haha went la liang at burger king before dickee joined us to discuss abt xmas...

tue went to my guradian hse early in the morning... den erm, crap happened... was on mrt when the k box tio cancelled... end up angela and i met up with junhao and treated him to miss clarity cafe's stuff! haha

den wed... met up early with dickee edwin leslie to get the movie ticks and bbq food... spent a lot sia... den head down to les hse to help marinate food (we ended up slackin thr while his dad marinate =x) den went to my gurdian hse... WAS DAMN LATE WHEN I MET UP WITH THEM... haha rain sia, end up we went dickee hse de staircase thr bbq =x... some of the boys was bbq-ing, den a few of us mahjong-ed (after i watch little nonya)... ate, den went for the movie! hehe THE YES MAN!!!

haha all of us was late, but the movie started quite late! so we didn't miss anything! =D haha when we were all in place and before the movie start, edwin dickee ivy and les drew lots (drew movie ticks really) and edwin was damn suay!!! drew H-09 (the destinated ticket to do the forfeit, and just nice the place he was seating at) and was forced to shout merry christmas in the theatre!!! haha luckily some of the ppl behind us cheered with us too, if not he'll be damn paiseh! =x nice experience for him haha... anyway funny show, laughed all the way and ya, no one slept, thankfully haha =x

after movie everyone wanna go home, but i cnt, so i stayed at vanee hse after all of us walked home... thanks mr edwin ang for walking at our pace and accompanying us two girls! hehe... used her com durin the nite while she slp b4 comin home to slp as well... woke up after 4 hrs, havin a terrible headache now =x but dun feel lik slpin =x

those who went: mich vanee yao(movie) shan(movie) claud(bbq) mindy(bbq) yingjing(bbq) seokhui(bbq) dickee edwin les kengsiang tingwei amos hsihing(bbq) ceyu(bbq) joel(bbq)

Thanks:
- DICKSON for the organising! sorry to get ur surname wrong =x
- MICHELLE and VANESSA for the cards! =D and to vanee, for putting me up at her hse too
- IVY for the cookies... Nice!!! I dun bear to finish them!
- YUFENG for the midnight call
- THOSE WHO WENT =D
- All the 'WELL-WISHERS'

glad for the stuff to keep me occupied... sometime earlier i'm been feeling a terrible overwhelming sense of insecurity that bugged me esp at nite... perhaps there was too much time for me to dwell on depressing issues, or perhaps it was really because there was problems... but anyway, i feel much better =D

lookin forward to new year countdown =D

2008-12-18T00:36:00.001+08:00

LOL my life is currently a bit boring, so ya, nothing to post... thankfully i'll start being busy start frm tml =D

added 15 new songs to my playlist, since i'm like, bored to death

just to mention a few:

- 楊丞琳 - 帶我走
nice song! mentioned in my previous entry

- Britney Spears - Santa, Can You Hear Me
- Mariah Carey - All I Want For Christmas Is You
my fav xmas songs!

- The Script - The Man Who Can't Be Moved
intro-ed by aaron, erm, it is touching, but also to me, in a way funny if u listen to the lyrics, the words pieced together quite humorous, though both aaron and yf dun seem to find it so, but i agree that is meaningful at the same time LOL

- Plain White T's - 1 2 3 4
intro-ed by ken, sweet song! and i like the pace, light-hearted and gentle, nice combo with the sweet lyrics! =D

- Skye Sweetnam - Tangled Up In Me
haha very old song ler, but nice =D

the rest needs little intro =D

random pics:

taken when we went ky hse! by vanee =D

thx to ruiyu!

2008-12-16T19:18:00.003+08:00

ok, nvm the previous entry, i'm feeling better =D

things will work out

thanks cs for listenin to my blabber late last nite, and ky n yf for the concern...

today nth much, tutored den go huan tai sui...

anyway ya, here with a song from "campus shrewd"... haha i dun realli watch except when too bored, but this song is nice!!! HAHA

带我走 - 杨丞琳

每次我总一个人走

交叉路口自己生活

这次你却说带我走

某个角落就你和我

像土壤抓紧花的迷惑

像天空缠绵雨的汹涌

在你的身后

计算的步伐每个背影每个场景

都有发过的梦

带我走

到遥远的以后

带走我

一个人自转的寂寞

带我走

就算我的爱你的自由都将成为泡沫

我不怕带我走

每次我总独自远走

保持缄默不皱眉头

这次你却说一起走

彼此温柔从此以后

像土壤抓紧花的迷惑

像天空缠绵雨的汹涌

在你的身后

计算的步伐每个背影每个场景

都有发过的梦

带我走

到遥远的以后

带走我

一个人自转的寂寞

带我走

就算我的爱你的自由都将成为泡沫

我不怕带我走

wo``` 白马溜过漆黑尽头

潮汐袭来浪花颤动

凝在海岸结成了墨

wo~~ 蔷薇朝向草原气球

邮差传来一地彩虹

刻在心中还打着脉搏

带我走

到遥远的以后

带走我

一个人自转的寂寞

带我走

就算我的爱你的自由都将成为泡沫

我不怕带我走

带我走

就算我的爱你的自由都将成为泡沫

wo~~ 带我走

2008-12-16T00:44:00.000+08:00

i think i was hopelessly naive...

who really cares?

is it really that case that i ask for too much?

or ppl just dun wanna give a stupid damn?

priorities?

tired and sian

a matter of "cannot" or "dun wan"?

i suddenly dread the festival i liked most...

SUCKS

does it still matter?

when no one misses each other after so long?

SIAN

2008-12-15T23:30:00.000+08:00

BACK FRM M'SIA

well the trip was ok... not extremely wow but not extremely boo either...

1st day was practically slpin, eatin, tv-ing and readin, except that we visited a guan yin temple and a night market...

2nd day visited such fishing villiage, the place pronouned as "gu-gor" or sth liddat, i dunno the actual spellin... and it was raining-_-... but still had an ok trip... den is slpin, eatin, tv-ing and readin

last day visited organic farm before heading back

the activities only abt so... BUT THE FOOD FOR ALL THREE DAYS WERE GREAT... i tink i've put on more kilos this few days =s... haha my aunt's and mum superb cookin, with all the superb food you can get thr... hard not to sia... and ya, my cousins was nice...

thruout this period, with all the visitin outside and all the tv that i watched, i actually managed to finish 300+ pages of the book with ant-sized words i got from lib... that is how free i was...

i miss my aunt, very nice lady in her seventies... but other then that, i'm still very glad to be back in sg =D

just now very sian... maybe disappointed, but after thinking through everything, i think no use getting buey song over small stuff... so ya, just see how thing will work out lor... a bit tired of gettin everything done for dunno wat liao... but ya, still, nth much even if i stop as well... haha ya, life will be happier =D

anyway ya, lookin forward to k box! haha...

wanted to say more, but dunno what i culd have said...

2008-12-13T01:22:00.001+08:00

WOOT. I'M DONE WITH TWILIGHT.

1st few pages was a bore... it didn't realli interest me till the part whr edward seemed to hate her... and i culdn't take my eyes off ler!!! took me abt a day to finish it, since i started last night... and WOOT! nice!!! AND NOW I'M LOOKIN FORWARD TO THE MOVIE!!! AND THE NEXT FEW BOOKS!!! WHEE~~~

the excitement aside, i went running with grace today! haha 1st time i exercised since prom!!! and she quitted the job

anyway, i'm going to m'sia tml... got a book frm the lib, cos i figured that i will have nth much to do when the adults talk... well, i'll be able to join in at times, but not for very long though... different area of interest... so i guess my book will be the best part of the trip... and my sister might very well fall aslp since my niece and nephews wun be ard to play with her... and ya, i'm hopin the weather will be better too =s... and that the trip will be better than i tot...

anyway life has been boring, and seems to get more so as the days pass... sian

BUT: TWILIGHT WAS NICE. AS BREATHTAKING AS EDWARD DOES.

2008-12-11T00:27:00.001+08:00

wah finally back...

anyway ya, just to inform, i'm going to malaysia from the 13th to the 15th to visit my relatives

so ya, abt the stuff tt had happened... visited aaron workplace the day b4 prom... and again the day after, which was why i had to go down to eunos right after tonnin at da's hse... and i'm glad a actually stayed awake thruout the time yinxi(aaron's manager) was explaining everything to me (or rather trying to convince me), and ya, stayed firm abt not joining though i did breakdown under the pressure they were trying to crave into me...

but the mindless part of that day came when i rejected the job at the tuition centre... but nvm, i'm not regreting it le and found another...

den aftertt i went to ryan's hse with aaron... haha weird, dun realli know most of the ppl thr, dun even know ryan very well too, so just stuck with aaron and yf thruout... met his gan ma, who appears to be very friendly, and is the fashionable type of mum haha... so ya, returned home damn late =s

den ya, stayed at home most of the time to clear up my stuff... my room is finally lookin lik a room haha... last fri went ky hse with jh and vanee again... AND I FINALLY GOTTEN TWILIGHT!!! haha finally i'll get to read it =D... mm, den sun went out with my guardian's family, and ytd went to angela's hse to collect my stuff... haha we had a long long chat... we nv really chatted like that before, ytd was the 1st... things i nv knew, and hopes of being able to meet up, and more about each other... so ya... today went out with yf... haha we met in the afternoon to watch bolt... damn funny lar! haha and cute too! not exactly the movie that will make ppl "wow", but definitely lift the spirits... lol and we had ice cream at swensons... met up with aaron who wanted to collect his stuff, den home...

so ya, that was abt it... anyway, ya i've changed my blogskin... haha weren't exactly suitable for my content, until after some editing... so ya, here you go, a new blogskin finally haha...

once i got the time, will change more to my songs and picture slideshow=D

ya, so the time for all the emotions to flood in, all the time to think...

wanted to write more, but mind a bit blank le... so...

2008-12-10T03:21:00.001+08:00

ok quick update. i jus change my blogskin hopin to make it a little more user friendly, so if still find it strainin to read, perhaps due to it's bright theme, do feedback... haha anyway, that cute little creature is a little kitten haha... speak more next tym, nites *yawns*